i M a GaL

stupid MV(s)

2007-02-05T18:45:00.000+08:00

coughing and coughing......
wat else... haiz...

today again no lesson.... haha... y i so free de...
but this morning i did my statistics homework....
sian.. got 1 qn dunno how to do... i dun like the feeling of not noeing to do anything..

even though i had 2 references for my OB assignment, i have not started doing it yet..
need to go to the lib again... sian...
y is the lib so far.... troublesome leh.... i need a car... hahahaha...
or sld i say i wan someone to give me a car.. hehehe...

haiz... mama's saying tat im v noisy again....
she keep nagging and keep tokking to herself lo.... =.="
i cough not i wan de mah... i cant control de lo...
haiz... she keep tokking to herself..!!!!
i dun understand y ppl like to tok to themselves.... makes them look crazy....
fan ah..!!!!

i got nth to do tonite... tmr and the day after..!!
will onli be occupied frm thurs onwards.... boring week....
sat still gotta go to ah ma hse for reunion dinner... sian leh...

oh ya... i long wanted to share this MV liao le... hahahah
its so funny lo...
everytime i see this MV i wanna laugh.... hehe..
u all see see lo.. hehe...

hehehehe...
wats so funny u may tink...
but den u see ah... the guy didnt die of accident... so wat is so ke lian...
the guy committed suicide de lo....
he jumped up the car himself lo.... hahaha..
dunno y i tink its funny tat he committed suicide la... hahaha...

got another MV oso v funny de... i now forget the title le...
nxt time den put up on my blog... hehehe....
v stupid MV(s) lo..

Sorry i lied...

2007-02-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

went town shopping wif jun today...

she returned me my sweater... hehe... and she bought a v cute pen for me... and oso a note book.... hehe... frm disneyland wor... dun play play..

hehe....

we met v early today.. cos i wanna go home early watch superstar at nite.. hehe..

went for lunch at sakae...

wah... eat until v full... haha....

v good.. cos lunch time not much ppl de... hehe...

den we go walk ard orchard lo....

hmm... really nth much to buy leh.... hahaha... seems like i've nth left to buy liao le...

wanna buy lingerie de... but den didnt see any i like de.... hahaha... and seems tat i've "grow up" again.. haiz... sian la....

love CK tang de fitting room... hahahaha... tat inner wear section de... hahahaha...

really v beautiful lo...

can slp inside liao lo... hehehe....the fitting room is abt 3/4 of my room bah...

hahaha...

den we went to centrepoint... hahahaha... had Fondue at Häagen-Dazs... hehe... really v nice lo... got ice-cream, fruits and cookies.... hahahaha...

i like the green apple with chocolate.... nice lo... hehehe..

cant eat the ice cream... cos its really v cold...

but after eating the fruits, hahaha... my cough come back again.... jialat lo....

somemore its cold tonite... haha..

i came home to watch superstar.... haha..

hhahaa... nth special la.... but its the grand finals le..

so muz watch...hehe....

Daren won..!!! male champion again...

im now listening to the songs i recorded last fri... hahahaha...

my li bu kai ta really sucks.... aiyo.... the 1st time i sang tat song.. its nice de lo...

den now not so much feel liao le... and no energy to sing... v piao~~~

somemore i keep coughing... lolz.. recorded my coughing inside too... wahahaha...

i like kaida's ming tian guo hou... hehe...

its nice leh... oso like his hao peng you....

there's smth i muz admit... i told a lie ytd....

im so sorry...

but i dun wish to say wat i lied abt... haiz...

all i can say is sorry....

personality tests....

2007-02-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

i jus did a personality disorder test... hahahaha..
see my results :

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid		26%
Schizoid		34%
Schizotypal		26%
Antisocial		22%
Borderline		42%
Histrionic		46%
Narcissistic		38%
Avoidant		26%
Dependent		70%
Obsessive-Compulsive		30%

hahahaha.. im 22% antisocial and 70% dependent....
hahahaha.... im not so antisocial as wat i tot i wld be... keke...
i expected tat im v dependent... so the 70% is not v surprising.. hehe...

i took another big five test.... cos the OB lecturer told us to try it out de... keke.. i so guai hor...
here is my result :

Big Five Test Results

Extroversion (32%) moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and private.
Accommodation (42%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly selfish, uncooperative, and difficult at the expense of the well being of others.
Orderliness (44%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, random, scattered, and fun seeking at the expense of structure, reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Emotional Stability (48%) medium which suggests you average somewhere in between being calm and resilient and being anxious and reactive.
Inquisitiveness (26%) low which suggests you are overly small minded, traditional, and conventional at the expense too often of intellectual curiousity, possibility, and progress.

hmm... im like v selfish and small minded hor... hahaha....

i went to the library again jus now wor... hahahaha....
look for the books again... but cant borrow... so this time gotta photocopy...
haiz... den bought a cashcard... cos i dun have 1..!!!
but i went there quite late.. library is closing alady le... =.="
so i onli managed to get 2 books nia lo... haiz....
ma fan....

Blur....

2007-02-03T11:07:00.000+08:00

dunno wats wrong wif my internet.... ~_~"
wanna go to one website oso take v long... haiz...
and all come out distorted de... =.="
wah kao....

nvm... dun care liao le...

thurs i went to wlds lib.... searched for books... but books i wan... cannot be borrowed de....
haiz... nxt time muz bring cashcard le... den can go photocopy....
scott acc me de lo... hahaha
but i studied awhile... den i sian liao le.. no mood... cant do anything oso...
den we wanted to watch movie..... but like no show...
den we.... ..... go BK eat...
haha... den go home le lo...

saw ah po on the way home....
she went to ah ting hse.... cos ah ting cant wake up for tuition... =.="
she so old liao le... still have to come here everytime....
v tiring de...
she oso say she tired le.... esp when she's climbing the overhead bridge....
so ke lian...

ytd went to sch v early lo.... my lecture start at 2pm... but i reached there at 1030am..!!!
wanna discuss abt the OB assignment de.....
end up... we all go NP to eat....
den tok cok....
den we start our discussion at ard 1pm bah..!!!!
lolz.....

oh no...
i wanna finish my assignment b4 CNY... dunno possible anot leh...
haiz...
i dun wanna do any work during CNY...!!!

ytd's lecture was boring.... ~_~"
the lecturer is indian again..
3 lecturers, 2 are indian~~~ y lik tat??

he's boring leh.... feel v slpy during the lecture....
hahahaha... jacky say POLY STUDENT..
hahahaha... he always like to say poly student and jc student de difference de.... lolz...

ziyi says nxt thurs wanna go out after lecture...
hahahaha... my 1st outing wif them.... keke...

ytd after sch... i went to meet dear..
hehehe...
den i took the wrong bus..!!!! wah... sian lo.....
den wanna find a place where i can easily get a cab de... den the bus go to expressway le..!!!
wah lao...

den the bus reached sin ming there.... last time my attachment there...
hahaha... den i more familiar wif the place...
so i got off the bus there.... den took a cab to bishan mrt....
haiz... waste my money.... and time....
den take mrt to somerset lo....
wah lao... ben lai can reach by 545 de lo... den i reached ard 610 bah... hahaha...
so happy to see dear wor.... hahahaha..
so scary i lost my way....

we went to have dinner... den shun bian wait for kaida and wanjun....
i so long nv see wanjun le... haha...
kaida looks so 'dirty' ytd... hahahaha... maybe becos of the color of the clothes he's wearing... hahaha...
i say he look ugly he wanna go home liao le... keke...

den we went to the ktv liao lo....
jack was alady there le wor... so fast.. hahaha...
den we took another 3 more tables.... cos got me, angela, kaida and wanjun liao le...
den hao lian ghost came.... hahaha.. dear says he is hao lian ghost... hao lian gui..
wah seh... he machiam big star lik tat de lo... hahaha...
wear tat sun glasses... at nite liao lo... v sai meh?? lolz....

wah.. so qiao.. he oso noe jack.... i forgot they were in the competition the same mth... hahaha...
haha... den hlg go tok to jack lo... hehehe.... heng ah..
i dun have to entertain him... hahaha...
actually i tink i v bad... cos i ask ppl come.. den i dun entertain him... hahaha....
most of the time i tink is angela who entertained hlg de... keke...
den i jus sat there fa dai...
but mr tay say i look like goin to cry again le...
i nv lo.... after his bdae i nv cry anymore liao lo... haha...
dun spoil my reputation lo....

ytd they all v bad.... keep pushing my head again....
they say v fun... =.=" wah lao....
i ke lian lo....

hlg let me listen to the demo he sang.... hmm...
actually honestly.. its quite nice la....
but so hao lian.... haiz... tsk tsk tsk....

oh ya... angela's fren oso came.... hahahaha... a v quiet guy....
but sing quite nice oso...
ytd everyone sang nice..!!! except for me.... haiz....
i got no qi... den my voice v sha ya.... cant hit high notes oso.... jia ying v weak....
wah kao... really v awful....
now still sore throat.... haiz...

angela's fren send us back... hahaha...
he send us to amk.... den me and hlg took a cab home...
wah... den on the cab.. hlg tell me abt his past r/s... hahaha... for wat sia?? lolz...
he offered to send me up... but no thanks...
hahaha....
see his face den wanna beat him up... hahahaha...
mr tay oso say his face v qian bian.... lolz...
hen tao yan lo...

hehe... dear say i really look like a typical student... wif my jacket... hahahaha....
i wore my jacket the whole day... hahahaha...
cos i tink the clothes i wore inside is abit inappropriate for sch.. so i wear the jacket to sch....
den at nite can take off le mah... but den ktv was v cold.... hahahaha...
so i wore the jacket again... lolz...

damn cold lo....
oh ya.. btw i saw asher at cuppage... hahaha..
so qiao...

nth to do.... later goin to do accounting homework....
sian... how come got homework de...
poly seldom got homework de neh... haiz...
maybe got la.. den i nv do homework de... wahhahahaha...
but this stupid homework got count points de... sian..

sian.. bad mood...

2007-02-01T12:04:00.000+08:00

my OB individual assignment is dued in less than a mth.... haiz....
and i have not decided which topic im going to do.... haiz...
anyway.. topic C is out alady... im left with 2 choices....

dunno how to start on my research oso leh...
later im goin to the library... hahahaha... someone's goin wif me though he doesnt have to study...
haiz... sian la..
den wat sld i look for?

and i so long nv go to the library liao lo... i dun even noe how to use the library... =.="
haiz....
sian leh...

the main thing is i dun even noe wat i have to search for leh.... haiz...
or maybe sld i not go? hahaha...

haiz... sian la...
actually im sian over another thing oso... haiz...
y ppl keep giving me problem de....
tell me all those things for wat.... not my business mah....
tell me le den jus adds up my sian-ness....

and one more thing.. y i put i M a GaL.... becos i m a gal mah...
fei hua leh.... a nick is jus a nick... there's no y....
even there's y... i dun feel there's any obligation to tell anyone...

wats up with the "I m a guy"...
see liao oso sian.... hahaha.. maybe im not in a good mood.. tats y...
i bo liao.. u oso copy me bo liao.... so u r bo liao 'x2' lo...

haha.. and bringing me to a paradise...
u may tink its a paradise.... but other ppl may not tink so lo....
y do i have to sing for u.... i dun sing for anyone de lo.... i onli sing for fun... sing for myself...

hahaha.. i tink im really in a bad mood hor... hehehe...

im so tired....
but everynite i still cant slp... and morning wake up v early... haiz...
y lik tat....
keep having headaches.... nv slp properly.. den bodyache oso....
and my cough... its taking forever to recover....
strepsils doesnt help my sore throat lo.... haiz..

Cold~~

2007-01-31T21:15:00.000+08:00

ytd when i was at jurong east mrt....
waiting for train la.....
den hor... the train come le.... but den hor... it knocked a stupid crow leh....
wah... so ke lian lo....
dunno y the crow fly in to the platform for wat..... stupid lo...
haiz.. but still v ke lian la....
tink its injured lo... cos i see it's trying v hard to fly... but cant fly le....
really v ke lian leh.....
den hor.. got one indian gal.. still go and try to scare the crow.... so zek ark... haiz...
alady v ke lian liao lo....

today woke up damn early lo.... haiz....
wanna go back to slp... but cant slp...
didnt slp v early last nite leh... but still dunno y wake up so early....

but den i oso went out v early la... hahahaha
mama took half day leave.... to go shopping wif me... keke...
i bought 2 dresses..!!!
hahahaha... CNY can wear new clothes le... hehehe...

dunno how many yrs nv wear dress le... seldom wear de.....
so few dresses in my wardrobe oso lo...
tink the last time i wore a dress is dunno whose wedding tat time.... hahahaha....
wah.. my tat dress... wore 3 times onli bah... hahahaha....
like so long zhong... lolz....
put in my wardrobe nv wear liao le.... onli sometimes when bo liao take out and wear for fun... lolz...

today bought 2 dresses at one go... hahaha...
bought a pair of heels too... can go wif one of the dresses... hehe....
actually i bought the heels 1st de... but den jus now i try try... can match neh... hehehe...

fri i may wear the heels too sch.....
hahaha... cos i wanna wear nice nice... and put make up.... lolz....
but scared i put le make up will look v different....
wait they tink i dunno wan to go where... hahahaha...
but dear wan me wear nice nice neh....
hahahaha....
dun care... keke....

wah... jus now tat nan ren ask me whether i free to go see his performance anot leh...
lolz....
was quite shocked when he called me..... and ask whether i can go see his performance...
so weird... nv tok to him b4 on the phone....
he doenst sound fierce la.... but den when i tink of his face... hahahaha...
i still feel he v fierce neh... hahahaha....
deep impression le la... hahaha....

recently my hands are always cold....
is the weather really cold?? or is it jus me??
really cold~~

yyms is not yyms without anyone of us..!!!

2007-01-30T22:59:00.000+08:00

bored now.... haiz....

baowen dun wan yyms liao le... he dun wan us liao le....
so bad de....
so long nv go out wif us le.... haiz....

yyms is not yyms without anyone of us..!!!

we muz be united..!!! hahahaha....

kk im crazy.. i noe... lolz...

i understand he's bz oso... too bad lo... work and study at the same time is lik tat de... so ke lian...
bo bian lo... cant come out wif us le.....
fri de ktv.... there wont be yyms on fri le.... becos short of 1 person... haiz....

so qiao... today when i went to sch... i saw jacky and ziyi on the bus.... hahahaha...
so we go to sch tog lo...
they 2 so cute de... always fight de lo...
where is our gathering..????? hahahaha...
den they now say i always bz... hahaha... where got lo...
i always v free de lo... haha...

after today's lecture, we all stayed back awhile....
hahaha... cos we wanna discuss hw we shall start our OB assignment...
lolz.... nobody noe how to start....
we need past examples..!!!
in the end... we nv discuss anything for the assignment.. hahahaha...
shall discuss it on fri bah... keke..

i jus realised i had a stain on my black/grey de GUCCI bag..!!!!
wah lao....
jus washed it... heng can wash away ah...
heng lo.... if not v ugly lo... haiz...
somemore its GUCCI..!! hahaha... my 1st "GUCCI" bag...
"GUCCI"

sick AGIAN..!!

2007-01-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

haiz...
xu wei lun die le.....
so ke lian.... so young... so pretty.... so fast die le....

hahahaha...
im paid $6/hr to be a flower vase...
good rite.... hehe....
was tokking to the hao lian ghost this afternoon.... he wanna hire me as a flower vase in his company... lolz...
y not... its a good deal mah... do nth..
when got lesson den go sch.. hahaha...

den hor.. he asked me go hark this fri....
but i cant... cos im goin ktv.... super long time nv go sing hall liao le....
hehe...
he asked alot qn.... den hor.. out of courtesy... i asked him whether he wanna go wif us...
he immediately say he ONs.... wah lao...
sian liao lo....
me and my big mouth....
haiz... tot he wanna go hark de mah... haiz..
die lo... fri have to see his face.... look so fierce... and he so hao lian....
haiz....

he abit weird weird de lo....
not shou wif him... tell me so many things for wat...
wah lao... den anyhow save my pic frm frenster wor... kaoz...
=.="

he asked me y i dun ask for his number de.... hahahaha...
y sld i ask....
alady got few ppl ask me the same qn liao le.... hahahaha...
wan to give me den give lo... dun wan give den dun give lo...
lolz....

lolz.. kaida say he wont tok to him de...
wahahahaha...
kk i shall perform my "虚伪"ness on fri bah...
hahahaha...
the rest shall leave it to dear to entertain him bah... cos dear say he's okie.. hahaha..

really v stupid lo....
go and ask him... haiz...
den bo bian liao le.... ask le.. den cannot ask him dun come le..

im sick AGAIN..!!
hahaha.... keep coughing le....
good lo...
weather so cold... feel cold the whole day...
actually not cold today onli... the past few days alady cold le...
the weather really v cold lo....
my room onli 27 degree celsius leh.. i on aircon oso 27 onli lo...
woooo~~ cold~~
cold until i headache... ~_~"

Nothing Compares To You

2007-01-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

jus came back frm 'studying'.... hahahaha
i went to mac.... wanted to study de...
i brought my statistics notes and exercises.... but den i end up playing PSP...
wahahahahaha....
and i played for few hrs lo.... li hai bah....

bo bian neh... keep dying... haiz....
i onli completed until stage 2-4..... =.="
shall continue nxt time bah....
hahaha....

hmm... lik tat i cannot study lo.... hahaha.. so many new things to excite me.... lolz....

wahahahaha... im being protected...
no one can bully me.... becos piggy will protect me de.... lolz...
he said whoever bully me den he will help me beat up tat person... wahahaha...
but be careful la.... cos he will chu shou tai zhong... den kill tat person... lolz.... or even castrate tat person... wahahhaa...

oh ya... he said... whoever wanna be wif me.. will have to fill up an application form 1st..
lolz... i tot wat...
the app form has onli 1 qn....
lolz...

The qn is... :
If u dare bully Ming Yan...how many days u wan stay in hospital?

A)1 mth B)1 year C)forever

heehe... he's still as cute lo....
loves to give ppl MCQ de...
wahahaha.... who dare bully me... lai lo.... try him bah... haha...
i tink im childish oso la.... tats y he tell me all these things... hahaha

ytd i shi sheng again... =.="
went ktv wif ah siao in the afternoon... hahahaha....
she pon teng again..!!! but chewy isnt ard... so she got time to go k wif me... ~_~
the 'librarian' is promoted liao le... hahahaha... now he wear coat liao le....
but den the 'killer' no longer works there... cos we didnt see him... hahaha...
i cant sing anymore le.... onli sang half a song.. den no more voice liao le... =.="
so ke lian....
v jialat lo... haiz...

we didnt stay for the 4 hrs... hahaha... cos i gotta meet clement to pass him my OB textbook... and oso to meet miss lee...
we went to bugis...
hehe... go Ma Maison eat.... but everytime gotta wait v long.. haiz...
nvm la.. cos the spaghetti still v nice lo....
hehehe.....

den we go shop shop.... hehe.. i bought a jacket...
but den buy liao... den realise i got alot jacket....
den jacket cannot wear for CNY neh... haiz....
wear for sch lo....
miss lee bought 2 tshirt... wah lao... copy me de lo....
cos she saw one...den it looks like mine lo... almost same lo... den mine is frm topshop.... =.="
but nvm... cos mine is still nicer... hahahaha...

i tink bugis village getting more and more lousy le leh... the things not so nice le leh...
ytd saw de things all like not nice de....
we onli shopped for an hr plus... den we go back liao le...
hahaha...
went to cold storage to buy tibits and red wine... lolz....

i went to her hse to stay... sk... sk... sk... hahaha
we went home... bathed...
chatted wif sue awhile... hehe...
wah.. scv got er mo zai shen bian leh... he jun xiang v shuai..!! yang cheng ling v cute..!! hahahaha...

we opened our tibits... den wanna open our red wine...
guess wat...
we dun have an opener.... =.="
v ke lian lo... buy liao cannot drink...
we 2 so blur de... haiz... den onli drink bai kai shui lo... bo bian...
den i oso helped miss lee paint her nails... ma fan lo....
so many colors she oso dun like de....
hahaha.. in the end nv paint colors.... hahaha.. jus help her draw flowers... hehehehe....
simple and nice lo... hehe...

slp until v late... actually can slp even later de...
but was waken up by a call... ~_~
tired...
hahaha.. den i go and wake miss lee up oso... lolz...

aiya.. den lashanne ask me go dbl O tonite....
feel like goin... but at the same time oso dun feel like goin... hahahaha.. mao dun lo...
feel like goin becos v long time nv go clubbing le.... dun feel like goin becos i dunno her frenz... and my complexion recently no good... not enough slp... haiz...

went home ard 2+...
den i pass by weida's hse...
wah.. its so near lo.. onli 1 stop away.... hehehe....
kk i didnt went home straight away....
went to wlds de crystal jade to have lunch...
the porridge there is v lan lo.... haiz...
i dun mean the porridge at crystal jade is lan... but... the food at wlds crystal jade is v lan... haiz...
waste money... so ex somemore....

went home... bathed....
saw the new watch papa bought.... really v 'powerful' lo....
wah... dunno when i can afford tat.... tsk tsk tsk....
wif tat amt of money ah.... wah... i can go japan dunno how many times lo... hahaha
i onlined awhile... den went out again le....
until now come back lo... hahahaha...
so sian now.. nth to do......
its a sat nite... so few ppl online lo... haiz...
im bored..!!!

Memory - TMVC

2007-01-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

I was browsing thru my old photos... hahahaha... and i saw these pics....
good memory....
one of the greatest memories i had in the past 22 yrs...
hahahaha....
till now.. i still miss them... alot... hahaha.. but dunno whether they still miss me anot neh... lolz...

though there were bad experiences working at tat place... but working wif these ppl is a great experience... they are amazing ppl..!!
they are ppl i will nv forget...
hehe....

ppl frm TMVC..!!! hahahaha....

this was taken at the xmas party when i was still there... haha

with the interns....

went ktv tog... hahaha...

ooo.. the cheap and good chicken briyani.. haha

checking on the yellow book.. yellow book is hell..!!

flowers made by Sally.. Hee..

The Devil....

I was Princess of the Day.. Haha.. A Tiara...

The 4D place...

Joe tinking of 'zhen zi'... Haha

Haha.. Ernest isnt part of TMVC.. but i went to look for him once during working hours... :P Nobody noes abt this bah... hahaha..

Actually i like this blur pic... Sally

Oh No.. its the yellow book again..!!

Adelene and Helen... Reminds me of 9Lives.. Haha..

Dion, Peter Lamb, Adelene and Helen

Dion and Gary.. He reminds me of Groom my Room..!! Haha...

Ni Pai Wo.. Wo Pai Ni..!! HAhaha

Cant rem wat occassion is this le... There was cake.. i rem..

Amazing PAs... Eta and Mellissa

The Editor - Dipin..!! Peter Lamb and his son, Christopher.. correct?? Hahah..

wah.. again..!!

The Producer - Sally...

Leeyi so ke lian ah... no money..

原来爱情这么伤

2007-01-25T15:11:00.000+08:00

im so free this whole week..!! hahahaha...
studying life is so good....

but i've yet to go out wif my new frenz... hahaha....
the other day ziyi say wanna organise some outing... but den he say wanna wait till there's morning lesson... den afternoon we can all go out tog... wahahhaha..
he didnt wan to come out of his hse for nth...

ah siao says im kpo to go and see ppl's profile....
hahaha.. but den when i told her... 'she' looks like ye pei fen... hahaha.. she oso agree wif me.. and she oso go and see lo... hahaha...
and she oso went to see his profile... hahaha... she oso kpo mah... still say me...

i tink ah siao's doggie v ke lian... although i nv seen tat dog b4... but frm the way she tell me... hahaha.. i noe she v ke lian... btw the dog is female la...
ah siao always beat and scold her dog... so ke lian....
hahaha...

a v silly.. or sld i say stupid.. tot came to my mind....
perhaps i sld do smth wrong.... hahaha...
wrong as in smth tat i do le.. he will be angry... den he wont even be bothered wif me anymore... and wont forgive me le... maybe even despise me bah....
hahaha.. den this way i noe there's no turning back at all le....
dunno y this stupid idea came to my mind la....
hahaha....

anyway im not goin to meet aust this week le... hahaha.. no time for him... i got better things to do.... singing is better than meeting him... hahaha...
yeah..!! later im goin ktv again le..
i wanna sing... im goin to sing my heart out....
den ming tian hui geng hao..!! ^_^

oh yeah..!! singing is still my interest... hahaha....
but dunno whether dear dear will come along anot neh.... haven reply my msg...
haiz... waiting waiting waiting....
im always waiting.....

oo tmr i'll be goin to a new place to slp... hahahaha...
1st time goin to sk to slp... lolz....
abit excited... wahahahaha....
im crazy lo.... lolz....
aiya... maybe becos his hse is at sk.... tats y i so excited... lolz...
v bo liao hor... hehe...

hehee... tink i'll sound v nice on the phone these few days....
hahaha... cos my voice is back...!! hahaha.. except for tat few "A-Hem".. hee..
and i'll be real polite and tok really nicely to everyone... provided u tok nicely to me la....
hahahaha...
jus now someone called to chat.....
he sounds niec.... so i oso sound nice to him lo.... hahahaha... but i still rejected him in the end... becos i noe he bu huai hao yi de... hahahahaha....
my mind is still clear de lo.... hehe...

'Bo Bian' is the word...

2007-01-24T21:07:00.000+08:00

Jus watched superstar.. hahahaha...
so qiao the carrie sang li bu kai ta.....
becos this song is like so unpopular... and i jus sang it the other day.... she today sing le... hahahaha...

oh ya.. den they oso showed abit of ye pei fen when she was taking part in competition during her younger days...
hahahaha...
wah... look like tat woman neh..!!
lolz....
really look like her lo.... hahaha...

jus now went to dye and perm my hair...
wahahahaha... kk i did say i wanna dye my hair...
so its now a darker color.....
ya i noe i said i wanna rebond it... lolz... but kentson says i perm better la...
lolz...
den i jus listen to him lo....
kk the nxt time i MUZ rebond le..!!! hahahaha....

wah... spent alot lo.. $302 in total...!!! including the small talk...
where did i get the money from..??? hahaha..
its amazing tat i haven been working for so many mths... and i still got money to spend...
hahahaha...
i will now be getting allowance every mth....
so the money i spent on my hair is abt my 1 mth's allowance....
hahahaha.... im richer when im studying... dunno y....
its jus so weird... hahaha...
anyway i got no money after the hair thingy... haiz....
i declare bankrupt..!!

no money for lunch oso... gotta cook maggie mee at home liao le....
the most valuable card i have now is my ez-link card bah...
hahahaha... tink still got $14+ inside... lolz...
im so poor... haiz...

got one nan ren add me in msn....
wah... he's like bragging too much le..!!! wayyy too muchhh..!!
having his own band, fren writing songs for him, alot frenz cutting album, bla bla bla....
oh.. his father noes ah du... hahahaha... so wat..??
and to be polite... i have to entertain him... hahahaha.. im so fake lo...
tell him he sings nice... has a good voice... says i like his voice...
wahahahaha....
y m i doing these??

he said wanna hear me sing one day....
told him i seldom sing hark... cos i got stage fright.. haha...
den he ask me go ktv one day...
and if i sing good... he'll recommend me to his fren to sing demo....
wahahahaha...
sounds like those ppl trying to shuo da hua... and cheat xiao mei mei to go sing lik tat.....

although i was v interested in singing demo....
but the way he tell me hor.... i got no feeling at all.... and i tink im entertaining him alot lo... hahaha... v fu yan....

oh.. btw he said i look young in my photos... hahahaha... so good.. thank u lo...
he said if i hadnt put my age in my profile.. he'd guess that im 18.. wahahaha..

"If hor, you did not put down your age and I do not know u.. I will tot that u are 18 only...
My gosh everytime i look at your photo, I will think if you are ever stopped from entering a pub or disco b4? Or maaybe even arcade during school hours. :) "

tats wat he said... hahahaha...
arcade during school hours... hahaha.. its like so kua zhang lo...
but anyway... ting ting jiu hao lo...

haiz..
i've been sick for 1 mth le... ultraman says its good... =.="
cos pain den good mah...
so bad.... tat evil man..

and i've been waiting for few hrs.... haiz....
maybe i sldnt wait at all.... it jus makes me disappointed...
waiting always brings disappointment...
he has no obligation to do so lo.... haiz...
always leaving me with no choice again...
and i have no right to call him.... no reason either....
and to be v honest.... he still appears every now and den... its so hard to get him out completely....
haiz... helpless....

somebody pls save me...!!

fear of losing him completely is still there....
my dear tell me i sldnt be scared of losing him de..... becos one day... he'll still leave me de....
its jus the matter of time....
but im still scared....
she says im brave... if its her.. she wont be able to face him at all..
but actually im not....
im scared of everything... jus tat i didnt noe wat i have to do...
i have to accept everything he does....

i do not have a choice...

i have alady ren ming liao le.... accepted the fact liao le....
feeling abit kong xu.... abit uncontrolled.... very 'care'less.... very un-loved....
alot more la... messy and congested feelings...

我应该坚强面对, 学会遗忘....

today's msn is so boring... so quiet....
onli 24 ppl online....
hw come???
where did everyone go???? v sian leh....
nobody to chat wif leh.... haiz... alady 10pm liao wor....
today is a wed mah... weekday wor....
y everyone go out ah???
sian....
come home and chat wif me~~

i wanna get HD..!!

2007-01-24T09:02:00.000+08:00

early in the morning...
nth to do today..!!!
sian leh.... the hana kimi oso watched until ep 10 liao le.... den no mroe liao le....
have to wait until the ppl upload the nxt ep....
haiz....

lolz....
last nite i tried to take out my assignment to choose the topics....
hahaha.. ya i tried...
den i read abit i sian liao... faster keep it... hahaha..

aiya... i dunno how to start an essay....
its a 1000 words esssay... and i tink i'll easily go beyond tat... cos i write things without tinking de... hahaha...
hahaha... waiting for ah siao to send me her sample... lolz... cant imagine she got a D for her assignment leh..!! so li hai.. haha.. i wanna get HD..!!
lolz.... hmm.. maybe i tink too much... aim too high.. hahaha.. dun aim so high den wont be so disappointed... ahhaha

there's another 2500 grp essay... but we haven got a topic for that yet... have to wait for the lecturer lo....

hmm... jus happen to browse thru tat woman's frenster.... lolz...
hahaha.. i v kpo... cos i go see his profile 1st mah... haha...
did they break up alady?? becos she put "Its complicated".... and she nv put the "listening to dear k-mic" le....
wahahahaha... kk.. though i dun like her... becos she always give me black face to see de...
but den...now i tink hor... actually she nv do anything wrong to me la... hahaha.. i sldnt be so bad to dislike ppl... hahaha...
hmm... he's still in a relationship... wif who??? dunno neh...
so long nv see him... so long nv tok to him... dunno how he's been le....
onli noe he's on leave ytd... lolz....

haiz... tink abt wat happened btwn me and him...
noeing him is jus a big mistake...
i sldnt have met him in the 1st place.... and even if we met... i sldnt have listened to him to meet him at tat kind of place....
those things wont have started le....
wrong time, wrong place, wrong person, wrong doings....

haha.. but tat was the past la... everyone has past de mah....
lolz.... and ppl grow up thru experiences....
hahahaha... i tink im the onli one who doesnt grow up frm experiences bah....
im the one who keeps goin back to the past....
hahahaha...

aiya... cindy not meeting me le... haiz...
maybe i'll jus go dye my hair... dunno alex wanna meet anot....
haiz... sian la....
nth to do..!!

young and good?? Hahaha..

2007-01-23T20:11:00.000+08:00

came back frm my statistic lecture....
a different lecturer.... indian again... hahahah...
heng his english is still understandable.. lolz....

but den his lecture is abit fast... haiz...
or m i too slow to catch up....
i didnt went for the previous 1 and 1/2 lectures....
and i didnt read up oso... hahaha...
didnt do any practise as well.... haiz...

today i took bus home.... sian lo...
tot bus will be faster.... but in fact its abt the same as the train journey... or maybe even slightly longer...
jialat lo.... i get bus sick.... haiz...
though taking the bus is slightly cheaper... i tink i'll still stick to the train bah... haiz...

oh ya.... the legendary justin has Re-Appeared again le..!! hahahaha...
he says im young and good.... lolz....
sounds weird and abit disgusting rite... hahaha..
and he asks whether he's qualified for me... wahahaha...
like old man wan to eat young gal lik tat... hahaha...
and he's goin to plan wat we'll be doin this week....
other than TAT... i cant tink of anything tat he'll plan... lolz...
says he'll fetch me home frm sch.... lolz...
see when he'll do tat bah... i'll be waiting... hahaha...
maybe i grad le oso nv come lo... haha..

hmm... sld i go out wif alex tmr? or sld i go dye my hair den go meet cindy....
dunno go where wif him... he said wanna go massage... =.="
lolz... i tot onli old ppl den go massage de.... hahahaha..
he wans me to help him massage... lolz... so if i use the wrong strength.. he will get hurt.. den can geng mc the nxt day.. wahahaha...
win liao lo....

i wanna dye my hair...!! where sld i go? wat sld i do tmr?
sian...

oh.. gotta pass Clement my OB txtbook to photocopy...
i hao ren lai de hor.. haha..
but i pai seh to ask him come out jus to take the book frm me... hahaha...
weirdo me...

its raining now... cold~~

ytd i took my med... the pills were too big to swallow....
and i forced it down my throat...
haiz... now my throat still hurts....
so ke lian...

pls dun hurt my chui ruo de xing ling

2007-01-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

was really disappointed la....
becos i am always 'assigned' tat kind of role in ppl's life... v sian one lo....
i m not a toy....
im not someone who can be thrown abt....
i dun wish to be thrown abt....
i onli wan to be wanted.... tats all i asked for....
so if you r my fren, pls dun take advantage of me.... dun take me for granted... dun say things when u dun mean it... i wld really be hurt de.....
esp when now my xin ling so chui ruo.... hahaha...
dun hurt me....

kkk...

kaida says:
aiyoh mingyan no more Sad messages le la

hahaha.. i shall listen to him for tonite.... lolz...
changed my msg to : I Love YYMS..!! :D
lolz.... i really love them....
they are the 1st few ppl to see me getting emotional.... hahahaha...
i can jus be myself in front of them....
they are really great ppl..... hee...
Love them Lots..!!!

wah seh... he told me he was abit high tat day....
tats y pushed my head... =.=" and say it was funny...
win liao lo....
i so ke lian... still bully me...
"hen ke nian neh"...

today no school... hahaha...
spent the whole day at home... watching youtube....
a new ou xiang ju.... hana kimi... hua yang shao nian shao nu...
hahaha... got ella and wu zun....
Ella really looks like a boy in there lo... so cute.... the show v funny...
onli watched until ep 7.... but there were onli 9 eps up... tink they haven upload finsih...
hmm.. i'll jus wait lo...

watched death note as well... hahaha... finsihed ep 14 le..!! hahaha...
1 ep per week...
like v long neh...

oh ya.. and i painted my nails again...
lolz..
the theme is red cherries and white flowers.... hahaha... v cute neh... kawaii~~
im so bo liao hor....
nth to do.....

tmr got lecture in the afternoon... my onli lecture for the week....
mama ask me y my sch so free de...
hahaha.. how i noe...

so qiao... ziyi, my uni fren, he noe baowen..!! hahaha...
saw frm the frenster link... me - robin - ziyi...
the world is so small...!!!
hahaha.. actually i tink baowen noe alot ppl lik tat neh... lolz...
noe helen oso... den dunno few more ppl de frne oso...
really v qiao lo...

its midnite le... wat m i still doing online... hahaha.. nth to do le...
im so lazy... i didnt prepare anything for lecture....
i didnt study my notes....
i didnt do any tutorial practices....

maybe i sld start my OB assignment soon bah.. haiz...
haven chosen the topic.... individual assignment due on the 24th feb..!! grp assignment due on the 31st mar..!! so fast..!!!!
wait till i chosen the topic liao... den i might head to the library le bah....
hahahaha... wait till den bah... dunno when... lolz...
so long nv go library le... dunno whether i still noe hw to borrow books anot...
wahahahaha... sua ku lo...

happy bdae kaida..

2007-01-21T21:54:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Kaida..!!!

its his actual bdae today... 24 yr old... wah seh...
sounds old leh.... haiz...
ppl ard me are getting old le... tat includes myself as well....
scary~~~

i still can tell ppl im 22 now....
kk even though tat doesnt sounds v young.... but i dun care..!!
im still 22..!!
hahahaha....

fri no lecture... den went shopping wif him and angela lo..... cos kaida wanted to buy clothes for the concert on sat....
aiya... actually was supposed to meet ernest de....
but den.... kaida more impt..!! hahaha
cos he's frm yyms..hahahaha

FYI,
yyms = yan yan music school

hahahaha...
felt that he sld wear more matured instead of usual de casual and sporty.... becos of the songs tat he's singing on sat....
hahaha...

he bought so many things tat day...
bought a tshirt, a jacket, a blazer and 2 shoes..!!!
wahahahaha.... so good... can buy so many things.. lolz...

but was v pai seh to ernest tat day... cos alady promised him le... but den... last min tell him dun meet him....
hahaha... den he got nth to do on a fri nite... =P
tink he went home to do his music things bah.. lolz...
so pai seh...

i had OB lecture on sat morning.... went to sch....
wah... didnt expect there's so many ppl lo...
tot tat sat maybe onli few classes....
but its the same as usual lo...

tat was my one and onli sat lecture for the sem...
my uni frenz are good ppl... hahahaha... i like them alady....
though still not v close.... but tink can be hao peng you de..!!!
hahahaha...
i muz be frenly lo... =P

i went home after the lecture.... but most of them went to meet matilda, our OGL....
tot of goin home to slp 1st... hahaha.. becos i noe i wont be goin home so early....
but den... reach home alady 2+ liao le...
den i meeting janet at 4... (but i was late for abt 30mins.. lolz...)
haiz... cant slp le lo...
had my lunch... watched youtube.... bathed... den went out le...
no time to slp at all..!!

finally met janet leh....
its been so many mths since i last met this gal... tsk tsk tsk...
as usual lo... always so bz...
but we went walk walk awhile onli....
den i went to topman to buy the $79 shirt for kaida lo...
didnt noe wat to buy for him le...

den angela came... hahaha...
we went to have our dinner tog....
den hor... eat v long lo... hahaha...
cos its been like 548087421157 yrs since we last met janet le... den alot things to chat lo...
hahaha...

chatted until our singer came to fetch us.... hahaha.. taking the cab la...
lolz....
wah... i really machiam his bao mu lo... hahahaha...
the min we got on the cab... he passed his things to me liao le....
keys, phone, bla bla bla...
tsk tsk tsk...

went to hark v early lo....
no one's in there... hahahaha... except for the staff la...
even ly isnt there yet.. hehehe...

we were entertaining ourselves lo....
den the singer had to go upstairs rehearse for his mini concert...
wahhahaha... tink the whole hark is our voices and laughter...
esp when janet's ard... hahaha... her loud and significant laughter fills the whole place.... lolz...

more ppl start to come le....
and den baowen came... hahaha.. surprised to see janet rite... lolz....
or bi didnt come earlier lo... lolz.... aiya... kidding la...
but i oso last min den meet janet de mah... so bo bian lo... haha...
but she oso left quite soon after kaida sang la...

oo... den our singer came down... started his concert lo....
oh ya... the songs tat he sang are :
hong jun yang - nan dao
lin jun jie - cao cao
lin jun jie - jiang nan
william su - nan ren bu gai rang nu ren liu lei
fan yi chen - fang sheng

hmm... i felt tat his singing was quite good ytd....
hahahaha....
and actually i quite like nan ren bu gai rang nu ren liu lei....
cos i tot it was a super boring song... but the way he 'quan shi' ytd hor... hahaha.. i quite like it la... not bad..!! at least i didnt fall aslp...
lolz...

i went up to sing a duet wif him ytd... hahaha.. bdae mah.. muz give face....
since he asked.. den i ok lo...
we sang xin dong xin tong...
wah... but den... i tink we buang the song... lolz

i so long nv sing live band liao leh...
tink i got phobia... dunno y.. lolz....
den v funny lo.... cos the starting... he forgot how to sing bah... lolz....
cannot even catch a single key.... lolz...
haiz... den i went in.... dun tink its good.... haiz...
somemore im still coughing de lo... hahaha... sing halfway and cough abit....
so unprofessional..... haha..
heng amos didnt say he wanna change the mic... lolz...
kk overall.. i tink it isnt nice.... hahaha...

den hor.. weicai give kaida a beer... hahahaha...
tink its the same as wat he gave baowen on his bdae bah....
but den.. this time de seems to be stronger neh....
cos i drank... den taste alot of beer....
i hate beer...!!! last time de like sweeter neh...

lolz... though i didnt like beer... i still drank alot....
becos kaida cant really drink la... so i helped him drink... baowen drank oso lo...

weicai gave us 1 glass 1st....
its a really big glass fyi... hahaha...
den we finished that glass for him le....
youwei took another glass here..
wah seh.. they really wan kaida to die lo.... hahahaha... so ke lian...
but same la... me and baowen oso helped him drink lo....

dunno whether izzit my drinking getting lousy le or the beer really too strong....
by right beer is not strong de mah....
i noe they got mix wif other things as well... so ppl will 'die' faster.. hahaha...
maybe its abit strong for me le bah....

after the 1st round... i abit seyh liao le... hahaha...
but i still can walk... still v awake de.... jus felt abit sey lo....
den... the 2nd round... i die alady....
really v xin ku neh.... wah lao....
but i muz say.. im not drunk la...
its jus my heart la..... felt really v xin ku....

i hugged the pillow.... den i lie down...
den... haiz.... i started crying le......
haiz...
like v useless hor...
i really wasnt tinking abt anything..... serious...
but den i oso dunno y.... no reason lo....
haiz... i dun wan crying to be a habit for me.....

kaida was singing wif cai hong tian tang when i was crying.... hahaha...
didnt hear them sing... 1st time they sing tog... lolz...
can make fren le ah...
i hear nth when i was crying... hahaha....
and maybe becos after the drink oso la....
jus cant seem to tink properly... cant see properly... cant hear properly.... cant do anything but cry... hahaha...

kk.. den i noe when kaida came back.... he pushed my head.... but he's jus playing de la..
=( so huai dan...
i alady cannot make it le... still push my head...
den i cry harder.... lolz.....
den he sayang me.... hahaha....
1st time cry in his big chest... lolz.... cos i dun even have the mood and energy to push anyone away...

haiz... im so so sorry tat i spoiled his bdae... haiz...
crying on ppl's bdae....
v bu xiang hua lo... tsk tsk tsk....

hope weicai didnt see me lik tat la.... so pai seh... haiz....
dunno wats up wif me recently....

wah.. after the cry.... i still v sey lo... haiz...
tok to hark ppl wif the v fake smile... wah.. really buay tahan myself...
we went ktv after hark... onli yyms members and ly...
hahaha....
weicai drove us there.... haiz.. the other time said he'll come along de...
but ytd told us cannot le... y lik tat... haiz..

wah... den hor... of all the songs i sang ytd.... i tink hor.. the li bu kai ta.. i sang wif alot alot alot feelings neh... hahahaha...
i oso quite surprised... lolz... cos drink liao... and cry liao... and somemore so tired alady.. still can sing to my standard... hahaha...
too bad didnt record it down... wasted la.. nxt time sure cant sing tat same standard again le..
离不开他
音乐滴搭滴搭滴搭　
舞步踢踏踢踏踢踏　
每一步都是悲伤的挣扎带着牵挂　
谁都不想先停下
我穿着纯白的薄纱　
跟着他旋转在灯下　
知道是最后一次拥着他
日出后就应该　
试着忘了　要试着忘了他
我离不开他　也留不住他　
心像空荡大厅　一切就要蒸发　
我离不开他　风留不住沙　
远去里的牵挂是思念的时差
跟寂寞对话
我留不住他耶噢耶
我还在想他现在好想他好想他

reached home v early in the morning.. 6+... tired...
woke up ard 9+ wif a v severe headache.... jialat lo.....
went back to slp again ard 12 bah... hahahaha... den woke up at ard 4....
its the 1st time i slp until so late bah... usually if i came home tat 'early' i oso wont slp until so late de... hahahaha... break record le...

yeah..!! i got a mp3 player..
hehe.. papa bought the Zen Neeon 2 for me... so nice....
was playing wif my new toy since jus nw... hehe

someone's strangling me..!!

2007-01-18T22:21:00.000+08:00

all along i tot the med i was taking was normal cough syrup....
jus now went to the clinic... wanna buy the cough syrup....
but the clinic assistant said tat i have to see the doc... cos the med im taking is v strong....
haiz.... so ma fan...
but i haven complete my med...
sld i go see the doc? or sld i finsih my med 1st??

i cant even decide on tat... haiz...
so sian...

actually today felt abit not right.....
dunno y... i feel tat im being strangled.....
its the 1st time i have this feeling.... i really dunno wat is happening....
now i still have the feeling lo....
its still there.... but not to the extend tat i cant breathe at all....
but im really v xin ku....
no one can help me le.... v ke lian... and nobody cares....
haiz.... watever la...

feel like im choking le....
im not being kua zhang.... its the truth... the feeling is really no good....
my hand is still working... tats y i still can blog....
haiz....
jus tat my throat and my neck feels is like shit...
or is there 'anything' strangling me.....
jialat neh....

and the thing is... i jus saw the doc on sunday leh... haiz..
wasting my money again le.....
im broke..!!!! shit man....
y cant it be jus normal de lasting cough....

feeling v hot these few days.... though its raining..
feel like switching on the air con and slp....
but haiz.. cant stay in aircon too long... no good for the airway.....

my body's immune system is broken le la.....
little bit hot i feel v hot le.... little bit cold i feel v cold le....

Help..!!

weak.. weaker...

2007-01-18T17:10:00.001+08:00

difference btwn poly student and JC student....
hahahaha....

poly student : slight headache den wont go to sch liao le....
JC student : vomit blood oso die die will go sch....

ya tats the difference.... lolz... im a poly student....
tats y i didnt go sch ytd.... lolz... and oso becos someone asked me out mah....
hahahaha....

become more and more sick le....
bo bian la... weak neh...
cough come back AGAIN le.....
how how how.... i tot i can sing on sat de.... but now lik tat... how how how....
sure wont get well by sat de lo... haiz.... cant sing.... sian....

someone said i sing ye ye ye ye v nice... i wanna sing it....
i wanna sing gigi leung songs... i wanna sing hurt so bad....
i wanna sing guys' song... den i'll +4 keys..!! hahaha... cos my key is higher mah... bo bian..
dun care abt kaida le... i wanna sing..!!!!

haiz.... dunno y always feel like vommitting recently.... and oso feel v giddy lo...
jialat neh.... weak la...
my whole body is jus not rite.... missed my period oso...
and my cough is not getting any better....
it's jus getting worse....
wats wrong..?!?!?!? aiyo....

tink im goin to cough my lungs out alady....
cough cough cough....
so irritating....

i dun understand one thing....
y do those old man carry umbrella to the theatre when they go watch movie at chinatown???
to cover themselves? or to protect themselves frm any .... erm... "rain"??
hahaha...

hahaha.. y did i suddenly mention abt chinatown movies... lolz....
cos today my uni frenz mentioned abt goin there for movies... hahaha...

kk im goin to watch tv now....

Guys... Haiz...

2007-01-17T21:16:00.000+08:00

shit... omg...
which one is jacky...
hahahaha... dunno who im chatting wif now...

cant rem who is who.... jialat...
wahahaha... i onli nv go for lecture today... left early ytd...
ppl miss me le... so gan dong...
lolz....
kk even though i dunno which one miss me.... i tink everyone miss me la...
wahahahaha.... i miss everyone too..!!!

felt v stupid ytd.... tokked wif 'weida'... hahaha.. we were in the LT alone...
ya.. jus 2 of us....
he started a conversation wif me.... lolz... i dunno shy wat lo..
dun even dare look into his eyes..!! hahahaha
he is NOT weida... damn.... somemore he's younger than me la...
hmm.... but den... noticed tat his eyes are looking at somewhere he sldnt be looking at....
xiao di di... dun look there la...
jie jie will pai seh de lo.... wahahahaha....

i skipped lecture today... oh no... this cannot be happening again le....
tmr i will definitely go for lec de....
i muz be a good gal....

where did i go today den....
somewhere wif someone....
hahaha... fei hua...

rushed home to watch superstar...
wah... for the 1st time... i actually felt tat carrie is better than diya....
hmm... wah.. now i like both.. hahahaha...

oh ya... ernest having a gig today at gashaus...
so pai seh i wasnt able to go watch as well... hahahaha... cos today got superstar.... muz watch..
lolz...
anyway fri sld be meeting him bah... wonder whether piggy will be coming anot...
haha.... got free movie to watch again le... yeah..!!
kidding la... i still owe piggy alot of movies.... =P

haiz... but kaida wanna go shopping.... how how how..
how to arrange neh...
cant cut myself into 2....

wat sld i get for him??? bdae coming.....
haiz.. ma fan ma fan.....

tmr got morning lecture... muz really slp early today le...
hehe...

i wan to stop tinking... but how...

2007-01-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

can someone tell me how to get rid of feelings for a person???
y is it so hard...

i really wan to stop tinking of one person de....
i really wan to do tat....
but how....
he always comes to my mind automatically.... i cant control it....

it really hurts to tink of him....
everytime i tink of him... i jus feel my heart breaking into pcs....
so envious of them.... really so xing fu....
and im left alone.... so lonely... haiz...

jus tokked to angela... abt wat happened...
its onli when things ended den im willing to tell ppl wat happened...
haiz....
becos hor... i noe hor.. ppl will say bad things abt him de lo....
tats y i dun like.... cos i dun wan ppl saying bad things abt ppl i like....
haiz....
im still protecting him... saying things to cover up for him.....

dunno la... jus feel v lonely... v lost...
dunno wat to do....

goin to slp liao le....
said i'll slp early tonite de... but its alady goin to be midnite le....
haiz...
tink i'll jus lie on my bed and cry till i slp.... hahaha...
no la... try not to cry....

skipped lecture...

2007-01-16T20:26:00.000+08:00

i muz admit im really weak recently....
tink im goin to die soon le... ~_~"

today on the way to sch... felt v giddy...
dunno y...
dunno izzit becos i took 2 times de med in the afternoon.... hahahaha...
like v stupid hor.. morning i forgot to take med... den afternoon take dbl...
lolz....
but actually i morning wake up alady feel giddy le....

haiz.... weak leh....
jialat...

left the lecture halfway.... the lecturer give break... den i left....
buay tahan le leh.... stay there oso cannot listen to lecture leh....
felt like vommitting oso... =.="
haiz....

tot of meeting alex de... cos go home nth to do.....
at least go out wif him den can slack ard the neighbourhood....
but in the morning told him i study until 5pm le...
den in the end he go out wif his mama... =.="
haiz... den i went home straight away lo....

sian... fell aslp on the train.... dunno y... usually i dun slp on the train de....
but today...
i slp when i went to sch... and when i was goin home, i fell aslp oso...
weak...

in the end oso nv meet kaida le... hahaha...

wah.... tink im goin to be a matchmaker....
lolz....
angela and ernest.... hahaha...
how good can it be.... kk we'll be goin out on fri.... hahaha... sld be...
and i'll be the mei po... hahaha..

kk... hope tmr wont feel giddy again....
tink tonite i shall slp early.... haha...

wo yao kuai le..!!

2007-01-16T10:49:00.000+08:00

wah... y ta por like to call gals char bor de..
haiz....

sian neh... my OG de ppl seemed to be so hardworking....
and im jus starting to warm up... still trying to get use to studying life..
im so slow.... ~_~"

shit... forgot whether i taken my med anot....
tink i forgot to take it ytd morning... hahaha... i onli rem tat i forgot to take it in the afternoon... lolz... but too late la...
now i forgot again... but nvm la... now alady so late le...
after lunch den take lo...
wahahahaha...

haha... im goin shopping tonite wif mr tay....
hmm...
nth better to do.... lolz....

v sian... i kept tinking of wat he said last nite.....
im not goin to ask him to be responsible.... i oso dunno wat im goin to do if im really so suay to kena...
i really tink its impossible la.... safety precautions taken lo....
but.. if if if if... really so suay.... if la... i oso wont ask him to be responsible for it bah.... his heart oso not wif me.....
there's nth i can do....
i can jus pray hard now... hahahaha...

wo yao kuai le..!!!!

anybody wanna sing???

2007-01-15T19:15:00.000+08:00

i so guai today.... come home straight after school....
hahahaha...
so long nv had this kind of schedule liao le....
go sch den come home....
hahahaha...

the last week i went out everyday...
lolz... even jus now my frenz say.. wah.. u finally go home liao ah...
hahahaha... ya i finally come home le.... machiam v long time nv go home lik tat... lolz...

feel like going to sing ktv leh.... so long liao le....
now tat i finally can tok freely and easily le.... i sld be able to sing liao mah....
the last time i sang i was sick... nv sing properly... haiz...
so pai seh to liyan... hahaha.. cos she wans to hear me sing... but tat day i got v bad voice....
hahaha
sexy voice neh....
but no stamina.... lolz....

i wanna sing ktv... i wanna sing ktv... i wanna sing ktv....

thurs my lesson is in the morning... hmm... sld i ask him to go sing in the noon??
haiz... dunno whether he's working anot...
sian... if he working... den i oso dunno where else to go le...

hope sat we really go sing... hahahaha... cos i really wan to sing badly...
lolz....
but if kaida's drunk den bo bian le....
hope kaida wont get drunk..!! hahahaha... i can help u drink de..!! lolz....

hahaha... i dunno y i dun like philip so much....
he nv say anything abt me... he nv do anything abt me... we seldom tok...
jialat leh... im so bad...
hahaha...
but he looks like those typical 'se bei bei'... and he looks like kopi tiam uncle... hahaha...
kk i sld stop it... im being really v bad..

anybody wanna go singing????
hahaha...

today's lecturer is an indian... ~_~"
but he got australian accent... hahaha....
dunno wat he's teaching leh.... say so many introduction....
too much le bah... wah lao...
3 hrs of introduction... im falling aslp le....
hahaha... den keep smsing ppl...

ah siao called me... hahaha... always ask me wat she sld eat... =.="
but i was in lecture... so nv ans... hahaha...
anyway everytime ask me... but oso nv follow my suggestion mah... lolz...

tmr kaida off neh... so good... asked me go shopping tmr... but i got lesson...
hahaha.. bo bian la... i can onli meet him after sch...
so tmr nv go home again le... hahaha...
anyway come home so early oso nth to do....
will be rotting bah...

Sick and still shopping..

2007-01-14T22:55:00.000+08:00

wah.... finally dl shi sinhuey's songs... hahaha...
yeah..!! some not bad la... haha..

this morning went to see doc again le...
wah.... got a number b4 i went down... but still have to wait for abt 1 hr... or maybe abit more... =.="
sit there like an idiot and wait.... haiz...

den someone called me...
kaoz.... sa jiao to me.... tell me he's horny... kns....
den wat m i supposed to do... shit la...
he nv said who he is.... i tot its tat crazy person....
told him i seeing a doc.... den he kup my phone... kns.... so rude...
nv met someone so rude de lo...
machiam my fault... kup my phone for wat... wan to kup den dun call la....

jus now... he msn me... haha... den i ask him dun call me anymore...
lolz....
he said he nv call me for mths liao le... wahahahaha....
i noe its him....
i really tink he got smth wrong..... weird guy..

went shopping today wif miss lee... haha....
she jus came back frm msia... haha.. den meet me le... so touched... lolz...
wah.. she good lo... today buy so many things....
and finally... she bought colors...!!! hahahaha... cos she's always in black and white...
pretty gal muz try to wear more variety mah... still young lo... hahaha... although still older than me... wahahaha...

i nv bought much....
i bought a white jacket frm MNG.. haha.. onli $35 after discount and using the voucher..!! hahaha...
cheap lo... original price is $125..!! wahahahaha...
i so li hai neh...
den i bought a necklace la... $5 nia lo.... lolz... lend miss lee to match the clothes she bought...
hahaha... really v nice lo... lolz... its my necklace which make the clothes nicer... lolz...
yea... den i bought smth for michelle oso....
i good hor.... hee....

today got more stamina le... hahahaha... shop few hours....
good hor...
but i reached home and felt abit giddy... hahaha....

btw the cough syrup i now have is really bitter.... wah...
i like the usual black color de... but den this time is red color de... den got add powder oso... taste really awful.... haiz..

oh ya... today the doc said im really serious... hahaha...
got so serious meh?? how come i dun feel so... hahaha.. in fact im feeling much much better than few days b4 le leh..
she use tat wat scope to listen... den said my qi guan is really v tight... wah... so li hai ah...
she say until machiam v serious lo.... say i so long still haven recover...
hahahaha... standard for me de mah... usually 1mth or mroe....
now its onli like 1/2 a mth... not serious le la... wet wet water(in cantonese) la.... hahaha...
and if this time i haven recover... muz faster go back see her... hahaha
so kan cheong lik tat... faster go back see her.. haha...
kk maybe have to go for xray....

aiya... this isnt the 1st time they ask me go for xray liao le....
maybe my lungs scared of taking the xray....
tink i'll recover soon lo.... hahahaha..

wah... bu zhi bu jue now alady 1215am liao le...
hahahaha... wat was i doin... lolz....
chatting chatting chatting....

kk maybe becos my nick sounds too sad.... everyone is trying to find out wat happen....
hahaha....

Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I dun even have the right to dream. As i tink abt the future, the tears will come out again.
haiz....
its true wat....

kk tink i sld go slp liao le...
tmr got sch again..!!! tmr i shall try to have a different image bah...
wahahahaha....
bo liao... playing wif images... keke.. =P

Reality is too cruel, too brutal...

2007-01-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

jus sent a v long sms.... longest sms i ever sent...
8 msges tog.... hahahaha..
kk maybe can be longer de... lolz...
but its still the longest i ever sent mah....

so so sorry if i affect ur mood or wat.... but i suddenly feel like telling u wat im tinking...

really tired lo... all the goin out has made me even more and more physically tired now tat im sick....
health getting poorer and poorer... getting weaker and weaker day by day....

but i tink today is much better le... today no sch... and no outing...
'rested' my body the whole day.... ya.. onli my body... not my mind.... nvm...

was at home the whole day... nth better to do.....

watched superstar when i woke up....
arghh... diya got lower points than carrie... i like diya...
tink she always got the highest points for gals... but this time she got 2nd... haiz... abit sad abt tat....
i really hope diya and darren can get into the finals....

den i went online... watched youtube... 1 litre of tears... wah seh... really make ppl cry 1 litre of tears lo.... based on a true story.... so sad....
the gal is so strong... compared to her... im not even her 1%.... i keep crying over stupid things...
the show is 11 episodes... i finished it over a few days la.... but today i watched abt 5 eps..
sickening... y i cry so much....

Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I dun even have the right to dream. As i tink abt the future, the tears will come out again.

recently i tok lesser and cry more... haha... jialat lo...

after watching... i go bath le....
oh ya... yang bought a new phone... =.="
haha... i onli change my phone once in every 2 yrs... or more... and for my V200... its been wif me since it 1st launched... hahaha... got 4 yrs le??? hahaha...
im happy wif my phones... no point changing... got feelings liao wor.. haha.. and its still good mah... hee..
no point changing ANYTHING as long as i still have feelings for it...

after bathing i watched another show... hahaha... HK drama lai de la... got andy hui de... forgot the name of the show...
i onli watched 3 eps...
painted my nails at the same time... hahaha....
mama ask me to paint for her for CNY... hahaha...
no prob..!!
yang ask me paint for his gf... lolz...
no prob oso..!!

den went for dinner wif my family le.... v long time nv one whole family sit down and have dinner le...
we jus went downstairs eat zhu chao... but i was v happy....
so glad everyone can sit tog happily....

haha... papa say he's goin to buy a mp3 player for me..!! hee....
thank u.. =)

im so sorry these few days haven been tokking to them.... 1 reason is becos i haven been ard at home... everyday i reach home, they are aslp liao...
and even if im at home... i oso got no voice to tok.... no energy to tok... no mood to tok.... so nv tok much lo.... so sorry....

btw we took a pic tog... hahaha.. wif yang's new phone...
lolz... whole family wor... family pic.. keke...

im happy tonite....

oh ya... i suddenly remembered smth... lolz...
tat nite after the hark... lolz... me kaida and angela took a cab home... hahaha...
the lucky guy... always have we 2 gals ard him.. haha...

kk on the cab... i dunno wat happened la... i suddenly have tears in my eyes... i wasnt tinking abt anything... i wasnt sad or wat...
but i jus had tears...
kaida say i cry AGAIN..!! wah lao... where got...
lik tat will spoil my reputation de lo... i dun always cry in front of ppl de lo... hahaha...

den he tried to console me... lolz... "tried to kiss me".. wahahahaha... i suddenly remember his v qian bian face.... lolz... almost made me vomitted... hahaha...
and angela keep making the vommitting sound...
they are both so cute... hahaha... im so lucky to have such cute frenz...
we were saying angela sld wind down the window and vomit... den her vomit will all 'fly' to the behind cars... hahaha...
suay for them lo... esp cyclist... hahahaa...

love kaida's broad shoulder.... hahaha... always there for us to lean on....
wahahhaa.. his shoulder is really broad lo...
so man..!! hahaha... pui..!!
haha...
anyway thanks for the pats... hahaha... he patted me on my head alot times le....
i really feel v comforted when ppl does tat... thanks wor..!!

wah... saw hark's blog..
there's new songs..!!! yeah..!!!!
songs i like currently.... ni yao de bu shi wo, ai xiao de yan jing and jielun's songs..!!!
wah...
this week the live band will be performing some of the songs... wondering who will be singing... hahahaha... eddie or philip or amos?? lolz... other than philip im fine with the other 2... hahaha...
i v bad hor... =P

goodbye

2007-01-13T12:49:00.000+08:00

i really tot im ok......
but actually im not...
jus putting up a brave front... but in fact im still weak on the inside....

i didnt noe how to react.....

haiz... i feel tat we have nth much to tok abt alady....

its the same as b4....

i oso dunno wat im tinking abt le... goodbye..

broke again..

2007-01-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

3rd day of sch... haha.. i still dun understand the lecturer's english... hahaha...
jialat leh....
lolz....
and my memory is still the same... hahaha... having a hard time remembering ppl.... lolz...
i noe who are the guys in my OG.... but i cant rem their names... hahahaha.. and when we exchanged numbers... i so paiseh.. have to keep asking their names...
hahaha...
now i still dunno who is who.....
aiya.. nvm... i got 3 yrs to rem.... hahahaha... i can take my time....

wah... den hor.. ytd and today's lecture theatre hor... the chair is making me seasick... hahaha...
felt v giddy and slpy when sitting on the chair.... lolz...

ytd i went out wif miss lee after sch.... went to orchard.... shopping.. hehe.... but we onli shopped awhile... cos i really tired le.... hahaha... so lousy...
she oso say i now so weak le... no more stamina le....
haiz... ya lo... i used to be able to shop the whole day de.... den nw... its like onli few hrs... den im tired le.... jialat... lousy neh....
haiz...

sad tat im sick... cos each time after getting sick.... my singing skills sure deteriorate de...
it used to be ok few yrs ago.... each time i fall sick, i lose my stamina.... until now.... hahaha.. my singing jus sucks....
and after this time, it'll jus get worse....
haiz....
i used to tink i might have a chance to sing demo.... erm.. if i met the right ppl.. hahaha...
but now.. its like really no chance at all.... lolz....
nvm la... its jus my interest... hahaha...
now i'll jus have to concentrate on other ppl's singing..... mine is no hope le.... haiz.... ~_~"

today didnt feel like goin to sch de.... cos it's raining.... sian... hate rainy days....
somemore feel giddy after i woke up... haiz... no voice oso...
wah... and i dun even have mood to dress up le... hahaha.. its onli the 3rd day... and im bored le....
lolz...
but in the end i still went to sch la.... sch fees is ex... and i dun wan to leave an impression tat im always pontening... hahaha.... wait ppl dun wan to grp wif me for projects... lolz....

but after sch.. i went to town... to meet Dion... waited for her to knock off... den saw smth i sldnt see... =.="
nvm... dun wish to tok abt it.....
we went to cine for dinner.... after dinner it was raining lo... den we dun have umbrella.. so she took out her JUICE mag... lolz... tats our shelter... den went to taka....
i bought a top at ZARA... yea.... another non-revealing top... hahaha... means i can wear to sch....
haha.... she oso bought a top... hee...
den we went to kino to read... lolz.... seldom see me at kino de la....
after tat.. we went to wisma... den shop at sasa.... lolz....
like shop v long lo... cos when we came out of the shop.. its like almost 10pm le.... den we go home lo...
took the train to marina den rebound back.... v long time nv do so le...haha...

im so chuan again nw.... the weather is really no good...
haiz... really dun feel like spending money to see doc again....
cos last mth's phone bill + the recently shopping has made me broke again le....
and somemore i bought txtbooks which cost over $100... haiz...
used up most of my allowance le...
coming few weeks have to eat wind liao le... hahahaha....

wah.. sian.. nxt sat got lecture sia....
1st time to study on a sat.... ~_~"
have to wake up so early... den at nite... wont be able to slp again le... cos our anthony is ben zhou ge shou on tat nite.... and we'll be celebrating his bdae after hark...!!
meaning... no slp again..!! Great..!! hahahaha....
kk... tink we'll onli continue the celebration if he hasnt die in weicai's hand...
wahahahaha... cos weicai is goin to make him drunk..!!! lolz... Jiayou oh Kaida..!! hahahaha...

hmm... actually i feel like drinking the drink tat weicai said will die after drinking de... hahahaha... i see baowen nv die tat day.... so i tink i wont die oso lo... keke...
and tat time i tried abit... its actually quite nice lo....
hahaha... so i feel like trying... can i..?? hee... :P

4kg a mth..!! Hahaha..

2007-01-11T09:36:00.000+08:00

1st day of school was ok.....
'weida' still looks like weida... hahahaha...

one v big problem is... i dun understand the lecturer's english....
jialat leh... wan to copy notes oso cannot catch wat she's saying....
she's frm china.... not i look down on china ppl's english la.... but den she tok lik wan to act ang moh... den somemore wanna gek the slang... haiz... gives us more difficulty in understand wat she's saying....
her 'accounting'.. she can pronounce it as 'ka-ni'.... =.=" wat the....
'ten'... she pronounces it as 'tong'.... ~_~"
lik tat how to understand ah???
haiz.... heng she's onli wif us for this week.... but this week i'll be having 3 accounting lectures.... jialat lo....
anyway... for this whole mth... the accounting lectures is onli for this week... hahaha....
meaning it'll be a mth later when i have my nxt accounting lecture after fri....

after lecture, i went to town le... actually wanted to meet Dion... hahaha... onli asked her to acc me while i have to wait for Kaida and Angela.... but she suddenly tell me she's tired le... so i ask her to go home 1st lo.... den meet another day bah...
haiz... i was alady reaching le leh... den i alight at heeren lo... walk back to orchard mrt to wait for them.....

hahaha... i cant walk much leh.... my cough lik tat hor... jialat leh... makes me v tired after walking... hahaha... old liao le...
den chi chi de waited for them to come lo...
wah... so qiao... me and angela wear machiam couple wear neh... lolz.. pink top and denim skirt... lolz... and our pink is similar lo... haha... so qiao..

when our singer come... we head to lido de party world liao lo.. for the audition....
lolz... ernest is still the judge... hahaha... i didnt dare to make and eye contact wif him... pai seh la... scarly if our singer got in liao.. den ppl say xian hua mah... hahaha....
but he v professional oso la... so wont let ppl wu hui de lo...
wah... kaida really sing until v jialat lo... cannot make it.... dun tink he'll make it to the nxt round.... hahaha
go on stage so many times le.. dunno still jin zhang for wat lo... tsk tsk tsk...
cannot make it la.. hahhaa...

after he sang he oso v disappointed... cos he noe he sang badly... hahaha.. paid $10 to sing badly... haiz.. bo bian... sing liao.. cannot re-sing oso...
haha.. when we left.. i got say bye bye to the judges la... i still v polite de lo... hee..

after the audition.. we went to far east.... to eat dinner... spent $15 to eat a lousy dinner... lolz.. really bo hua la... see the egg sian liao... hahaha...
den we go walk walk awhile... cos kaida say he wanna buy clothes.... during the ben zhou ge shou he oso dunno wat to wear.. hahaha...
but nv see anything nice...

he said wanna take bus to hark... cos v far... hahaha.. den me and angela argued tat we can walk there... actually its really quite near lo....
in the end he say ok lo.. den we walk there... den shop shop on the way oso mah... go heeren de addidas... wah.. i saw a men's jacket v nice neh... but its men's de....
den we oso went in to levis... he tried on 2 shirts... hmm.. i like the white one.. hahaha... guys wear white v shuai lo... hahaha...
but in the end oso nv buy la... lolz...
den we walk walk to hark le...
when we reached ard meridien there.... i really cannot make it le leh... wah.... sld have listened to kaida take bus there la... haiz.... but i didnt tell them....
really v tired lo... hahaha... im really getting weaker and weaker....

finally we reach hark.. wah.. its the v cold couple hosting.... hahaha..
hark de ppl were surprised to see us.. hahaha.. cos we seldom go there on weekday de.. liyan looked v happy to see us.. haha... and youwei oso... weicai was there too.. hahaha.. surprise..!!!
wah.. its really kinda empty lo.... mens nite.... onli a few tables were occupied...
it ended early oso... ard 11+
when we were abt to leave... hahaha... liyan suddenly ask us all to take part in the live bi yi bi... lolz... today got no contestant..!!!! wah.... jialat leh.. hahaha..
i cant take part... im really sick.. hahaha.. even if im not sick.. i oso wont take part de la.. lolz... den kaida and angela didnt wan to take part oso... hahaha.. ke lian de youwei... cant find anyone else le..

ytd amos was not ard... hahaha... they all v shiok lo... wu fa wu tian le... hahahaha... boss not ard den can lik tat play lo... hahaha..
wah.. den they even go on stage to sing and play lo.. hahaha...

ytd i reached home den i buay tahan le... checked my mail for awhile.. den i go slp le...
maybe i've been staying up till v late all these while.... tats y im so weak....
ytd sld be one of the earliest day i slp recently le bah... slp at 12+... haha...

im still tired now.... woke up at 7+.... ~_~"
wats wrong wif me... y cant i slp abit longer... so ming ku de...
den feel so giddy now...

wah... since the china trip hor... i tink i lost abt 4kg le... hahaha....
its onli 1 mth... wah seh.. if 1 mth can lose 4kg den v good hor... hahaha....

later have to prepare the notes for today's lecture le... dun wanna carry so many things... haha...
today still goin shopping wif hui... hahaha...
no need rest le...
no time to see doc... maybe nxt week have to go see again... cos the cough really getting more and more jialat le... hahaha...
i wanna go watch youtube now le.. haha.. tata~

1st day of sch today..!!

2007-01-10T09:16:00.000+08:00

seems like i've been blogging alot these few days....
hahahaha... cos i really got nth to do....

haiz... received an sms this morning... a v bad news...
haiz....
baoling de father pass away last nite.... cos of heart attack...
tats v sad lo... haiz....

anyway today is a brand new start.... today is the 1st day of school....
my lesson start at 2pm... hahaha.. tats y im still at home now...

but sian neh... i cant tok much....
1st day of sch... wait ppl tink i v dao...
hahaha.. m i tinking too much....

i can really feel tat my lungs r v tired le... can anyone save me???
v chuan lo...
haiz... not unusual tat i have to see the doc for a few times b4 i can get well...

jus scared later lecture den i keep coughing... hahaha... disturb ppl...
i v considerate de wor... haha..
hahaha.. ult says i cant do anything vigorous now le... ya lo.. too bad... lolz..

i tink i can get over liao le bah....

nv try to change urself to suit another person... its ok if u change ur habit... but nv change ur character....
thats not the real u anymore....
one day when u cant take it anymore... the real u will be revealed...
and when tat day comes... tats the ending...

haiz.... im so tired now.....
feel like slping....
didnt slp well last nite... cos of my cough....
maybe tonite i shall tell them dun go hark le.... go for the audition can le.. maybe go walk walk lo... hahaha...

Do Not Cry... Hahaha.. direct translation..

2007-01-09T19:54:00.000+08:00

不准哭

我把自己反锁在空荡荡的房屋
感谢你让我想个清楚因为爱你所以我不做你的包袱
我不需要谁温柔安抚
请放心我很快能恢复
找到一个人陪我漫步
不准哭我不要装可怜无辜
挡住你的路挡不住你追逐
不准哭我更应该微笑祝福
祝你找到对的幸福
如果我消失不见你在乎不在乎
别含含糊糊我很在乎
因为爱你所以我选另外一条路
离开是我的最後让步
爱情就到这里结束
我们不得不不得不屈服只能笑
不准哭我不要装可怜无辜
挡住你的路挡不住你追逐
不准哭我更应该微笑祝福
祝你找到对的幸福
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its the 1st time i have so much tears for a person... hahaha... but enough is enough....
i really need to get out of this shit....

hahaha... i started to T_T again after the 2 days onli... hahaha... useless rite...

haiz.... someone told me not to act strong le.... wan to cry jus cry....
but now... i really tink i sld stop all these le....
im now almost equivalant to a dead person.... heart is dead... it stopped beating the 1st day of 2007.... maybe it sld stop beating earlier de....

its really not worth it...
watever i wished for.... its jus making me more and more disappointed.... becos i will pin higher hopes on it...
no one can get wat i wished for in their minds....
no one cares.....

the song is "hao Peng you"
but can we still be hao peng you?? he's jus making things hard to happen....
i do not wan to give any pressure oso... i'll take watever comes.....
tats wat i can do....

haiz... tmr goin to start sch liao le....
3 hrs of accounting lesson.... wah... heng its in the afternoon... i dun have to get up too early... haha...

dunno wat to wear tmr... hahaha.... have to start planning my clothes le.... lolz....
and tutu... y say me until so old~~ haiz....
she say the young ppl cannot take it... see me wear too revealing.... =.="
wei.... its onli a few yrs difference lo.... and nowadays de young ppl wear more li hai than me lo.... i m small case lo... hahaha....

tmr after sch... will go support my idol for his talent quest audition..!! hahahaha... and ernest is really doing talent quest lo... hahaha... i asked him... lolz..
hmm... most likely will go bah.... lolz....
and after the audition.... we'll head to hark without baowen... cos he poor thing.. tmr nite got lesson... haha... tmr is men's nite...
aiya... feel like saving up... but den... ppl ask me to where den i go where lo.... cos as i said le... i'll take wat comes.... i'll follow wat ppl tell me to do lo....
if not i oso dunno do wat.. dunno go where.... haha..

oh ya... hark has yyms members de pics on it..!!! hahaha... during the countdown for 2007 de... hahaha... but my name is spelled wrongly... =.="

and tokking abt hark... lolz... remind me of the fierce nan ren.... hahahaha....
he's really a weird guy....
machiam writing essay in frenster msg.... wah... tell me where he stay... so detailed for wat... hahaha.. im not interested... and tell me abt his past r/s.... hahaha.. not interested either....
he msged my dear as well... lolz..... write a whole list of fei hua leh....
haiz... kinda bo liao...
but im oso bo liao to reply his msg....
kk i dun reply to everyone's msg... but becos he is hark's regular... tats y... hahaha...
i seemed to be part of hark le.... lolz...

hope tmr will be a brand new start..
Gambate..!!! ^_^

Worsen...

2007-01-09T12:01:00.000+08:00

wah... jus received a msg frm si li.. hahaha.. my new fren la... she told me i was exempted frm Business Computing... hahahaha...
yeah..!!
means im taking less one module.. so good..!! hahaha...
wah.... den average i'll onli be schooling 2-3 days per week..!!
most of the time, i onli have 1 lesson per day.... except for one day in March... will have to go for a full day lesson....
since there's so little lesson, i shall try to be good... and dun pon teng for the whole sem..!!!!
hahahaha...
unbelievable rite..!! kekekeke....
school fees is ex lo... taking 3 modules 1 sem and it costs 5K+..!!! cant waste la....

dunno whether eddie's goin for the BC tmr anot... im exempted... so he sld be exempted oso bah.. hehe.... good luck lo... lolz...

good... my cough is really getting worse... and somemore its raining... started to rain last nite... and weather is cold today... tats y i keep coughing... hahahaha... i can really feel the pain le... lolz...
my med is almost finsihing.... onli left the antibiotics and Vit C....

y r guys always so selfish.... they jus dun tink for others de... haiz...
maybe everyone is selfish la....

one more thing i seriously dun understand....
y do some religion de ppl keep asking ppl to follow their religion... converting to their religion..
everyone has their own right to believe in the god which they wan to believe in mah....
i tink there's no point to ask ppl to believe in another god....
if he/she can convert to another religion, there's oso a chance tat he/she can convert to Another religion again de mah... no loyalty liao le lo....
haiz....

at 1st i dun mind ppl trying to ask me to believe in their god.... becos i respect tat everyone believes tat their god is good and thus hope tat everyone will have the same believe....
haiz... but i'll get irritated if these gets too often..... its really annoying...

stop bragging abt how good ur god is... keep it in ur heart will do....
i would greatly appreciate it... and i will respect de lo....

Secret Revealed....

2007-01-09T10:24:00.000+08:00

the secret is revealed..... hehehe...
the 2 guys in yyms.... oooo

he's slping?? hahaha... no..!! he jus doesnt wan to get down... and wants to slp wif us gals..!! hahahaha... wat a lucky man... haha

oooo... the secret is revealed... there's smth goin on btwn these 2.... hmm...

slping pig....

they are tog again.... Lolz...

so loving.. someone's still trying to act shuai... haiz.. buay tahan...

this is the most shuai pic ever taken..!! hahaha... look so quiet... cos he's really slping... haha..

buay tahan the one in green..!!! ninja turtle with a twist..!!

wah... baowen is trying to kiss kaida le...

so ke lian... he jus drank few cups of red wine onli.. and he's all red... haha

kk.... dun look so ke lian... yy alady make honey water for u le... haha...

avoid dusty places

2007-01-08T21:10:00.000+08:00

im sooo tired now.... feel like slping le... but gotta wait for aunty to come....
tink still have to wait for abt 2 hrs bah....

soooo tired.....

forgotten doc's advise... hahaha.. AVOID DUSTY PLACES..... and oso air con.. haha.. i on the aircon last nite... :P
hahaha... cos of my airway la.... ma fan de...
i packed my room again the whole afternoon.... kk jus part of my room.... cos there's really really too much to be packed....
thrown away all my poly notes now... hahaha.... i tot one day i might use it.. tats y i kept it... but its really useless la... cos i wont go and read up de lo... and i dun even bother to go and take out all the notes and read de lo.....

the notes are v dusty.... my whole room is dusty.... im such a karang guni.... keke...
there were alot of un-used cosmetics... which have to be thrown away... cos its really been kept too long... hahaha.. found out i kept alot boxes oso... empty boxes... like the perfume box, the cosmetic box, bla bla bla.... dunno y i kept it.. and didnt use it....

kk.. shoe boxes are v useful... hahaha.... cos i used it to seperate my stuffs....
and i found out tat i have lots of contact lens..!! enough for me to last for more than a year bah... haha... and i usually use my mthly disposible contact lens for more than 1 mth... cos i always forgot when i changed it... hahaha...
and i jus bought a few bottles of the contact lens solution.... so i got 1 full box of contact lens and solution..!!! hahaha...

my things are really v dusty.... cos i keep coughing.... and feel v chuan... hahaha...
im like almost committing suicide.... lolz...

mama's complaining abt my cough... i cant control de mah.... =.=" she say its the chalet i went... but chalet is sooo long ago liao le lo...
haiz... watever la... now im sick.. jus let me cough bah....

im looking for shi sinhuey's song neh... cant find de.... sian...

im so tired now.... really feel like goin to slp liao le... haiz..

haha... seen me??

2007-01-08T10:58:00.000+08:00

lolz....
the v fierce nan ren bu gai rang nu ren liu lei de jarrod msged me in frenster....
he's the champion for sept's live bi yi bi..... same mth as angela.....

lolz.. he said he seen me ard his neighbourhood while jogging..... and usually he jog at sun plaza tat area.... lolz.....
dunno y but i jus felt abit ridiculous la...

one more thing i felt v ridiculous abt de is the other day..... i answer one call....
he told me he is kelvin... lolz....
there's nth wrong wif being kelvin..... but den the problem is... when i noe him... he told me his name is Terry...
hahahahha.... he has alot of names hor.... his name in frenster was randy.... and now its michael....
y cant he jus stick to 1 name?? i dun understand....
hahaha... when he told me he is kelvin... i told him i dunno him... lolz..
bo liao la...

haiz... jus called up SIM.... dunno whether im exempted anot....
den they say will have to wait for the approval... dunno by when.... =.="
jus hope i can be exempted.... haiz....

and y does my surname have to start wif Z.... im always the last one.... haiz....
sian...
whole course de ppl.. im the last in the list... i dun like to be the last neh...
hahaha....
aiya... den those few ppl i noe frm the orientation... they in grp 1 de.... different grp frm me.... how... i'll be alone again when sch starts.. haiz....

3rd post today..!! haha

2007-01-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

my 3rd post for the day... hahaha... cool..!!

went to aunty's hse jus now.... she returned me my bags...
brought my dinner over to her hse... haha.. bo liao hor.. cant eat at my own hse... lolz..
den we watched a movie... thai movie... its really a v stupid movie lo...
so lame....
feel like falling aslp when i was watching.... hahaha....

den i was chit chatting wif aunty... a call came... den i went home straight after le....
i tink i wasnt v emotionally stable tat moment.... didnt wan to let her see me lik tat.... so went home...
haha....

i really wasnt trying to console anyone... im jus saying wat i feel.... how i tink things will be...
i might not be right.... but tats wat i feel....

and im jus not myself to ask them those qn..... i cant find myself back.....
i dunno wat i have to do... i dunno wat i wan to do... i dunno anything.....
jus felt v aimless....
yes i've changed.... i cant even recognise myself.....
i really dunno anything... haiz....

suddenly lsj tok to me so much.... hmm.... y all of a sudden??
becos he's leaving den he decided tat he sld unblock me and chat wif me???
hahahaha..... now he's still chatting wif me... lolz..

i really hate guys who flirt when they have gf....
alady have gf... still say miss me???
i tink tat is v not right bah.... haiz...

i really felt v comfortable when kaida pat me on my head tat day.... hahaha.... thanks....
ya... all i need is a pat.... or a hug... jus to make me feel better for the time being... hahahaha....

anyway i still hope u can share ur sorrows wif me.... cos it really pains me to see u getting fan over things....

anyway im really not v happy wif a fren la... hahaha.. complained abit to someone else... lolz... den noe tat actually tat someone else doesnt really like her... aiyo....
she has the same feeling as me.... and she complained to me abt my tat fren....
say she not auto... felt tat she's taking advantage of me becos im too kind....
lolz... i cant be too kind if im tinking bad abt her......
oooo i felt so bad....
guilty... haiz.... she used to be such a close fren.... and now im talking bad abt her...
im evil..~~
hmm... im really v bad to be tinking bad of a fren....

im outta my mind..!!!!

2007-01-07T17:13:00.000+08:00

hahaha...
wat m i tinking.... wat m i doing....

how come i still can say good things to him.... how come i still can tell him to tink positively abt their relationship.....
i cant believe those words came out frm my mouth.....
felt so sour when i was saying those things....
hahahaha.....

dunno wat im doing.... to tink i even asked piggy out for a BJ..!!!! lolz....
kk.. he knows im kidding.....
to tink i even asked scott out.... wif him... it'll not onli be a BJ... hahaha...
but he knows im sick.... so i wont have any mood now.. hahaha... so caring... lolz...

oh my god.. im out of my mind doing these things..!!!!
hahahha...

v sian of ah siao..... haiz.... she really aero me again..... haiz....
its the 248407525617218991727720890570th time she aero me le...
if really dun wan to lend me the textbooks... tell me earlier mah.... frm last week.. drag until now.... haiz....
kk.. im the one getting the books frm her... i sldnt complain so much....
haiz... guess i'll have to buy the books myself le bah.... since she's so bz to pass me the books... haiz...

im really hell outta my mind... lolz...

tired tired....

2007-01-07T14:41:00.000+08:00

hahaha... i jus said v long time nv go sing ktv....
den last nite went to sing le... lolz.... hmm.. sld say this morning went to sing bah... hahaha...

rot the whole morning and afternoon ytd... wake up... watched superstar.... had my brunch... online awhile... watch tv.... slp....
hahahaha....
but actually didnt slp much.... cos when i was abt to fall aslp my phone rang le... =.="

kaida said liyan asked us out... hahahaha....
actually didnt wan to go.... abit hesistant lo.... cos i was really v tired... dunno whether i can tong anot...
but liyan 1st time ask us out... pai seh to reject oso....
den i told kaida i'll be out... see whether jun wanna go anot lo... hahaha.. if she go den i go....
lolz....
wah... den jun say ok wor... hahaha...den lik tat i oso anything lo...

i met her in the evening... cos she was working....
we went shopping... hahaha... so happy... i bought alot things..!! but i didnt spend much.... i spend abt $20+... less than $30.... bought 4 tops... and 4 inner beauty... lolz....
kaida say dun understand y gals everytime go shopping muz buy inner beauty de... lolz...
where got... nice mah....

yeah..!! i got tshirts to wear for school le..!! hahahaha...

i used up all my wisma voucher.... left onli the isetan voucher.... wanted to go and buy the mango jacket de... but dun have liao le... haiz...
too bad lo...
maybe oso good la... den i can use the voucher for other things.... hahaha....

all shops close at 9+ lo... we had nth to do le... cos we are supposed to meet kaida they all 12am at hark..!!
tot of going to watch a movie... hahaha... but there were no more seats le....
good... save money...

we quite li hai wor... hahahaha... frm lido there... we walk all the way to PS...
actually its not v far lo.... hai hao lo... but den guys always complain tat its v far.. hahaha...
by the time we walk there... alady 10+ liao le... so we jus sat at the mac... drink water.... chit chat... hahaha...

den we go meet kaida and baowen liao le... hahahah.. so qiao.. they like wearing couple t.... lolz... both wear black polo tee.. and jeans... hahahha....
we go inside hark... weicai was hosting... sat there awhile... the waitress asked us to order drinks..
wah.... they all noe we waiting for ly mah... and oso youwei they all lo...
in the end... we nv order.. hahaha... den we go outside wait... so ke lian hor....
ly wasnt working ytd... she look so pretty lo... hahaha...

we end up 'shopping' at 7-11... hahahaha... den go watch soccer...
waited v long leh... until ard 2+ den they finsih packing up....

tot they goin for supper onli de... but end up at ktv...
all look so tired.... ytd 8 of us went....

sang until 6am.... wah lao... tired alady lo... i keep falling aslp inside the ktv room....
it was cold... but heng got the sweater i brought for jun... hahahaha... its thick... and v comfortable.... so nice to slp lo... lolz...

reached home ard 630am... tired leh... den bath le ard 7 den slp.... haiz....

now my voice has become sexier and sexier liao le... hahahaha..

jus now lsj suddenly msg me in msn.... lolz.... i tot he had alady blocked me lo... cos so long nv see him online.. and baowen says he's online everyday... lolz...
suddenly unblock me and chat wif me...
goin australia to study liao le.. good lo...

hahaha... tink ah siao will aero me again today...
wah... if she always lik tat... den i tink by the time i grad... i still haven even got the textbooks frm her lo... haiz....
i dun get to see her as often liao le....onli get to see her once in mths... haiz...
sian....

2 sad gals.. hahaha

2007-01-06T11:31:00.000+08:00

the internet connection jus sucks... its so lousy...
haiz... make me so sian...

ytd i managed to catch a nap... hahaha... ok.. even though its abt 30 mins... its better than nth.. cos usually i cant slp in the afternoon de.... hahaha...
tink the med is quite effective to make me drowsy bah... good hor.. hee

went to Hark last nite... kaida said it's liyan's bdae....
oooo.. our new fren... bdae sure muz give face mah... hahahaha
but we cant go empty handed mah... so me and angela went to PS... we bought chocolates for her...
den our mr tay said he wanna give her flowers... hahaha.... i like wat flower buy wat flower lo... hahahaha..
i like water lily de..... but den... i went to the florist to see.... the lily is not so nice... looks like its goin to die liao le.... haiz....
we bought sunflowers instead... its really v nice lo... i choose de... keke...
its a v big bouquet.... 3 v big sunflowers... each sunflower bigger than my face... lolz....
and it onli cost $38.... so cheap... tot it might be v ex... hahaha.... wu hua leh...

oh ya... on the way to PS... got 2 guys approached us... ask us to do survey la....
den one of the guy... he's on my frenster.... lolz...
i find him v familar the last time i pass by their booth... den ytd i suddenly he's the guy in my frenster... hahahaha...
but i feel v bad.. cos i anyhow write in the form... hahaha... told them tat we r in a rush liao le... but they dun believe... ask us anyhow write lo... haha.. den i really anyhow write... those qns... i all cancel... no comments... lolz....
dunno wat the survey is abt oso.. onli filled in my name, dob and occupation... the rest are empty... lolz...
felt v bad la....

but anyway... ytd the J3 de play keyboard de.... he was there... den he played the keyboard for the ben zhou ge shou... the ben zhou ge shou v cute... v entertaining... hahahaha... looks so gayish.. haha... but he sings not bad la.... hahaha...

im so sorry to angela, kaida and baowen last nite..... hahahaha...
its the 1st time i cry in front of them.... hahaha.. v pai seh.... si kaida always disturb me... >.<"
im really v sorry la... i dun wish to cry in front of anyone de....
i cried after kaida sang hen xiang ni... hahahaha... but actually i wasnt really to him sing... im in my own world....
i tink angela is v strong.... but i noe she's oso feeling v sad... esp when his "J" is dangling in front of her... haiz....
2 sad gals... hahahaha....

kaida still ask me y i cry until so cham.... i got more ke lian than angela meh... haiz.... he doesnt noe... but dun wish to tell anyone...
hahaha.. i keep denying... say i nv cry...
but im really ok de la.... so dun worry..

last nite i slpt better... cos my nose didnt block so much... but i was so tired... feel like my lungs cannot make it liao le.... hahaha.... i can cough my lungs out le...

later im going to pass jun my sweater liao le... maybe go shop shop awhile... see whether got any clothes to buy anot... hehe...

i feel like going to sing ktv leh... like v long time nv go liao le.... haiz....
but i cant sing now... dun even have voice to tok much..... ke lian hor...
i wanna sing yuan lai ai qing zhe me shang, i wanna sing ye ye ye ye, and many other songs.... hahahaha....

suddenly i felt so tired again...

Drowsy....

2007-01-05T13:01:00.000+08:00

thrown up again last nite.... hahaha...
tink im getting weak....

couldnt slp last nite... tink i slpt ard 5am..!! hahaha.. den 6+ woke up liao le.. haiz...
nose block make me difficult to slp....

i now have difficulties in tokking... cant tok too loud.... so pls listen properly to wat i say la.... haiyo... jus now tok to yang oso v difficult...
have to do hand sign den can... haiz...

went to see doc this morning le....
got 5 kinds of med.... so ma fan... becos i always forget to take med de...

cough syrup... i quite like this... hahaha... cos taste not bad.. lolz.. but may cause drowsiness
vitamin C... oso not bad...
antibiotics.... (2 times a day)
for flu.... cause drowsiness
for airway...

all after meal....

hahaha.. forgot to tell her abt my vomit... but tink sld be ok la.. cos i didnt vomit today.... keke...

haha.. dunno whether the med is really so effective or becos i haven slp well last nite...
im so tired now le....

later den go slp...
hark tonite... its liyan's bdae today...
Happy Birthday..!!

but actually ernest invited me to his performance tonite at far east plaza...
tink i cannt go liao lo... too bad... haven even seen any of his performance at all... other than the one at youtube... hahaha...
maybe nxt time bah.. haha

time is all i need...

2007-01-04T23:08:00.000+08:00

jus had dinner wif angela... haha... she came all the way to khatib to meet me for dinner....
we had mac... despite my sore throat... hahaha....

i dunno how i sld react when u told me abt her liao le....
i have v strong feeling u 2 will be tog some day..... she likes u de...
i wont be calling u anymore these few days.... or if i noe u r tog wif her liao... i do not wan history to repeat.... wait u bu shuang me again....

slowly i will get over u.... but it will jus have to take time....
watever u tell me abt her now... i will be able to take it de....
but if u nv tell me wat happen... and one day if u 2 are really tog... i tink i really cant handle....

i will have to try really v v v v hard.... becos i've really sunk too deep...
but at least i will try....
everything i do... its jus invisible to u... cos ur heart has her... she has occupied the whole of ur heart.... i dun even stand a tiny bit of space in ur heart....

ask me to go see a doc becos u care?? hahaha.... i tink anyone can ask me to do tat....
i have told u abt my airway b4 de lo... whenever i start coughing... it sure give me alot problem de... maybe im not her... tats y u dun rem it..
im reluctant to listen to u now.... in the past... i listen to u becos i still like u....
now... i wan to stop loving u.... tats y im reluctant.... im sorry....

i onli wished that u would turn back and look at me sometimes... but... hahaha... im tinking maybe we could go out like wat normal frenz do.... but... haha... im upset to noe tat u r willing to send her fren home... but y r u so reluctant to meet my frenz.... u r so da fang towards her.....
perhaps im really asking for too much.... cos im really a nobody to u....

u said i m v xing fu.. cos u still call me everyday...
but i dun tink so.... this is not called xing fu....
the one who's really xing fu is her....

i wont cry for u anymore... there's no more tears alady... and seriously i really dunno how to cry liao le...
i onli noe im v hurt now.... but wat can be done... no one can help... even u cant do anything anymore...
i'll jus have to take time.....

Time... its all i need...

im sorry... but i jus cant help tinking... wat makes u different frm weida and justin....
i really wonder.. is there any feeling for me when u do tat? or is it jus for the sake of doing it??
at least wif them, i noe for sure there's no feeling involved....
wif u.. i dunno... cos i dun believe tat u r same as them...
im really sorry to be tinking this way.... not tat i mind abt it... i jus wan to noe the ans... but i dun tink u will give me an ans oso....
sorry....

haiz... maybe im really tinking too much things....

now i onli wish for one thing.... i hope i can ask u to do so...
pls do not abandon me.... for i did not abandon u at all....
pls still treat me as a v good fren....

i need a good rest.... mentally and emotionally tired....
it'll leave a v deep scar.....

let me noe if u r really wif her....

i need a new image...

2007-01-04T15:12:00.000+08:00

i need new clothes for sch..!!!
new bag and shoes to go wif my new clothes....

serious i dun tink i have clothes for sch lo... hmm... maybe jus tat few tshirts i have...
the rest... how to wear to sch.... they are so revealing.... hahaha...
aunty and hui always say i lu ban li... =.=" where got so jialat....
aiya... but those clothes cant be worn to sch...
i need new clothes..!! hahaha...
i wanna buy smth simple... like tshirts... hahaha... and i need jeans too..!!

ppl say its jus an excuse for me to spend money.. hahaha...
anyway i still have alot vouchers... so hope can no need spend money....

after i have saved enough pocket money, im going to dye my hair black le.... getting sick of the color liao.... black is jus right... i dun have to worry abt the new grown hair too..
den im goin to rebond my hair back....
i wan to become a plain jane...

haiz... i need a mp3 player.... if not how m i going to survive the 3 years journey to school.... jialat leh....
justin said he will get me one the last time... after tat i got 1 mp3 player... and now its damaged liao le...
Where is the mp3 player he promised???
where is the hp he promised....
where is the diamond ring he promised....
where is the car he promised....
where is the hse keys he promised....

hahaha... my ears alady rot... always listening to all his "promises"... say say onli lo...

dun promise anyone anything if u cant do it.....

ever since i broke off wif cx... i dun believe in promises le.... i onli believe tat promises are meant to be broken.....

im so happy im sick.... hahaha...
jus had my lunch... but jus thrown up...

i feel so bad for my dear.... haiz....
y muz guys be such jerks....
we put in all our feelings.... but wat do we get in return.... disappointment and sadness...
if really impossible le... den jus tell us earlier mah... dun let us sink so deep le den let us noe... its going to hurt more....
we'd rather u tell us straight....

its the 1st time i noe tat she cry.... haiz... tink she's really v hurt...
im so sorry to break the news to her... tat v and j are tog liao le... haiz...
kaida is the 1st to noe abt it.. den he told me abt it.. and ask me to tell angela.... so jian..!!
but i have to tell her... cos let her noe earlier will be better... b4 she sunk deeper... i noe alady sank v deep liao le... but its jus to prevent her frm sinking any deeper...

haiz... i can understand how she feels.... becos im feeling worse than her... i sank too deep... deep till i can get myself out...
i nv cried so much for someone b4.... after the 2nd day of new yr... i alady forgotten how to cry liao le... so ytd and today i nv cry le.... but im still feeling terrible....

sometimes crying out does help de lo.... so when someone is crying... jus let her cry... she will feel better de... i wish i can cry now.... but i cant... i dunno how to cry alady....

last nite... i was tokking to scott... den i suddenly no voice.... v jialat... hahaha... cant go sing ktv wif him liao lo...
recently jiaoling added me on msn... haha... she's my sec sch mate... dun really noe her well... but we were in GG... maybe my nick.... she noes im not v happy....
hahaha... ok.. maybe everyone noes im not happy...
hahaha....

im so empty tat i dun even noe wat to put for my nick liao le.... its jus i M a GaL now....
hahaha... my brain is so empty.... v blank...

kk nvm... now at least i noe wat i wan... i wan new clothes... hahahaha...

oh no..!! im like one of the oldest in ytd's OG.. haiz.... v zi bei lo...
im even older than tat "weida"....
=.=" sian liao lo...

usually my frenz are older than me de.... now... haiz... im consider old liao le.... how how how..... i dun wan to be the oldest wor.... haiz... tats y i like to go out wif older ppl... hahaha.. cos i'll be younger... hahaha.. i oso v jian hor... lolz..
really have to do smth to my hair.... if my overall looks plainer... i tink i might look younger bah... hahaha.... :P

look forward to my straight black hair bah... hahaha..

Orientation

2007-01-04T00:19:00.000+08:00

Orientation was okie.....

but there was a guy.... who looked like weida.... wah seh... really alike lo...
how can 2 person look so alike....
ok.. other than the face shape... the rest look the same... the eyes, nose, mouth....
even the height and the built.... wah.. so similar.... hahaha.. i felt like i have interacted with this body b4.... lolz....

oh... i saw eddie... he's in the same course as me... hahaha..
so qiao... but i tink will be in different grp bah...

other than eddie... i didnt see anyone else familiar le....

wah... really look like weida neh.... how come so alike de...
i was tinking whether they are related anot... hahaha..

ah..!! den the OGL... the guy... martin... he looks like my primary school mate....
lolz...
but i didnt ask which pri sch he's frm... hahaha... same age as me wor....

hahaha... the few days of not slping well makes me sick....
nw having flu and sore throat....
good sore throat.... tink its going to be quite lasting.... hahaha...
den will lead to the cough....
den my sensitive windpipe will start giving me trouble le.....
well done..!!
hope i can say bye bye faster....

Bad start... Bad start....

2007-01-03T23:47:00.000+08:00

Its such a bad start..... Haiz...
i've been crying since 1st day of new year.... its not jus normal crying... i m really v sad, v scared, v lost....
1st day of new year.... haiz....
i lost my memory for a short while... i cant even rem who i m.... im jus so scared....

i dunno wat i have to do.... i jus need an answer.... but i cant get the exact ans.....
i wan an answer to tell me wat i sld do...
till now... i still have no ans.... i see no future.... i dunno where i sld go... wat i sld do.... im jus so lost.... i cant handle it anymore...

she gets everything i wan....

haiz....

today... i went for the orientation... its soooo long... ended at ard 730 lo... 2 hrs later than wat was said..!!!
wah.. den by the time i reached orchard to meet aunty... alady 8+ liao le lo... all the shops abt to close liao le.....
heng nv go sentosa ah.... raining oso...
we onli got time to have dinner... den went home liao le...

im really v xin ku now.... i got no one to tok to..... if got i oso dunno how to say....
i dunno everything liao le....
i dunno wat happened....
i dunno wat i have to do....
i dunno how to take it anymore le....
im jus so lost....
i've lost myself alady....

im now sick....

today... i dun even noe how to cry le....
wat is tears....

If a girl cries

2007-01-02T12:19:00.000+08:00

If a girl cries in front of you, it means that she couldn't take it anymore.
If you take her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life;
If you let her go, she couldn't go back to being herself anymore.

A girl wont cry easily,
Except in front of the person who she love the most, she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily,
only when she loves you the most, she put down her ego.

When she cry rite in front of you,
When she cry bcoz of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?
Think.
Which other girl have cried wif pure sincerity,
Infront of you,
And bcoz of you?
She cry not because she is weak,
She cry not bcoz she wan sympathy or pity,
She cry,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain,hurt,n agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

Last entry for year 2006

2006-12-31T12:35:00.000+08:00

wah... this is the last entry for year 2006....
hope everything bad can end.... den good things start... haha..
Yeah..!!

i checked in wif angela at coasta sands on thurs nite... its onli the 2 of us..!!! hahahaha...
but in the end kaida came too..!! hahahaha... so its the 3 of us.. keke...
it was alady quite le... so we didnt do anything or go anywhere oso.... we 3 xiang qing xiang ai lo... slp tog... wah.. kaida open concert when he slp.... lolz....
v funny lo.... lolz...
the nxt day we 3 went to whitesands de NTUC to mai cai.. hehe... heng got one guy wif us lo... if not the 2 of us carry so many things... sure die until jialat de.... hahaha.. thanks wor....
hehe...
we bought drinks.... heavy lo.... haha
den we went back to out chalet... rest rest.... den afternoon go out gai gai le.... cos the man say he wants to go shopping... den we 2 acc him go... hahahaha.. lucky man...
we went to PS... there nth to shop lo....
wahahahahahaha.. in the end me and angela shop... lolz.... kaida v ke lian... wanted to shop de... but in the end become me and angela shop lo... hehe.... pai seh la....
we went to hark at nite.... baowen meet us at hark... like v long time nv go hark le.... vynson oso say long time nv see me liao... ya... b4 i went china i oso nv go....
hahaha... i didnt noe angela told them i sick.. den nv go.... but nvm la.. keke..
hark was ok.... but my feeling is not ok.... hahahaha.... v uncomfortable lo.... haiz... sian lo.. cos dunno y suddenly got fever leh... jialat....
after hark we still go watch Death Note 2 lo... hahaha.. went to the cathay... cos near mah.. but alady buy tix liao le... den we all goin 'home' tog mah... goin back to the chalet back to slp...
liyan came to the movie wif us... hahahaha...
wah... we all like her lo... she so nice gal.. she's frm hark.. the waitress... v sweet.... see her liao will like her de lo... boy and gal like her... hahahah... cos me and angela oso like her....
always smile de lo.... v guai gal... hehe...
she so nice lo... still noe how to bake brownie wor...hahahaha.. this kind of gal really can marry her wor.... and our mr tay so cute lo... blush so easily... hahahaha...
but she didnt go back to the chalet wif us.... kaida send her home lo....
the show.... hmm.. hahaha... good la.... but den i was really v slpy.... falling aslp liao le lo....
dunno y go back chalet not tired le....
we reached the chalet ard 5am le.... den suddenly not tired le wor.. hahahaha..
den me and angela make sandwiches.... for nxt day de.....
after tat den we go slp... alady ard 8am liao le... hahahaha... slp until abt 12+.. den wake up... eat the sandwiches.....
wah... really v nice lo... hahahaha... yeah..!! can jia fen liao le... hahaha... baowen say de wor.... not i hao lian ah.. hahahaha
but the sandwiches really v nice neh... keke.... i make de..!! =D
den we start preparing for the bbq at nite liao le...
manfred, carino, andrew and jun oso come le.... hee...
wah... den weicai oso coming... hahaha...
lolz... weicai machiam ming xing lo... lolz.. cos we all wanna take photo wif him.... hahahaha... not all la.. onli us.. the ones tat go hark...
so nice of him to come down.... hehe....
den lu lu xu xu more ppl came le lo... got ET, eric, rongxiang, ah siao, chewy and a fren and weijun.... liyan and vynson oso got come.... but they came v late... 1+am... hahahaha.. cos after hark mah...
we ordered too much food..!!! left alot lo.... hahaha...
we played games.... dunno wat la... everyone jus choose the poker card... smallest de will have to drink.... lolz... vynson wan to hai kaida... lolz.... kaida drink until he v red lo... wah.. really whole body red..... face to leg.... hahahaha... i 1st time see someone so red.... lolz...
rongxiang oso v red... keke....
i quite heng lo... cos didnt lose too many times.... but a few times they hai wo.... i oso v ke lian... no frenz de...
hahahaha...
play till 4am... 5+ den slp... cos i was chatting wif angela.... hahahaha... she so happy...
aiya.. cos everyone is happy too....
today we checked out le lo.... i was v tired... but dunno y i reach home den not tired le... dunno can tahan tonite anot.... hahaha... HARK again..!!!!
wahahahaha... piggy asked me to have my last s*x for yr 2006.... good idea hor....
so bad..... i beri innocent de lo.... dun teach me bad... lolz

2006
a v pai seh start... cos "happy new yr weida" instead of "happy new yr kaida"... onli ppl who spend the new yr tog wif me noe... v pai seh de lo...
left moving visuals....
joined wintech... and left soon... hahaha...
den rot rot rot.....
went taiwan and shanghai
forget abt weida le.....
got to noe a few nice frenz.... haha.. quite alot frm frenster de...
liked someone but no outcome... too bad lo...
lousiest bdae ever.....
start singing hall...
really go to hark... to enjoy...
got my licence..!!

2007
back to sch.....
back to sch.....
back to sch.....

wah... dunno whether i can cope anot.... like so long nv study le... hahahaha.. jialat... brain is rusty liao le lo...
but anyway... hope 2007 is a better start....
hope everyone has a better start......
be happy..!!!!
take care...

THERE'S NO GHOST LA..!!!!

2006-12-28T12:11:00.000+08:00

my 200th post... hahahaha...
bu zhi bu jue.. i have written so many bo liao things le..... hahaha....

starting sch soon le.... wah sian.....
hate the feeling of starting everything frm scratch....
have to get to noe ppl.... make frenz.... i so shy de... wait nobody fren me den i v ke lian lo.... nobody partner me... =(
wah.. den oso have to get used to the studying mood.... jialat...
so long nv study... dunno can make it anot.... cham.....

but anyway ytd i went to aunty de grandma de funeral...
aunty de mama keep 'promoting' the kuey she made... lolz... its chao ta liao le lo....
me and min min went there to help to fold de paper....
wah.... aunty teach us her style.... i tink we damaged quite alot... hahaha.. i onli noe how to roll den 'du' both sides... the 'du' both sides one hor... ah min oso make until so ugly... hahaha... like v flat de lo...
in the end she jus sat there lim kopi....
wah... den leslie came.... wah.. the one he fold hor... hahahaha... got character lo....
aiya.. everyone fold de oso got their own character de..... keke...
in the end they wan to play dai dee..... =.="
i dunno how to play... but they ask me play.....
den i jus hold on to the cards... hahahaha.. behind me got one gao shou... aunty de didi.. ask me throw wat cards... den i win... hahaha...
but in the end.... he took over my place and play lo... hehehe...
aiya... leslie and ah min keep telling me ghost story...
v bad de lo... aunty still say if the ghost de hand come out... den i hi-5 wif him... =.=" alady scared until dunno run where liao lo... still hi-5....
tonite its onli going to be me and angela.... ~_~"""
kinda scary hor.... haiz....
but anyway... slp early can le lo... wahahahha....
tmr kaida and baowen come le... hahaha.. den we can all slp tog le.. haha.. not so scary le bah....

BBQ will be on sat.... anyone who's free can come lo..~~ hehehe...
sms me lo....
i goin to cut my hair later den go meet angela le... hehe..

Sian....

2006-12-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

dun feel like doing anything.... dun feel like tokking to anyone... dun feel like seeing anyone....
i m so tired.... i tink i will faint any minute....
jus came back frm bugis wif ah siao and angela....
but i was not in the mood to shop.... i can stare in the air for minutes....

it was raining the whole day.... since i woke up this morning... v sian....
y cant it jus stop raining..... haiz.....

got drenched in the rain when i came home.... haiz... didnt take out my umbrella even though i have one in my bag...
lik tat den ppl wont noe whether its the rain or tears on my face....

i really v sian liao le... sian until can die lo....

tmr still goin to attend a funeral....
although not my fren or wat.. but its still quite sad to noe tat ppl jus leave lik tat.... without informing de lo.....
so muz treasure everyone ard u while they are still ard.....

Bo sim....

2006-12-25T22:53:00.000+08:00

wahahaha...
i jus remembered smth... hahaha...
i asked someone to msg me tmr if he wanna meet me.... lolz... but he doesnt have my new number.... hahahaha...
aiyo.... rejected him so many many times le....
now like cheat him lik tat... hahahaha....
he sure say me bo sim de... haiz...

hahaha... like suddenly started to miss alot ppl.. angela, ah siao, kaida, baowen....
dunno y suddenly tot of CX... hahaha... but he's like history history history le...
maybe becos mama threw away he gave me de thing....
haiz...

Christmas

2006-12-25T12:44:00.000+08:00

Its Christmas today....

hahahaha...
sld be staying at home bah.... no where else to go... hahaha..
ytd onli went to watch movie wif ernest and piggy lo....
actually i didnt wanted to go de... hahahaha... cos still got ernest de band member.... den i shy shy de lo... hahaha...
den piggy say if i dun go den nobody partner him le... hahaha... since i so good.... and so free... den i end up wif them lo... hahaha... lucky ernest de fren oso v frenly de...
but ernest and terence are alady v good company le... cos they 2 v funny de.... go out wif them always laugh de lo... hahaha..
we watched nite at the musuem....
wah... we sit at the 4th row wor.... and somemore its at the corner..... our necks..... hahahaha...
but den terence booked it in the afternoon neh... still no seats.. bo bian lo....
but v pai seh... cos terence paid for my ticket... and the popcorn and drinks... hahaha.. tell him dun wan the popcorn and drink le.... but nvm la... cos end up he eat... hahaha...
thanks anyway lo.... hahahaha..
v pai seh cos everytime go out wif him den he pay... den i everytime say nxt time treat him back... but in the end the nxt time is he pay again... lolz....
haiz... v sad...
cos we 3 take pic hor... me, terence and ernest la... i m the shortest... :( they ask me stand on the dustbin... =.=" win liao lo....
all terence de fault... who ask him sooooooooo tall.... so tall for wat.... make me so short lo... haiz...
after the show.... ernest and his fren dunno go where lo... terence say wanna go clubbing.... but den....
i underaged la.... keke.... cannot go this kinda places.... hahahaha....
den i noe i go i sure drink until v jialat de lo... so its safer not to go..... although i noe terence will 'protect' me... hahahaha...
i end up goin home lo... haiz.....
hahahaha... oso thanks for sending me home lo... lolz... to my doorstep..!! i will v pai seh de lo....
hahaha.. went home den take pics lo.... wah... take until my phone goin to explode le bah... hahahhaa... memory full... tsk tsk tsk...

but anyway... today i will be staying at home to rot......
hahaha...

Merry Christmas

2006-12-24T12:15:00.000+08:00

can children have some privacy..... y do parents have to chap ji ka in everything de... haiz...
my things pack halfway... wah lao... i do halfway onli lo... i will pack finish my own things de mah...
mama go and pack my things when i was not at home..!!! kaoz....
saw smth tat she sldnt see... den she angry lo.. make me angry oso.... cos she anyhow throw away my things....
she saw 'jonathan'... jonathan is a name aunty gave.... ask me y my fren give me this kind of thing.... she say wanna throw away...
ppl wan to give me wat is my business de mah.... and its onli for fun lo... she take it so seriously... den make herself so angry.... still ask me dun fren this kind of ppl...
onli close fren will give this kind of thing de lo.... for fun de wat....
haha.. aunty say she sld be happy to see that thing lo... at least i dun have to slp ard lo... or at least i got take safety precaution lo....
haiz.... den i super not happy she anyhow throw away my things.... not jonathan la.... but its jus smth else that i keep for memory lo...
i dunno wat else she threw away.... i jus notice that thing is missing...
she said it was v old and dirty le... den throw it away lo.... haiz....
it wasnt even blocking her way.... it was there for so long liao le.... now i wan to pack my room.. den she oso go and touch my things......
den still lik tat say my fren...
haiz....
v sian de lo.....
den she oso go and pack yang's things.... tink she pack abit onli la.... but i see liao oso buay song lo.... ppl not ard den touch ppl's things.... give them abit of privacy mah... and its rude lo...
haiz....
ytd didnt go out wif piggy.... but went out wif aunty, weihang and min lo....
hahaha... we went to vivo city.... wanted to watch movie there de.... but den hor... no seats la... all v front row....
den we go shopping lo.... haha... dunno y xmas got dong dong chiang... lolz...
we 3 gals shop.. den weihang like v ke lian... hahaha... so we decided to go somewhere else.... and oso carpark v ex la... hahaha... go somewhere else shop oso better mah...
so we went to eat dinner lo.... went to paradiz centre... go and eat the Hokkaido hot pot... hahaha... really v big leh.... give us one BOAT of seafood... hahaha... per person lo... me and min min eat seafood de... den weihang eat beef de.. and aunty eat fish de...
so there were 4 big boats on our table lo... hahaha...
hahaha... aunty go out tok on the phone... den my phone oso rang... so qiao... like aunty call me lik tat....
hee.... den weihang got a call... aiya.. his papa wanna go out.... den weihang say he have to go back to let his papa use the car... wah... he v good leh... he dun let papa take public transport de... lolz.... his papa take public transport den he will scold de.... hahahaha... but in the end hor... his papa still take taxi out....
haiz...
we reach home ard 8+... but i didnt went home... i went to aunty's hse instead... hahaha.. cos go home v sian... nth to do....
i watched dvd at aunty's hse lo.... watched one show dunno wat holiday de... den watched another one the nacho..... lolz... tat one v funny.... kinda stupid oso...
watch until v late den go home...
go home liao oso cant slp.... haiz.....
today is xmas eve.... dunno where to go... ah siao say wanna bbq at chewy's place... or wanna go out wif wenbin they all lo....
but i v sian leh.... dun feel like goin anywhere.....
stay at home chen si bah.....
hahahaha...

anyway...

Merry Christmas....

la kopi...

2006-12-23T00:07:00.000+08:00

jus came back frm bugis wif aunty, weihang and minmin...
early afternoon i went to orchard to meet hui de.... actually was supposed to go sengkang de.... but in the end i go town meet hui lo...
haha... dun go sengkang oso good la... go there nth good to do....
hehe... i bought a top.... she oso bought one... wah... my top got 20% de lo.... but the cashier nv give me 20% off... den i still go sign le... den hui tell me she nv deduct... den i realised wor.... heng she got tell me lo...
haiz... i too careless le....
we go walk walk awhile... she wanna go UOB... so i bring her to the UOB near somerset there.... but by the time we reached there.... the bank jus closed le.... =.=" suay lo...
we end up at MOS burger... hahaha...
i dunno y i was so tired... felt like slping.... hahaha....
but i still go and meet aunty they all... aunty jus had her TP.... but she didnt make it... aiya... nvm la... i 1st time oso didnt make it....
weihang went to simlim to buy a camera... good de wor... $1000+ de..... tsk tsk tsk...
i waited for them outside topshop... wah... really v long lo... when they came... we go have our dinner.... after dinner didnt walk much la... end up go TCC la kopi le....
there was a grp of gays sitting next to our table... ooo...
i noe they are gays cos jus now when i was waiting for them... the guys were standing beside me... den i saw them being v touchy... to each other la... den got hold hand... haha...
aiya.. anyway they quite obvious la....
wah... we frm 8pm sit until almost 11pm... TCC goin to close le.... den we left... haha..
ah min say tmr wanna go watch movie neh....
but tmr...
haiz.. kaida not goin for his audition le... den i dunno whether still got go out wif piggy anot....
piggy say wanna bring me go see ernest de performance....
i nv seen ernest de performance b4.... but if ernest is performing... den it will be onli me and piggy watching tog lo...
hmm... been out wif piggy alone once... den the rest of the time.. ernest is ard mah....
hahahaha... i suddenly dun dare to go out wif him alone... dunno y...
maybe becos he noes too many things.... i scared smth will happen.... lolz... or maybe i tink too much la... wahahahaha...
he so take care of me... wont bully me bah... hahaha....
aiya... too bad angela goin back to msia... if not.. we sld be goin hark le...
xmas oso nth to do...
boring.....

Practise..

2006-12-22T08:57:00.000+08:00

i jus realised tat i go and read and try to understand so many lyrics... but those songs tat i always sing hor... i nv really go and read them..!!! hahahha.....
jus sing for the sake of singing...
i tell ppl cannot lik tat de... wan to sing properly muz 1st noe wat the song is abt...
ytd b4 i slp... i was listening to 933... hahaha... den i suddenly heard the song i always sing... "I Believe".. den hor i realise tat i nv go and read up the lyrics b4..
hahahaha...
no wonder kaida said b4 i sing tat song no feeling de... hahaha...
wah... muz go practise le....

Tired....

2006-12-21T21:41:00.000+08:00

im tired le.... today i was packing my room..... haven pack finish.... haven even pack halfway.... too many rubbish le...
threw away alot of things... old bags... old shoes.... old lecture notes... hahahaha... i still had my secondary literature books leh... The Crucible, Romeo and Juliet, To Kill a Mocking Bird.... hahaha.... onli these 3 la... these 3 are those i studied in sec 4....
Crucible is abt witchcraft de... Romeo and Juliet... haha.. v famous de la... so no need to say... and den the Mocking Bird is abt the negro... i onli agar rem abit the story nia... actually not bad de wor... haha
wah... last time got study I am David, Pride and Prejudice and Charlotte's Web... hahaha.. now Charlotte's Web got movie le wor... hehe... the name of the pig is Wilbur..!! i still rem... lolz...
still got alot other literature books... dun rem le... haha...

my whole room hor.. i onli packed half my table lo.... too many rubbish... hahaha...

btw SIM finally called le... wah... v "efficient" lo... i emailed them few days ago.... they haven go check... jan got orientation... aiya.. sian.... no frenz.... wait nobody fren me how????!!!??!? haiz... so ke lian....

my msn nick and the msg always states exactly wat im feeling lo....
my nick i cant rem wat song tat is now.... dunno wat song lai de... but i jus got tat sentence frm a song.....
the msg is frm karen mok's ji mo de lian ren ah...

im so tired of loving.... i nv love until so xin ku b4 de lo....
i felt tat i didnt exist at all.....
ur mind is all abt her.... even when we were tog.. u r tinking abt her...
do u noe its v hurting when i was at ur hse doing watever.. and u tell me u r tinking of her...
where am i den??
i was abit happy when u wanted me to not go to china.... becos tat was the 1st time u give me the feeling tat u acknowledge my existence even though we chat on the phone everyday....

everytime u ask me whether is it possible btwn u and her... how wld i noe.... i dun even noe wat this gal is tinking abt... i dunno her character... i dunno her at all... i cant tell u wor..
if u ask me.. i dun wish tat u and her will be tog lo.... but if u tink u will be happy if u r wif her den i oso cant say much rite... i cant control u mah....

i m still willing to listen to wat u wan to say abt her..... but pls dun force me to ans anything i dunno.... its really v hard for me to give u an ans.....
but sometimes i hope u will consider abt my feelings too....
if one day... someone u like, tell u she likes another person... how will u feel... and she keeps telling u things abt the person... asking u whether they can be tog anot.. how will u feel....
[http://www.cnlyric.com/html_gc/1110/4912/51821.html]
i noe how u feel abt her.... cos my feelings is exactly the same as u....

i m not feeling v fan now.... im jus feeling very tired.. and lost.... dunno wat i sld do now....
i tink of all the bad things u did to me... although not really v bad... but bad enough to hurt me.... but tat didnt make me stop tinking of u....

i m not hoping that u will love me or wat.... i jus hope that sometimes u will make me feel tat i exist.. consider abt my feelings oso....
i hope im not asking for too much...

dun have to ask me whether i really like u anot.... u sld noe the ans... even onlookers noe the ans...

Talent Quest Again???

2006-12-21T14:34:00.000+08:00

everyday raining leh... the clothes v difficult to dry lo... esp thos thick thick ones...
wan to go out oso ma fan...
hehe... piggy goin to get a car soon le... but is manual de car neh... i cant drive le lo... >.<"
hahahaha... he say can let me try try... as long as i dun grab the wrong gear... lolz... i v careful de... i wont grab wrongly de lo... hehe...
hui say my msn pic i look like a boy... hahaha... cute hor.. den piggy says i look like a sexy boy boy... hehe... but i tink v cute neh... hor??
tmr i goin to SK le.... so long nv go tat place le...
haha...
sat kaida goin for his talent quest audition.... hahaha... i got v strong feeling ernest is the judge again neh... lolz....
still rem last yr kaida went for talent quest de audition... hahahaha... den he so nervous... hahahaha... his face so jin zhang... so funny...
and ernest said his "ming yun" is flat... the way he hold mic oso... hahaha..
actually i didnt tink his "ming yun" is flat la... dunno leh... maybe ernest hear too detailed le... hahaha.. btw he sang "ni shi wo zhui shen ai de ren"...
this yr he's goin to sing "nan dao"....
hmmm... he really improve alot la... since tat time... and somemore now he got so many experience on stage liao le... almost every week go hark... and even took part in Hark de competition... hahaha.. so this yr talent quest sld be better le bah....
but he v ti ki... dun wan to listen... keep saying dun wan to eat... siao de lo... muz eat den got energy to sing... hahaha..
i ask him if he dun wan eat den dun go for the audition liao le... its jus a waste of time... sure cannot de lo....
hahaha...

6 kinds of med = $44

2006-12-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

was watching superstar at youtube.... hahaha.. cos last week not in SG.. den missed it...
wah... i like diya leh... she really not bad... den she oso like got character lik tat de.... not bad wor...
den actually i dun really like kelvin... but he sang tat song ai qing kui lei... its nice leh... really got gan dong du... got feel la.... hahaha.... but i still dun like him.... hahaha.. cos i like diya...
den ah... i see the cai weijian.... i got no comments abt his singing la.... no like no dun like.... but den hor... his looks.... he remind me of someone la.... haiz....
see liao remind me of him again.... dun wu hui wor... not weida la.... but its one of the huai ren....

ytd i went to see doc le.... she say is chang wei fa yan.... wah... den i got 6 kinds of med..!! so many.. $44 neh..!!! so expensive.... haiz...
den i went to ah ting's hse... to wait for the over to be delivered to her hse... =.=" hahaha...
we came back to my hse after tat...
eat le med i so tired... but cant slp... haha.. in the end help her paint her nails... lolz...

today i v tired... the med make me so giddy wor.. so i let ah ting come my hse by herself....
den this afternoon... i chatted wif ah siao awhile.... during her lunch time... haha... yea im finally back... can tok to her liao le... haha..
aiya... den dunno y we suddenly mentioned my change of phone number... den i tell her the reason y i change... she say i crazy de...
hahaha... watever... im really crazy de....
this evening i went to meet jun and yan for dinner.... haha.. i onli can eat porridge... den we went to crystal jade for dinner... thanks yan for treating us dinner wor... hehe....
den on the way home... she told us a v shocking news...
one of our poly fren is married le..!!! wah... really v sudden lo... the last time i saw her.. she still single de.... den now married liao and goin to be a mama liao le....
tsk tsk tsk.... so bu xiao xin....
but she happy can le lo... hahaha...
wah... i really nv expect it leh....

im back..!!

2006-12-18T00:01:00.000+08:00

Finally back in SG.....
i felt like coming back on the 1st day liao le..... in fact im not v enthu abt going there....
weather was cold....
went to alot places la.... actually oso cant really rem where i went....
got shanghai, nanjing, suzhou, hangzhou, wuxi, hengdian... dunno whether still got anot...
got some places hor.... looks v eerie leh.....
like the house of wax and silent hill like tat.... no lights.... den the houses no ppl de.... the road ah... v quiet....
wah... i dun like the traffic there.... so messy.... ppl anyhow cross the road... den cars, lorries, bicycles, buses, motorcycle.. all dun give way de....
i saw abt 5 accidents when i was there for the 8 days....
tsk tsk tsk.....
and most of the time when im on the coach, i was slping de.... still can see 5 accidents.... haiz....
den the road oso v noisy... cos everyone keep horning de lo.... haiz...
i didnt buy much neh.... but come back got few more luggages... hahaha.... mama la... buy so many winter wear... so thick...
k la.. i oso buy a few bags... haha.. cheap neh....
den ah po say she dun wan to buy things.... in the end she oso bought alot... hahaha.... buy blanket oso... =.="
den i was sick since fri.... until now... v cham lo...
1st time sick during tour....
1st time slp in the hotel alone....
v ke lian lo....
haiz... until now haven recover... tmr muz go see doc liao le....
let doc see me....
im goin to slp now le.... nitez...

receive my driving licence le..!!!

2006-12-09T15:34:00.000+08:00

haha.. i receive my driving licence le... hehe.....
my bro sign for me when i was out jus now... hehe... came back den i saw the envelop on my bed... hehehe...
so fast hor...
now i leg soft.... hahaha.....
nvm later on the plane sit down..... later dunno whether got good movies to watch anot... if not i slp lo.... everything pack hao liao...
now jus waiting for time to go to the airport lo.....
hahahaha....

"im your baby"

2006-12-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

You can drive while awaiting the delivery of your photocard driving licence.
hehe.. this was on the slip given to me when i paid for the $50... kekekeke.... i can drive neh.... wahahahaha...
li hai hor... keke...

i wanna change my hp num... lolz... 1st time i call... they ask me to pay $30... =.="
den 2nd time i call... hahaha... they tell me i have to pay $300 if i wan to terminate my contract... =.="
haiz... i lose le.... dunno how to tok...
wah... den someone helped me to call... hahaha... so li hai... im allowed to change my num without paying the fee... hehehe.... v impressed..

ytd went ktv wif christopher lo.... went to yishun safra de.... 1st time go there wor.... the room v blue neh... and the lights keep changing colors.... and i tink it look kinda smoky...
haiz... ytd's ktv was so ex... dunno y... i tink weekend sing oso not so ex de neh.... den v pai seh to let him pay for it... but thanks anyway....

today i was packing my luggage le.... my clothes all so thick... my luggage full liao lo.... tsk tsk tsk...
tmr leaving le.... how? wat m i supposed to do.... and its the "sianest" week of the mth.... =.=" so ma fan....

actually was going Hark jus now de..... but i last min tell them i not going.... abit pai seh.... hahaha.. saw Hark's blog... today Ruth is the "ben zhou ge shou"... hmm.. like not v exciting lo... hahaha.. if its Jack or Zijie or Tat Sin... maybe it'll be better... hahahaha.. but Jack's performance is over le....
tat day i went Hark.. the "ben zhou ge shou" was a guy named Face... hahaha... weird name.... but he oso look weird weird de.... hehehe
dun see him weird weird lo... he sing v nice lo... really v nice...
and he sang one song by david tao.... he asked amos to sing wif him... hahahaha... funny lo... cos the lyrics is smth like this....

"you say no no no no no

i say yes yes yes yes yes

im your baby.."

hehe... when amos sang tat part.. he dun dare look at Face.... but Face keep looking at amos... hahaha.. den the scene looks abit ai mei... amos v cute la....

i'll be back on the 17th....
19th got date wif jun and yan... hahahaha... i tink i'll forget bah... hahahaha...

PASS..!!!!

2006-12-06T21:02:00.000+08:00

Yeah..!! yeah..!!
i pass my driving liao le... hahahaha... after so many yrs...
its my 2nd time.... hahaha...
the tester v generous leh... give me so many points... tsk tsk tsk.....
i ran over a plastic bag... tat one he give me 10 points liao le... haiz... its onli a plastic bag... lik tat 10 points leh... v wat leh... haiz...
den when doing the parallel parking.... haiz.. i park too near the kerb la... but i nv hit the kerb wor.... he say i almost hit... den give me 4 points....
v yuan wang lo....
but nvm la... at least i pass..!! hahahahaha...
baowen say nobody get 0 points de... si meh?? y??? tsk tsk tsk....
dunno y justin keep wanting me to drive his car.... ha ha.... wait till he really pass me his car keys den say bah.... onli noe how to say.... haha...
den after the test i went to SIM to pay my school fees wor... when going home rain so heavy lo.... heng when i reach my stop liao its onli drizzling... hee...
today ah ting is here again.... but she wont be here the nxt few days le... cos she going to HK....
v good life hor... so small go so many places liao le.....
but i oso la.... wont be in sg whole of nxt week le....
will miss everything in sg.. everyone in sg.....
haven go start to miss liao le.... how???

my weekend

2006-12-04T20:19:00.000+08:00

didnt go hark tat day.... went ktv instead... ah siao prefer sing ktv lo....
mr tay sick... so ke lian... hahaha... he still came... but we all left abt an hr early.... cos they all dun wanna sing liao... they wanna sing live band de.... =.="
hahaha....
sat afternoon i went out wif mama... to buy those winter de things lo... did i mention im goin overseas??
leaving nxt sun...
den at nite i meet angela and baowen go Hark lo.... onli we 3... cos our mr tay say he sick.. cannot sing...
haha... weicai say he v long time nv see us le... den i ask him to come the chalet... hahaha... he seem so bz.... gotta check his pda see whether he free anot... tsk tsk tsk...
wah... actually haven really plan for the chalet... nvm la.. ask ppl come 1st lo... hahaha...
who wanna come??? 28th to 31st dec....
the nxt day i went to bugis to bai bai.... i went alone neh... cos jun dun wanna acc me go... :( den she meet me at orchard lo....
wah... the temple inside is renovating neh... but still alot ppl....
we went to far east... i bought a pair of shoes lo... hahahaha.... den we walk walk ard.... walk finish the whole far east liao.. den aunty come.... tsk tsk tsk.. so slow...
we walk to scotts shopping centre liao.... went to blush see see and rest rest... den she saw my make up pouch... den she say she wanna buy.... i told her far east sld have... den we 3 went back to far east... hahahaha...
she bought a big bag instead.... nv buy the pouch lo... hahahaha....
the big bag really v big lo.... i put my shoes in.. and my whole bag in... still got space... hahahaha... i used her bag... hehehe.. v big.. i like...
but i v good de... i noe i goin overseas liao... so buy overseas better... save money in SG... hahahaha....
we went to heeren to have our dinner.... sun with the moon... eat the japanese food... i tink sakae better neh... hahaha.... cos i like sakae de sushi... hee...
after dinner we swap to NYPC..!! hahaha... ordered 2 mudpies lo.... den we share....
full full liao we went to walk awhile.... aunty went to that CD shop... but me and jun dunno how to appreciate tat kind of music la... we 2 go walk walk at MNG lo...
nv buy anything la....
go home after tat.....
this morning i realise that my shoe de rubber is still in aunty's bag... hahaha... dunno she later free anot.. maybe go take frm her lo....
went for my last driving lesson today... cos tmr test le.... wah...
dunno can make it anot lo... haiz.... v sian if cannot make it again...
tmr i goin to SIM to pay my school fees le....

In Sch Again..!!

2006-12-01T16:13:00.000+08:00

i m now blogging in sch... hahahaha... NYP la...
lolz.... nowadays when i tell ppl i go sch... they tink i go SIM... hahahaha.... haven la.... not cfm yet wor... haven receive letter...
dunno when lo...
now alady 1st dec liao le leh... haiz..
jus now went for my driving... dun like tat instructor.. so naggy de lo... haiz...
even out of the car oso nag.... tsk tsk tsk....
wed i brought ah ting to vivo city... hahaha... 1st time there wor.... ah ting oso 1st time there... hahaha... we went to watch Happy Feet lo... hahaha... v cute neh... but got one part... got one stupid sea lion or seal scuddenly come out.... scared me sia.... heng i nv scream lo... come out for wat... stupid de....
its a cartoon lo.... still scare ppl.... lik tat kids how to watch... tsk tsk tsk...
i oso bring her go buy jeans... hahaha...
kids de clothes v ex neh... more ex than adult de lo...
ytd she oso came to my hse....
nth for her to do.... onli let her watch gong lo.... i got 2 eps spoil liao le... the disk spoil liao le... bo bian lo... nv copy hao... hahaha...
den at nite i went to chinatown wif angela.... we went to eat porridge... hahahaha... v nice neh.. hehe...
den we go to this fashion... wahahaha... cos she tat time saw a dress there... wanna wear on her bro's wedding de....
hehe... i oso bought a top lo....
later going to Hark le... hahahaha... finally..!!!!
really v long time nv go there liao le....
ever since kaida's competition... we onli went there once... den nv go there again liao le.. dunno they will forget abt us anot lo.... amos, vynson, weicai, philip, youwei, bla bla bla.... hahahaha...
lolz.... ever since both of them nv win... we oso go there lesser liao le... no face le.... hahahaha....
somemore i teacher neh... more pai seh lo... wahhahahaha...
nv teach them good... lolz....
wah lao... jus now hui laugh at me... i drink water den spill abit mah.... den the water go to somewhere it sldnt go.... hahaha... lik tat onli lo... =.=" keep laughing at me... haiz.. i so ke lian lo....
v weird.... today he online neh... dunno y...
haiz... anyway hahaha.. i deleted ALL his msg.... wahahaha.... no more at all le...
lalala......
director comign.... gotta go liao le... hahahaha...tata~~

i m a brave kid..!!!

2006-11-28T20:38:00.000+08:00

wah... 1st time baowen not free....
so bz meh... hahaha....
end up today no hark le lo... today ladies nite at hark neh.... hahahaha...
but mr tay suddenly ask me go hark... lolz... too long nv see us liao le... miss us lo.. hehe....
anyway angela today got study leh... onli can come later.... hahahaha..
haiz... in the end oso nv go...
but today... i went for my driving.... hahaha....
i dun like the instructor...
say turn left... den point right... always confuse me lo.... den say i wrong....
den ask me drive fast fast.... wah lao... i drive until 80 lo.... he wan faster...
if TP lik tat i sure fail liao lo....
den always last min ask me to turn.... sometimes nv even say leh... den i go straight lo... he say y i nv turn...
hope dun get tat instructor for my following practise liao le....
after my driving... hahaha....
i went to a v scary place.....

SCARY~~~!!!!

i went to see a dentist...!!!
hahahahaha....
i v scared of the dentist de lo.... cos pri sch the dentist look like witch.... >.<" den she always scold ppl de....
den always let her make my teeth.. v pain de lo.... haiz...
hear the sound i scared liao le....
sec sch i tink got go see dentist twice b4 bah.... hahaha...
den nv go liao..!!!! lolz....
i tink alot ppl oso nv go see dentist de lo.... mai kay kay... hehe...
den today i go and wash my teeth.... heng lo.... nth wrong... hahaha....
wah seh... i v brave lo... hehehehe..... cos i go see dentist... hehehe....

ytd ah ting come my hse... hahaha... cos she holiday.... den at home alone...
lolz... let her watch gong, tat korean show... hahaha..
bring her go downstairs eat lunch lo... wah... she eat alot lo.... eat more than me lo....
i ask her dun eat if she full liao... she say lang fei.... =.="
she finsih the char siew rice, the soup and a can of JJ liang teh... all by herself leh..!!! i see liao i oso full.... and the thing is... she jus had her bkf not long ago..!!! eat dunno 3 or 4 small kaya buns...
li hai lo.... hahaha....
tmr she coming again.... hehehe....

I am a song without a soul

2006-11-26T12:46:00.000+08:00

Now That She's Gone
Girl you know i miss you so
I didn't know you had to go
You've had enough of our distance baby
Before I had the chance to say
I'm staying with you
For the rest of my life
Don't keep telling me these words
You don't know how much it hurts
And I'll promise you eternity
if you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was
I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song
Don't keep telling me these words
You don't know how much it hurts
And I'll promise you eternity
if you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was
I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song
Oh yes I know I don't know
baby i am know i'am a fool
And I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song
This is our song without a soul
Now that you're gone
What's left of us in this song

ke lian....

2006-11-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

mama ask me how come nv go sing liao le....
:(
cos nobody wan me mah.... so ke lian....
i got no frenz le....
v ke lian hor....

i really v long time nv go out le leh.... going to become a frog in a well liao le lo... jing di zhi wa....

so long nv sing.... all my singing kaki dunno go where liao le...
hark kaki oso dunno gone where....

tsk tsk tsk....

v cham hor... sian la...
go watch guess guess guess....

sian..!!!

2006-11-25T15:57:00.000+08:00

another boring sat at home....

idols

2006-11-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

wah... ytd watched the superstar results....
4 out le leh.... so fast....
its onli the 1st round lo.... tsk tsk tsk....
the gal who got the highest points tat nite... but she out le....
and the other tall one...
both got no ren yuan lo....
guys i got no comment la.... jus tat hor... when they put the last 3 guys tog when announcing the results.... the centre guy so short..!!!
he like onli reach the other 2 guys de shoulder onli rite??
dun put them tog la... aiyo... make him look especially short.....
haiz... so sian..
today nv go out again.... dear dear gotta go back to msia.....
nobody go hark oso.... but tink vynson is back... now can go liao le...haha... den kopi tiam uncle wont host le... hahaha....
haha... jus now went to youtube to watch hark de videos... lolz... got kaiwen de...
hahaha.... .he sang qian li zhi wai wif amos....
i was there tat day... den amos help him rap tat part... hahaha.. aiya.. but they cut it away leh..
hehe....
amos is jus my another idol..!! hahaha... not forgetting weida... hahaha.. he's still my idol la..
ah siao say de... hahaha.. :P
but v long time nv see tat him liao le.... since interview tat day.... hahaha... onli sometimes see him online nia... haiz....
tat day go and listen to his song again... hahahaha.... sound v man lo.... angela say his voice can give ppl an quan gan... hahaha... ya lo.. true....
aiya.... anyway he is old idol le... now onli admire his singing... hahaha... got new idol le.... amos lao shi... hahaha..... he duo cai duo yi wor... hehe....
going to slp liao le... tmr got xiao ding dang... hehe...
nite nite....

finally can online le...

2006-11-23T10:11:00.000+08:00

finally can online le... hehehe...
past few days cannot online... bored me to death le... cos onlining is my onli xiao qian...
haiz...
den bo bian... watch vcd lo... hahaha...
i finished the korean drama - my girl... hehe.. v cute neh...

xiao zhu got new album le..... but i tink this song nice....
hao peng you....
shi ting.. [http://www.wtt8.com/play.asp?id=109013&art=1695]
although his singing not v good... but this song is nice... hahaha...

actually nth much to write... cos i nv go anywhere... except go driving...
btw saw zhengyuan tat day... hahaha.. like got become more shuai le....
but we nv tok much la... cos i going driving...den he going to meet his client.... hahaha.. he doing property agent wor....
wah.. tat day i drive v good lo... my instructor ask me y i still can fail... lolz... tat day suay mah...
haiz.. now oso no confident... scared leh...
tat instructor v talkative leh.... the min he got into the car he keep tokking and tokking and tokking..... non stop leh... sometimes i nv ans him he still tok lo...
tok abt his daughter and his son.... =.="
recently keep having insomnia leh.... v cham leh.... cant slp... slp liao den keep wake up in the middle of the nite...
cannot slp peacefully.... haiz....

MP3 player spoil liao le....

2006-11-17T15:36:00.000+08:00

haiz... my mp3 player spoil liao le.... v sian leh....
so lousy de.... used for slightly more than a yr onli mah...
no wonder ppl say creative de things cannot buy de....
now helping mama to copy vcd.... =.=" dunno y she wanna copy lo... watch b4 liao still copy...
tmr they goin to genting liao le... again lo.... cos mama bdae... lolz...
v good hor... bdae can go overseas.... hahaha... although genting onli.. but better than nth la...
wah... i tink i no confident in driving liao le.... recently got go driving again.... but i like no confident le lo.... haiz... lik tat my TP how sia... die liao lo...
btw today is ivan de bdae... happe bdae lo...
v pai seh to him oso.... cos i really dun feel like goin out wif him... pai seh lo.....
i jus found out smth....
lsj tao yan me le.... ta hen tao yan wo...!!!
haiz.... k la... i understand y he tao yan me.... cos i lied to him....
no wonder he nv chat wif me online liao le.... but weird is he nv block me... =.="
tot he like blocking ppl de... always tell me block who block who... weird lo...
nvm la... actually always nth to tok to him... have to kill my brain cells when tokking to him... >.<"
v sad my mp3 player spoil liao le....

I love vouchers...!!!! Hahaha...

2006-11-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

my finger is black color de...
jus now helped mama dye hair.... didnt wear gloves... cos she's wearing it... haha.. funny rite... she ask me help her dye hair... but she's wearing the gloves.... =.="
den i didnt notice i dyed my hand until i finish wif her hair.... now black black liao le lo..
today went shopping wif mama lo.... v long time nv go shopping liao le...
wah seh.. v happy... cos i got buy thing.... hahaha... bought 2 tops and a bottom... eh... use voucher de neh... hehe.. li hai hor.. mama oso use my voucher....
wah... the forever21 tat top v ex neh... $53 neh... heng got voucher lo... if not i wont buy de... the other top i bought frm future state... mama say ex leh.. $39... hmm... abit bah... den ah.. the sales gal v rude neh.... i buy thing leh... still push the bag to me.... den no smile de... v rude lo....
the bottom cheapest lo... 20+ nia... hahaha... cos got discount... hehe...
we went to marina square... den to suntec..... den to orchard.... lolz....

i so xin tong..... haiz.... v pain lo....
nth much to write... cos did nth much... except for the shopping today....
ytd went driving onli lo.... tats all...
suddenly dunno how to drive.... =(

black black de hand....

Music Lesson

2006-11-13T21:56:00.000+08:00

lolz... muz learn frm yan yan lao shi...
keke....

i shall skip the dan tian teaching... its difficult to explain lik tat.... hahaha...

how to sing wif feelings..... hehe....

1stly : listen to the song.... many many times.... until u are familiar wif the melody....
2ndly : read the lyrics.... understand every sentence... try to imagine wat the author is writing... feel it wif ur heart....
3rdly : (IMPT..!!) practise....

Practise makes Perfect..!!!!

if still cant sing wif feeling... den easiest way is to fall in love and fall out of love lo... hahaha...
when in love.... u will understand those love song de lyrics de.... and when u out of love... u will understand those sad songs de lyrics de.... den u will noe how to sing those songs wif feeling le lo.... hahaha....
yan yan lao shi not v good at rap..!!! so dunno hw to teach RAP ah... lolz....

End of lesson..!!

离不开他
音乐滴搭滴搭滴搭　
舞步踢踏踢踏踢踏　
每一步都是悲伤的挣扎
带着牵挂　谁都不想先停
下我穿着纯白的薄纱　
跟着他旋转在灯下　
知道是最后一次拥着他
日出后就应该　试着忘了　要试着忘了他
我离不开他　也留不住他　
心像空荡大厅　一切就要蒸发　
我离不开他　风留不住沙　
远距离的牵挂　数思念的时差　
跟寂寞对话
音乐滴拉滴拉滴拉　
舞步踢踏踢踏踢踏　
每一步都是悲伤的挣扎
日出后就应该　试着忘了　要试着忘了他
我留不住他　心像空荡大厅
一切就要蒸发
风留不住沙　远距离的牵挂　
我还在想他　
现在好想他　好想他
[http://www.cnlyric.com/html_gc/282/6550/71643.html]
[http://www.wtt8.com/play.asp?id=70127&art=131] shi ting...

hahaha...
kk im abit bo liao.... huan xiang agian.... hehe....
today rain v heavy lo... somemore rain when i driving... sian lo... i cannot see the road lo.... instructor ask me to do parking.... wah.. i really cannot see leh...
den he ask me anyhow guess.... =.=" lik tat de meh... i tot will at least give some guidance lo.... wah lao...
i dun lik tat instructor leh.... ask me turn left liao.. den say he ask me turn right... ask me go fwd.. he say he ask me to reverse.... aiyo..!!!!
dunno wat he wan oso lo... so pek chek....
do tat parking more than 5 min le lo.... fail liao la..!!!
went to nyp again... hahaha... i really love my sch... always go back... hehe...
den i went to cut my hair.... lolz...
wah.. this time cut until v thin lo.... i machiam botak le... hahaha... but kentson say wanna me have the jus wake up look... lolz...
chin chai la.... he cut wat i oso like de leh... lolz....
and oso cut liao.. cannot dun like de lo... hahaha...
wah.. he tell me go msia there sing ktv v cheap onli lo... 38ringgit leh.... still got dinner to eat lo... and got drink lo.... he sing 6 hrs lo.... wah seh... cheap lo.....
hahaha... yeah.. he say nxt time bring me go... hehe...
hmm... btw i forgot to renew my PDL... =.=" bo bian.. today onli drive in circuit... cannot go out lo... haiz... heng today not TP lo... if not sure fail le lo....
after cutting my hair i went to renew it lo....
so ma fan.... waste my money oso....
wah... news say GST goin to rise to 7% liao.... wah... nxt time everything oso more ex liao... sian... y lik tat de... no good la....

Gastric pain.... :(

2006-11-12T17:02:00.000+08:00

insomnia again..... dunno y jus cant slp.....
went to bed quite early last nite... after dinner....
cos haiz... gastric pain la.... pain since afternoon liao le... tink goin to die soon liao lo....
eat le dinner more pain.... haiz....
didnt went out ytd la....
kaida say wanna go hark de... but onli 3 of us... will be abit sian neh... so in the end nv go lo....
v hurt again lo....
always de la....
"I am now in a world where I have to hide my heart....."i got this sentence frm a song.... reflection.... hua mu lan de... hehe....
i have to hide... but cant seem to hide....
im letting go alady..... i tink la.... haiz...
cos im really badly hurt.....
maybe everything is jus a habit.... habit of missing someone.....
jus like some ppl.. they are tog becos its onli a habit.... not becos they still love each other...
so im tinking maybe its onli my habit to miss someone.... and maybe its oso a habit for some ppl to miss other ppl....
miss weida oso not so xin ku lo....
haiz.... v sian la...
was watching death note on youtube.... the anime la.... but onli until ep 6 nia.. den no more le....
cannot continue watch.... nth to do le....
boring weekend... didnt went out at all....
nv even step out of my hse door.....
raining oso..... its the season.... haiz.. bo bian....
i cant eat anything.... eat le den gastric pain.... so ke lian rite... today oso pain lo... haiz...
i haven went to sentosa... since the last time i said i wanted to go.... feel like going there one evening....
went there once during evening..... the beach la... forget which one le... i tink palawan bah.. hahaha... cos i always go palawan beach de... hehe.. last time la...
v nice lo.... blow blow the wind.... v shu fu.... sad blow liao will become happy de... lolz.....
but dun wanna go alone oso neh... so sian de.... haiz...
im so not independent...
tmr got driving le.... haiz.... drive until v sian liao le.... how come didnt pass de.... sad lo...
hope can pass this time lo...

yeah... end of the yr got chalet.... hahaha.... v good lo.... so long nv go chalet... but so many days... dunno do wat oso leh.... dunno who's goin lo.... now yan yan music sch onli lo... hahaha....
den somemore got 2 chalets lo... hahaha... btw its free de... good bah... hehe!!
4 days somemore...
=.=" baowen say wanna watch horror movies.... wah lao... lik tat i dun dare to stay liao lo...
somemore its at chalet leh... even scarier de lo.... haiz...
but den... hahaha.. actually i oso v mao dun la... i suddenly feel like watching horror movies neh... lolz.... but dun dare to watch... how ah... kekeke...
if one day im not ard anymore.... ..............
haiz... im goin to bath liao le la.... good nite....

Raining v heavily....

2006-11-11T13:42:00.000+08:00

aiyo... my hse so dark now lo...
its goin to rain soon.... haven rain... machiam at nite le... hahaha... really v dark.... and i nv switch on the lights... hahaha... lomantic mah..
hmm....
ytd went to Hark..!! hahaha.... but ytd was hosted by Eddie and Philip..... hmm... i dun really like fei li pu neh... he look like kopi tiam uncle..!! hahaha.. but he is a singing teacher there wor... mai siao siao....
lolz....
"uncle..!! teh bing..!!!"
hmm... he host not funny de neh.... but he ok la.. seems fierce... but quite frenly la... at least he will come tok to us oso....
hehe.. ytd i got go sing neh... but i sing ktv de onli la... ytd not so nervous le... maybe i wear specs... and i wear super casual... den ppl cannot recognise me bah... so i more relaxed bah... hehe...
somehow i feel tat i chose a wrong song... like v boring... sang zhu wo sheng ri kuai le....
hahaha... seldom see the 4 of us got sing in 1 session de lo.... kaida, angela and baowen oso sing ktv de....
ytd kaida de fren was the 30min singer.... its machiam a mini concert for those who took part in Hark de competititon b4 de lo....
aiya... den i feel tat fei li pu wanna sing alot neh... hahha... ppl singing he will follow ppl sing de lo.... den ah.. when he on stage oso wanna snatch to sing lik tat... lolz...
ooo... den saw kenn there.... he went ns le... so become botak liao.. haha...
hee... ytd amos tok to us wor... hehe...
and so qiao.. saw alec and nic.. joyce de fren la... wah... den kaida and angela pang seh me they go home wif them lo.... baowen stay different side... den left me alone to go home lo.... haiz...
v sad lo.... so ke lian...
wah seh... suddenly rain v heavy....
jus nw went to youtube... hahaha... saw a few video frm Hark... hehe... they jus got an account...
v few videos onli la... hehe...
den i went to search for blackforest..... hahaha... mr chua de band... lolz... i saw their performance at ngee ann city de...
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Si-EaAsdlXY]
hehe... their own composition....
cos ytd i jus happen to see ernest at the mrt.... den suddenly tot of his band lo...
rain v heavy neh.... sian... though i not goin out... but i dun like rainy day mah... v heavy neh.... aiyo....

Insomnia

2006-11-10T10:30:00.000+08:00

went to meet hui last nite for dinner.... hahaha... eat roti prata... lolz....
banana prata v nice leh... hahaha...
den went back to hui hse to watch superstar... wah lao.. she machiam deaf de lo... on so loud.... not deaf oso become deaf liao lo... go inside the room den on the comp oso so loud lo.... lashanne come back oso say she deaf de.... hahahaha...
wah... den i v ke lian lo... still gotta massage for her... hahaha... but im experienced de massager.... keke... lolz.. she oso say i massage v good...
nxt time i can open a massage parlour... hahaha... idea hor... :P
cant slp last nite... was tinking alot things la.... actually not alot..... its jus one thing....
haiz.... i tink i slp ard 2+......
den i wake up like almost every hr.... den 5+ wake up le.... sian lo....
try to force myself to slp but i cant slp....
haiz... i keep tinking.....
the more i try to slp... the more uncomfortable i get..
i really v xin ku leh.....
HAIZ.... now headache liao le....
ytd dunno y so bo liao lo... go and count num of ppl tat..... lolz....
if im not wrong.... its 7... 1 is bf, 1 is gf... the rest..... hahahaha... dunno.... sounds alot hor... but u all dun anyhow tink la.... its not sex la... onli myself noe... hahaha.. :P
hehehee.... i got potential to become les leh.... keke... lolz... maybe can consider... :P wahahaha....
tonite goin Hark le.... yeah..!!! finally....
like v long time nv go le.....
the last time we went was kaida de finals mah...
tinking of goin to do a p.s....
but sounds v scary and pain..... aunty ask me go do oso.....
i see internet say 25 - 69 yr old den need to do leh... lolz.... im underaged ah... keke....
but aunty say once we got wat wat wat den have to go do liao ah....
so ma fan neh...... every 3 yrs do once...
haiz... so sian leh....
life so boring....

superstar tonite..!!!

2006-11-08T14:16:00.000+08:00

hehe... forgot to mention tat i saw familiar ppl ytd.... wahahahaha....
i saw mr cai hong tian tang.... lolz... cant rem his name... call him tat cos he sang cai hong tian tang during the quarter finals..
hehe.... vynson they all call him bang ge... lolz...
saw him at woodlands de john little lo.... wah... lik no need to work de neh....
lolz... dunno whether he saw me anot... cos he so tall... hahaha...
i always tink tall ppl cant see short ppl de....
tats y he dun see me.....
hahahaha....
den i oso saw yucai wif his gf... lolz.... so qiao rite... hehe... at gelare... he looks so different in his sch uniform... and without styling his hair... hehe....
cos usually i see him in his party world de uniform de mah... hahaha... so abit weird lo... hehe.... :P
lolz... kaida said since i can recognise cai hong tian tang... den ppl will oso recognise him lo... he become famous le..!!!! hahahaha...
lolz... tink too much... haha....
ultraman says im crazy.... gets cheated easily....
hahaha... ya lo... v true....
there'll be superstar today..!!!!
hahahaha... muz watch... tats y im staying at home... hehe...

Maybe nxt yr... a Baby.. Lolz

2006-11-07T22:31:00.000+08:00

Hah.. im back frm dinner wif hui and other NYP DTs....
actually they were celebrating hui's bdae la... alady over liao le.... today is min min bdae...
Happy Bdae..!!!! hee..
lolz... ytd someone crazy again le lo.... bring up marriage again le.... and this time wif a baby... lolz... immediately after marriage... he wanna start making babies le.... wanna have a baby immediately... lolz.... LMAO...
its onli the process of making babies that he's interested....
end dec he's goin to Penang wif his family... haha... he'll be passing me his car keys and his hse keys... keke.. i can do watever things i like... he said de... hehe....
lolz... dun even noe whether i can pass my driving anot lo... scarly nv pass... den i take his car oso no use... =(
but nvm.. got his hse... hahaha.. can bring frenz go there party... condo wor.... can go swimming, gym, suana.... hahaha.... he told me cannot bring guys... lolz... give me the keys liao i wan to bring who oso can lo... i dun care... hahahaha....
kidding la....
wah.. ytd went to somerset de specialist centre.... cos Dion works there... like not bad wor....
den i waited for her to knock off lo... stand there... and it was drizzling....
looks abit sad neh...
i like to tink sad things la... lolz... i huo gai lo....
actually meet her onli.... den ah siao suddenly wanna meet me... den i ask her come oso lo.. den she ask kaida... den we 4 ppl.... go eat dinner at cine.... hehe...
ah siao wanna sing... but Dion cant stay too late.... bo bian.. i have to let her go home alone.... v pai seh... but she told me b4hand she cant stay too late le... hahaha... :P
den me, ah siao and kaida... we wanna go sing... wah.. KBox super ex lo.... dunno wat stupid challengers nite.... play dice wif the staff la... den if we win den no need pay the cover charge lo... cover charge add up is abt $23..!!! lik tat go party world sing better lo...
den we decided to go woodlands de party world.... cos nearer den take cab home cheaper mah.. lolz.. but kaida say go amk de KBox.. try the challenge hahaha....
den in the train.... got one giant stand beside me lo... wah.. really v tall lo.... kaida say my shoulder is at his backside.... lolz.... really super tall... v scary.... hahaha...
den we reached amk de kbox... wah... kaida played wif the staff... the staff throw 1... hahahaha... den kaida throw 4..!!! yeah..!!! we win... den they ask us go to the room liao leh... den suddenly ask us back... =.=" they say everyone have to play lo... =.="
ah siao throw 5.. wah... they throw 6..!!!! so suay.... hahaha
den ah siao play cheat... she say dun wan to sing liao la.... lik tat sing v ex.... heng i haven throw.. still can decide... lolz... den the staff ask us to go sing la.... they say they count as they lose lo.... cos in the 1st place nv say clearly... hahaha...
yeah..!!! ah siao so good at playing cheat.... lolz...
sing until 11+.... den i say i gotta go home liao le.... i see kaida de face change.... tink he not happy lo..
aiya.. v pai seh lo.... haiz....
but i sing liao oso not shuang leh... kbox de system not as good.... sing liao like not nice lo... haiz...
in the end me and ah siao left 1st.... cos peiru got come... den she and kaida stayed on lo....
pai seh pai seh....
this mroning went for a stupid interview... its soooooo far... almost msia liao le la.... the agent bluff me lo... say boon lay can take bus.... i take cab so far lo.... waste my money...
den after the interview heng heng got ppl take cab come in lo.. ah bo i have to call cab liao le....
really super far lo.... the journey make me v pek chek lo....
den after tat i went to SIM wif hui to enrol for my course..!!! hahaha...
den we went shopping awhile... at lot 1... den to wlds....
jus came back lo...
lolz... like v long time nv see baowen... cos he asked hows life, so long nv see le....
wahahahaha... we onli didnt went hark last week mah... lolz... still saw each other tat day at kaida de finals wor... lolz....
hehe... miss us wor... hahaha... k la k la.. we miss u too la...
fri go Hark..!!!!
dun like someone.... keep acting machiam he noe me alot.... machiam he noe wat im tinking.... v irritating lo....
and wtf... wanna pay me $200 for accompanying him 2 hrs.... jus drink coffee or watch movie nia...
wat does he tink i m... makes me dun feel like going out wif him more.....
this is oso another kind of irrespect to me lo....
haiz....
pek chek.....

Waiting for you~~~

2006-11-06T09:32:00.000+08:00

dunno wat im waiting for lo.... haiz...
alady v tired liao... yet im still waiting.....

waiting for you~~ im waiting for you~~ waiting for you come here to my dreams~~

wahahaha... somehow i find the last sentence sounds abit weird weird.... the language not right la... lolz...
maybe im expecting too much... tink too much... i sldnt be waiting at all bah... this is called zi zuo duo qing lo.....
waiting every day and nite.... jus a call and i'll be happy le lo....
haiz.... i sld be satisfied that he once liked me le.... but im not..!! im greedy de.. i'll be even happier if he is able to give me a place in his heart... but i noe its impossible la...
everything btwn me and him is past tense liao le..... cant turn back the time....

anyway later im goin to SIM le... to enrol for the course....
wah... i'll be 26 when i graduate.... cos 3 yrs course.... if nxt yr go study... im 23 nxt yr le..
wah seh... sounds really v old leh...
den when i come out to work after tat, i wont be the youngest le... haiz... last time go work im always the youngest.. until i went to TMVC.... =.="
v sian..!!! i wan to be the youngest..!!!! hahaha....
wah seh... 26 sounds really v old leh.... its near to 30 liao leh.... scary..... scary.......!!!!!!!

some ppl jus dun understand my meaning of ONS.... one nite means one nite mah..... more than one nite den not ons liao mah....
dun ask me again la.... v sian de leh.... haiz....

some things happen liao doesnt mean it will happen again de....

Heartbroken....

2006-11-05T11:28:00.000+08:00

haiz...
im really not the one.... and i noe i cant be the one too....

爱我好吗? [ai wo hao ma?]
虽然收敛了许多的情感
还是泄露了我的不安
于是你开始冷淡
我也开始问自己该怎么办
如果你知道我的遗憾
千万不要再不以为然
我的生活已经混乱
到处漂流却始终靠不了岸
这是我最后
最美最真
最心碎的留言
oh 爱我好吗
我愿意让伤心再来一遍
只要你留一个位置给我
哪怕是在你心中
最容易被忽略的角落

i jus realised that the links i put on my blog for the lyrics.... cant be seen rite????? haha.. nxt time dun put le la... shi ting can bah???
this is the shi ting for the above song.... ai wo hao ma??
[http://www.souting.com/play.asp?id=106889&art=3376]
souting v good de... got lyrics oso... machiam karaoke... haha.... power hor... hehe

haiz.... i really no good hor.... this song is sooo appropriate... hahaha...
but nvm la.... there's alady a hole in my heart le.... hard to fill it up le.....
heartbroken is the word.....
im really devastated le...
giving up....... trying to.......
i noe i said i wanna give up b4 le.... but somehow v hard lo.....
nvm... i'll try harder and harder....

haiz....

i may be goin to study nxt yr le.....
dunno whether im up to it anot..... cos so long nv study le.... ask me read my advance theory de book i oso wanna fall aslp liao le.. hahaha... if read the textbooks or notes dunno i will die anot... haha..
sch so far somemore.... haha.. but sld be ok la... cos if i go study NIE oso v far... even further lo... hehe...

wang qing shui....

2006-11-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

i heard this from xiao zhu and xiao gui.... hehehe...

Qns : Who do u go to if u wan 'wang qing shui'..?????
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Ans : Andy Lau..!!!!
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WRONG..!!!!!

>>>>> Its Ah Ha.... <<<<<
Cos.....
Ah ha~~ gei wo yi bei wang qing shui~~

hehehehe... the way i wrote it may not be as funny la... lolz... but see them say this on tv... super funny de lo.... wif their expression... haha..

How Pregnancy Happens

2006-11-04T15:28:00.000+08:00

How Pregnancy Happens... The G-Spot....
lolz... click on the below link....
[http://websrvr40nj.audiovideoweb.com/avwebdsnjwebsrvr4501/portal/media/media-050516-pregnancy.html]

its educational wor... hahaha...

btw... i went for dinner wif angela dear last nite... at amk... we had the v cheap japanese food.... its soooo cheap lo.... cheaper than food court de lo....
dunno y so cheap... hehehe...
now angela move to tpy liao le... can meet up more often le...
den i tok to angela.... she noes im sad over things..... she tell me i sld communicate more wif them..... but for the past 22 yrs... we nv really communicate heart to heart de... now ask me to do so abit hard lo....
not used to it de lo..... and it will be v awkward....
v happy she's so understanding.... dun see her blur blur de... sometimes wat she say makes sense de lo....
v comfortable tokking to her de.... hahaha...
den we go walk walk ard amk central.... hahaha... wah.. saw alot things wanna buy de... but no money buy.... lolz... den in the end she bought 3 hair accessories.... 3 for $1 nia..!!!! lolz... she buy hairband la.... so cheap rite... actually i oso wanna buy... cos its really cheap..!! but tink tink... i got so many le... so i didnt buy lo...
i like the green one wif polka dots de... looks so retro.... hehe....
haiz.. i really dun like the BMWguy... he so attitude..... dun like tokking to him....
nv pick up his call he say i dunno wif which guy AGAIN.... even if im really wif guy oso not his business mah.... den he call me tok halfway will kup my phone..!!! kaoz... i hate ppl kup my phone.... so rude.... and i hate phones*x.... he can call me and make stupid and annoying sounds lo.... bo liao......
he's crazy.... v fan..!!!!
wah lao... justin copy my nick in msn.... mei chuang yi.... chey...
last nite didnt went Hark.... mediacorp de "Nan Ren Bang" did a feature on Eddie... oooo.... so interesting.. hahaha...
but lik tat go there oso no use le leh.... hehe.. heng nv go la...
haiz... i still v hurt.... v xin tong lo.... becos of everything tat happened.....
my heart is bleeding....

Frenster Msg and Testi

2006-11-02T22:34:00.000+08:00

jus came back frm dinner wif hui and min.... went to bugis to eat at Ma Maison... hehe...
waited v long... abt an hr wor... den got place... tsk tsk tsk...
hahaha.. eat liao den come back liao le...
anyway i oso no mood to go walk ard... sian la...
lolz... this afternoon abit bo liao...
i went to my frenster and read thru all my msg and testi... lolz....
cos i see how come i got so many testi de... i saw 400+ lo... didnt noe i got so many... den go and open and read.... keke.. dunno y got so many repeat de.... onli the recent few no repeat...
i tink i onli got 100+ testi nia lo... hahaha...
the msg hai hao la... lolz... see when i get to noe some ppl... keke... actually sometimes i quite dao oso... ppl msg me so many times i oso nv reply de... keke...
hahaha... piggy msged me some time ago... i didnt reply... few mths later he msg again.... den i got reply.. keke....
den some send smile... dunno wat to reply oso mah... so nv bother...
aiya... wan to add as fren den add de lo..... no need to send msg and ask ppl can add anot... so ma fan... haiz..
lolz.. den got some pri sch mates.... hmm... actually dun really rem them... but they say we are pri sch classmates... lolz.... den ok lo... keke....
actually the msges hai hao la... not so interesting...
i tink the testi more interesting... hehe....
most of my testi is from shuVei... lolz.... everytime come and aiyoyo...
got one v chim testi frm alvin... wah seh.. machiam writing poem lik tat lo.. the eng so chim... lolz..
"Life is simply full of expectancies,instrumental issues,variance factors."
den i realised tat i onli started to go ktv wif kaida since last yr sept/oct wor.... its onli slightly more than a yr... imagine the number of times we went ktv liao.... tsk tsk tsk... countless le lo.... hahaha... last time still say i sing v nice... now listen to other better singer liao le.. say i sing not nice... haiz... maybe really not nice lo...
actually most of my testi is abt me go singing, taking pics of myself, saying i got no temper and happy birthday testi.... and oso those pic testi... hee... actually i oso got temper de... i got xiao jie pi qi... wahahhaa..
i like to read the v old testi... was still schling lo... hahaha.. jiaxi mentioned abt "tech sing"... lolz... its our secret... hahaha... now tink abt it i still wanna laugh lo...
attachment was so fun..!!! but noeing justin wasnt the fun part.. its the scary part... lolz...
angela said i attracted him... lolz... is he come stick to me de leh....
haha.. and the "jie lun" she mentioned when we were taking bus... its actually an indian.. v old indian whom we always see on the same bus.... she noe i scared of indians de... she tell me tat indian name is jielun... lolz... sometimes abit bo liao la.... but come to tink of it... quite fun de lo...
and seems like ppl noe tat i got a fetish for blueblack... hahahaha... yeah..!! i really like it... dunno y.. but it feels sooooo good... hahaha...
got testi frm my sec sch frenz oso... haha... read liao i feel tat i last time v cute leh.... lolz....
im really v cute lo.... hahaha.... i prefer last time de me.... kekeke...
and last time oso always kena bullied.... still got ppl say if dun bully me will feel uncomfortable... hahaha.. where got lik tat one....
lolz....
kk... tink ppl are not interested in reading my fei hua.... but i read those testi liao i v happy leh... make me tink back last time de things... hehe....

sian...

2006-11-01T23:49:00.000+08:00

haiz....
im back again....
really not feeling too good....
again, i cry until i vomitted.... haha.. useless hor... but oso v power hor... hehe..
sometimes i feel tat my home is a v cold place to be in..... ppl are all doing their own things.... maybe tats good in a way... cos nobody really comes and bother u....
since young... i've always been alone at home... sometimes its really v lonely... tats y i dun like to stay at home oso...
esp when my hse is so empty....
im living in a 5room flat.... but its looks v big and empty... which gives ppl the v cold feeling.... maybe not tat big... but big enough for each and everyone to have a corner to do our own things... tats y i dun like big houses....
mama still say wanna move to ah ma hse... i dun wan lo... its even bigger lo... still got upstairs downstairs... haiz...
big houses give me the cold feeling....
nxt time i wanna stay in a small flat... hehe...
on the surface, my family may give me everything i wan.... buy me this and tat.. bring me go overseas.... but sometimes money cannot satisfy wat u need....
haiz... actually i oso dunno wat i wan la....
sometimes dun wan them to fan me so much... sometimes hope they can see me as a living thing...
who can understand how i feel....
i jus wan some understanding.... i wan them to understand me more....
we seldom communicate.... we dun tok heart to heart.... maybe tats y....
i really dun feel wanted..... in any relationship or wif family....
the onli times i feel tat im being wanted is when im wif those bad guys.... but i noe i cant go on lik tat.... haiz.....
sometimes i oso feel tat its the coldness in this family which causes my bro to become lik tat....
haiz... dunno la...
maybe im oso at fault.... cos i dun initiate to tell them wat happen...
haiz... lik tat say like im putting the blame on ppl hor... maybe i sld really go and fan xing fan xing....
v sian.... cant slp now...

Feeling terribly terrible

2006-11-01T20:53:00.000+08:00

Wat can i say....

Feeling terribly terrible now...

so terrible tat i feel like vommitting again... i dun like this feeling....

你要的不是我
怎么能忘时间多长
你快乐吗想代替你回答
你知道吗走了好远
我才能去面对
这份牵挂沉默伤悲
你要的不是我
心碎的失去轮廓
曾经给你的感动
只是情绪的波动
能给的不是我
放任你沉溺自由
掩饰不了我的笨拙
就连说话都会颤抖
我被遗忘在
你遗忘的角落
我被遗忘在你遗忘的角落
[http://www.jiuai.com/Lyrics.asp?b27e7876]
[http://www.wtt8.com/play.asp?id=86427&art=1490] shi ting....

Cooling Day

2006-10-31T21:53:00.000+08:00

cooling day....
went over to hui's hse... hahaha... cos she oso sick... den i buy lunch for her... lolz... good hor.. hee...
i acc her.. she acc me... dunno sue at home... nv buy her lunch... lolz... keke
anyway sue slp whole day... nv wake up to eat oso... haha...
den me and hui watch dvd.... she watch until she fall aslp lo... =.=" den left me watchin it alone... hahaha... den i slp awhile... v nice to slp... cos weather v cooling.... hehe
den slp tog v cosy mah... haha....
i slp awhile onli... wake up den watch dvd again... hehe...
den hui and sue wake up... we 3 go meet lashanne at the clinic... she went to clean her wound.... but no money... cos the atm nearby is missing..!!!
lolz... den cannot press money out... lolz...
ke lian hor...
den we 4 go eat dinner lo..... eat liao den i come back liao le....
hmm... they going to move hse le.... move to sengkang... so far..... nxt time cannot go their hse play liao le.. haiz... sian lo...

really sick le...

2006-10-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

i suddenly feel v cheated....
does he really have a daughter??? he said its his daughter... den said its his niece...
dunno which to believe...
haiz... y wanna bluff me...
but anyway its not my business now alady.... me and him alady over so long liao le... chey...
haha.. i got a way to make him dun always look for me le... lolz...
help him find ways to get to noe gals... hahahaha... old ppl dunno how to use msn, frenster and irc mah... teach them lo... lolz... IRC..!!! lolz... its quite long lost le bah... hahaha.. not much ppl will use IRC liao bah... i tink.. hehe..
still ask me msn got chatroom anot... lolz... msn no chatroom de..!!
hahaha... old ppl is lik tat la...
he go and noe other ppl liao den wont come find me liao le lo... hehe.. so good...
so pai seh nv meet ah siao today... its her bdae...
but im not feeling too good... hahaha... v pai seh la...
lolz... i dunno i got fever... jus noe i feeling giddy... lolz... dunno how to feel whether got fever anot mah... hehe...
still vomitted... v xin ku lo... hahaha...
but nobody take care.. so ke lian...
jus now ultraman commented on my singing... hahaha... i sent him a few of my singing i recorded during ktv.. but those were recorded quite some time ago de la.. cos recently nv record my own singing liao le... onli record other ppl de.. keke..
he listen liao he say give me 65/100..!!! wah.. abit shocked... hahaha.... actually i expected higher la... lolz... maybe i tink too highly of myself....
he say y my voice lik tat de... lolz... cos my voice is lik tat one mah.. hahaha.. he say i sing until v xin ku.. he listen liao oso xin ku... too much feeling liao le... like wanna cry... lolz...
but last time mr chua say my singing no feeling mah... tats y nw muz sing wif more feeling.... but like too much le izzit??? lolz....
den he say my voice v piao... hmm.. its the 1st time ppl say i sing v piao... muz take note liao le...
he say i sound nervous tats y piao.. hahaha... lik tat oso ting de chu lai ah... so li hai.. lolz....
wah seh.. like ppl give comment on my singing... hehe....
den he say he demonstrate how to sing... keke... wah.. actually he sing... hmm... not bad... hahaha...
maybe better than wat i tot... keke... see his face dunno he can sing de... lolz... but he lik tat sing no feeling neh.. how to touch ppl.... hahaha...
nvm la... different ppl got different preference... but i will take note of the advice... i dun sing until wanna cry, cannot put in too much feeling.. dun be so nervous lo.. hehe...

happy bdae ah siao

2006-10-30T10:10:00.000+08:00

ohayoo.... today is ah siao de bdae... hehe... Happy bdae ah siao..
hmm... v long time nv meet ah siao liao le.... haiz....
ah siao dun wan me liao le... =(
maybe later will be meeting her... wif jiaxi, bear and wenbin bah....
ytd was kaida de finals at Hark.... hahaha....
but i met angela 1st...
haiz... i cried again ytd... while waiting for angela at TPY mrt... dunno y... sat there and wait... she come so late... den i sat there nth to do... suddenly v sad... lolz... cry until my eyes drop out le... hehe.. wah.. den i waited for her so long... wan to faint liao lo...tink got wait for abt 45 min... den i cry for 45 min... lolz...
i so xin ku.... =( but dun wan anyone to noe the reason oso...
haha... ultraman say im crazy.... he say he's sick of my craziness....
wat else can i say....
im onli trying to find someone to tok to... to divert my attention.... haiz... nvm la....
i tink im on the verge of breaking down liao le.... really going crazy..... really v xin ku...
haiz.. nvm... shall tok abt ytd competition...
kaida didnt win anything.... haiz... i tink he is v sad... cos actually he can do it de.... but he didnt give his best performance last nite....
the song he sang was sha sha de shui by hong jun yang....
[http://www.souting.com/play.asp?id=96144&art=2967]
haiz.... he really didnt sing as well as usual.... see la.. dun listen to teacher lo.... b4 sing muz eat abit de mah... he say scared eat too full... haha... wah lao... b4 sing eat abt 60% full... lik tat den got energy to sing wat...
gao ying oso v weak... not stable oso... sing wrong lyrics oso... =.="
abit wasted la.... cos he went to read up the lyrics... even philip say kaida got understand the nei rong of the song... jus tat the gao ying... haiz...
the best part of the song is the gao ying liao lo.. the jia ying have to be v beautiful...
too bad la... really not his best performance last nite... actually its one is the worst... hahaha.. but nvm la....
at least can get into finals v good liao le....
haha... amos got same tots as me... cos we get to give comments to the singers de mah... write on a paper... den after tat they will read out.. hehehe...
got one guy sang ai wo bie zou... i write the song is not suitable for competition... hahaha.. amos say he agree wor... hehe
amos looks better wif glasses... hahaha... no glasses look abit weird neh... haha....
someone keep calling me everyday and quarrel wif me... haiz... wat so good to quarrel abt...
im alady so troubled liao le... still keep calling and make me even more unhappy...
call ppl at 4+ in the morning lo... siao liao.... ppl need to slp one leh....
haiz....
im not physically sick... im jus v xin ku emotionally and mentally.... and tats making me sick...
everything is not going smoothly... i dun like it...

Buang at the live band last nite... Haiz...

2006-10-29T11:32:00.000+08:00

haiz... last nite was so pai seh lo... weicai sabo me... >.<"
make me so pai seh lo.... haiz...
he asked me to go up on stage to sing the live band de.... wah.. i v jing zhang lo.. although not my 1st time.... but wif amos lao shi leh.... i scared de mah.... my idol neh...
somemore when weicai ask me up on stage... he introduced me as angela, anthony and robin de shifu lo.... wah kao... den amos say wanna listen to how i sing... cos im shifu.... v stressed lo...
ppl is professional de teacher neh.. haiz.... no face liao le la...
bo bian... i alady up on stage liao le... have to sing... i chose bai se hun li... den amos ask me sing rock version =.="
cannot la... i cannot catch the tempo... wah seh.. den even more pai seh lo... haiz... my reputation spoil liao le...
den amos say i sing original de better bah... hahaha...
ya it was better.... cos after i sing, amos got say he admire my voice, zhuan ying and jia ying hen piao liang..!! hahahaa... yeah..!!! v happy my idol got praise me neh.. keke... but overall still v pai seh la... haiz...
angela say i v cute.. keep looking at amos.... hahahaha... wah lao... i feel v helpless lo... dun look at him look at who... lolz..
btw ytd they had their halloween... weicai act as a dracula.... hahaha.. when they 1st came in, its abit scary la.... but see weicai.. den noe.. hahaha... chey...
den at the last part of the show... got one gal... she oso go and sing bai se hun li.... =.=" i tink she purposely wan to tiao zhan me de lo.... ppl jus sing at the previous segment liao.... she still go and choose this song.... lolz... weicai and amos oso say wanna compare... lolz...
heng mine was better... hahahaha.. heng ah... keke...
but she oso sing not bad la... dun compare wif others lo... everyone got different voice de mah... the way they sing will be different de mah... sing liao den ppl like can le lo....
like angela ytd oso sang the same song wif another gal... so qiao.. they chose the same song at the same segment... den each of them sing half lo.. haha
both got different wei dao lo.... one is got feel, the other one is rnb... so cannot compare de la...
different ppl prefer different kind de mah.... hehe...
haha... do guys get high when they see 2 gals touching each other?? lolz.. dunno y angela keep touching me.... hahaha in front of kaida and baowen... hahaha... make me so shy... keke..
kay kay touch my hair... den touch my ..... lolz...
kaida oso kan bu xia qu le... siao...
went home still chat on the phone.... tired le... haiz... dun like ppl asking me for phones*x la... in the end u'll oso be DIY mah... i jus dun understand la....
ytd jus happened to see kero's blog... hmmm.. he's the cute gay... hahahaha... colin and kero... so famous.... ooo.. they jus broke up... tsk tsk tsk....
hmm.. no comments... dun wanna comment anything oso... hehehe... but they not bad le... still can be tog for so long...

我依然是你的情人
忘了昨夜我的泪　过了今天我是谁
镜子里的那张脸　会不会拥有明天
你的心总是善变　爱上你始终危险
一成不变的谎言　愿不愿给我明天
真假的瞬间　梦幻的边缘
再多痴心也不能画成一个圆
我依然是你的情人　我依然爱你最深
别再紧闭你的唇　不哭不笑也不问
我依然是你的情人　我依然爱你最深
你的眼神太伤人　不看不听也不问　我的真
[http://www.jiuai.com/Lyrics.asp?c7f27d24]
this is a v old song by coco lee... wo yi ran shi ni de qing ren....
nice and touching... dun have the shi ting... cos i cant find it at souting.. hahaha..

actually honestly, i did feel abit jealous lo.... i noe i sldnt compare... but as long as u happy can le... i dunno y i wan u to be happy so much... but when u tell me u v xin ku... i v xin tong....
i really hope i can do smth for u... but i noe i cant do anything... i onli noe how to smile...
haha...
i wan u to be happy... tats all..

....

2006-10-27T23:10:00.000+08:00

came back after dinner and movie wif hui..... went to amk.... actually onli wanna have dinner.... but dunno y we end up catching a movie b4 going home.... watched DOA... its a super lousy show...
the "te ji" is so lousy... and so fake.... and there's no chinese subtitles..!!!! dun really understand wat they are protraitting lo.. hahaha..
lolz... i need subtitles to understand a show..!! English shows, i need chinese subtitles.. Chinese shows, i need english subtitles.. Other language shows, i need english and chinese subtitles... hahaha....
lousy cinema oso... the seat is so close to the front.... imagine... my leg so short liao... my knee can touch the front seat lo.... wah... if those long legs de.. how to sit??? hahaha....
i saw a pic of him... wif his gf and his 2 buddies.... looks fresh... haha.. suddenly felt tat he look v young neh... although he's a yr older than me.... hmm... or izzit im getting old???
haiz.... feeling v sian... v complexed...
there are some things i dunno how to express out.... but its troubling me....
dunno wat i wan oso....
i dun wan to go out wif ivan and terry... but how sld i reject them.... i've been rejecting them for quite some time le... reject until i pai seh oso.... but i really dun wanna go out wif them.... i dun wan to go out wif new ppl... its jus so sian....
haiz... forgot to tell baowen tat we are not going Hark tonite... v pai seh... haiya... i nv go u all can go de mah.... haiz....
i dun wan to spend money.... but everything i do needs money.... i jus wan to keep myself occupied....
now im at home.... im free to tink abt things.... things tat make me so troubled...
tat is y i dun like staying at home.... i tink im going crazy....
one fine day i'll really break down.... dunno who can help me.....
jus hope everything will turn out fine....
i jus changed my song..... Chi Lam de Zhu Jun Hao.....

Sick??

2006-10-27T10:45:00.000+08:00

haha.... tink going to fall sick soon le... alady not feeling well past few days.... finally its getting worse liao... haha...
feeling giddy, wanna vomit, sore throat, nose block, gastric pain... lolz... so many problem wif me... hehe...
since tat day.... hmm... last fri... lolz... went hark, den go eat, den go watch movie... morning den go home.. tink not enough slp.... den i everyday oso go out... after tat day went out wif weihang they all mah, monday go ktv, tue go gai gai, wed hark, last nite ktv... tonite hark... tmr hark.. sunday hark again... lolz...
my 2nd home is now Hark..!! lolz.. last time is cuppage de party world... now change liao.. keke...
btw... wed de Hark was kaida de competition... wah.. he got into finals..!!! lolz... heng heng de lo... sang nan dao... 1st part was ok wor... 2nd chorus.. wah seh... totally off key leh.... abt 2-3 sentence lo... jialat... dunno y everytime he competition will go off de leh... cannot catch the right key... haiz...
tat day de contestants are really good lo.... hmm.. but i dun really like the 1st one... mr cai hong tian tang... dunno wat name la... he sang zhang dong liang song tat day.... the 2nd one is a xiao di di wor... Project Superstar 2006 de top 40.... good wor... look abit like jielun but sang zhang dong liang song oso... he wear school uniform to the competition lo... =.=" den vynson lend him his jacket... lolz... his frenz ah.. v noisy lo... scream de wor.... kids... tsk tsk tsk...
den a guy sing zhui jing... lsj de song... not nice.. no comment... den a gal sang mei li ben nu ren... the onli female singer tat nite.. not bad wor... v strong... den the taiwan guy.. sang kiss goodbye.. the other time he sang love story de.... hmm... maybe kiss goodbye is a wrong choice of song... not suitable....
last one is our anthony le... lik tat lo... hahaha.. weicai specially came down to support him de wor.. gan dong neh..
results out le.. the host announced that onli 2 contestant got positive points.. hahaha... we guess surely cant be kaida de lo.... but na li zhi dao.... tsk tsk tsk... he got one of the positive points lo... hahahaha.... the other one is the gal... the others all negative points wor... hahahaha...
got 4 ppl get into the finals.... kaida, the gal, the xiao didi and the 1st one..
kaida heng lo... hahaha....
wah seh... weicai noe abt yan yan music sch wor... hahaha... wah... yan yan music sch famous liao... lolz...!!!
keke... i tell him the sch is established liao le... lolz.. he wanna join lo... wahahahaha...
lai lai lai... who wanna learn singing can come to yan yan music sch... lolz... i charge cheap cheap can liao....
beginner - $120/mth
advance - $180/mth
Cheap rite..!!! go check wif other music sch... hahah... where got so cheap de... hahaha..
lai bao ming bah...!!!
my advance fees is other sch de beginner fees liao leh... frenz will have 20% discount.. hehehe....
hahaha... im abit crazy la... :P
ytd went ktv wif joyce... hahaha... so long nv see her liao le.... hehehe... oso wif shermaine.... den i asked kaida and baowen along oso... shermaine oso got ask her frenz.... wah.. alot ppl neh.. we 7 ppl.. singing room... abit not enough lo...
den got one of shermaine de fren... i tink is nic bah... hahaha... he looks so familiar lo... yuan lai his bro took part in Hark de competition last mth..!!!! so qiao...
and no wonder i find nic de bro so familiar... he is joyce de ex bf..!!!! wah lao... so qiao lo.... hahahaha.... sg is so small... lolz...
today go hark.... hmm.... maybe im not going... but feel abit bad... cos kaida haven choose his song for sunday de finals.... and tonite is vynson de last day of hosting....
tmr they oso wanna go.... cos weicai come back le.... den he'll be hosting on sat... wah.. good ah.. at least now sat can go hark liao... cos the previous host on sat is really lousy.. haha..
haiz.... but tink im not going too la.... if i really got nth to do le.. den maybe i'll go bah...
been trying to keep myself occupied and bz... and trying to make myself sick too... hahaha...
dunno la... its onli when im sick.. den i'll rest at home...
wah.. justin de colleague wan me to bring him ard nyp walk walk wor... lolz.... cos he goin to study there liao le... lolz... NYP so small... no need me to bring de la.... onli got north and south lo... nth much to walk de mah... haha....
he keep saying his colleague v se... i tink he more se lo.... tsk tsk tsk....
haiz... den i everyday kena scolded.... v ke lian lo... v wu gu lo.... everyday call me to quarrel wif me.... =.=" he quarrel wif me.... i onli keep quiet nia... lolz.. cos i dunno how to quarrel wif ppl... haha....
over stupid things la.... say y i always go out wif kaida and baowen....
wah lao.. fren fren cannot go out meh... >.<"
so many small little things happened past few days... v sian lo... haiz... hahaha... i everyday sian de hor.. keke..
mama say i got hei yan quan liao le... haha....
not enough slp is lik tat one mah...
When u love someone, its abt giving him happiness, letting him go and sacrificing ur feelings for him..... love can be complicated... u noe it may hurt but yet u r willing to get hurt... there is no reason for tat...

Y is everything so ex now..!!!!

2006-10-24T22:59:00.000+08:00

jus came back frm shoppin..... hahaha....
but i didnt buy anything at all..!!!!! i got $200+ voucher... but i didnt managed to buy anything.... haiz...
the yellow jacket tat i wanted to buy frm topshop... now see not nice le leh... hahaha... cos i saw smth nicer..!!!! keke... but more ex..
yellow de now got discount onli $109.... original is $159 wor... hahaha... plus i got voucher now... i can no need spend a single cent..!!! lolz...
but but but..... i saw another one... at Mango... hahaha... nicer wor price oso nicer lo... $175.. haiz... dunno y i see de things all so ex de.... its nicer wor... jun oso tink so... hahaha...
i took photos of it.. lolz.. mama oso say nicer.... hee...
but mng buy 3 items got 20% off neh... haiz.. y cannot 50% or more... haiz... so ex how to buy... i onli got $30 voucher for tat nia lo....
den i wanted to buy a pair of shoes frm mphosis.... so cheap lo... $13 nia lo... hahaha... oso can use voucher wor.... BUT... haiz... no size.... left onli size 8.... =.=" den walk frm scotts to taka... jus to see whether they got size anot.... reach there they close liao.... =.="
really fated not to buy lo...
haiz...
saw another thing v nice too.... a v big bag... hahaha... super big de... keke... i like..!! somemroe its hello kitty brand..!!!! Lolz.... beri nice lo... hahahaha....
but oso... haiz... ex lo.... usual price at $199.95.... now $129.95... still so ex..!!!!
Y is everything so ex...!!!!!!
i cant buy anything..!!!!!
came home empty handed.... =.="
sian la.....

Yeah..!!! KTV~~

2006-10-24T10:50:00.000+08:00

haha finally went KTV again... lolz... v happy... cos got new songs.. hehe..
but there were onli 3 of us... cos angela go back to msia.... left me wif kaida and baowen... hehe.... took the hall... so qiao.. saw kaiwen frm hark... lolz... he oso one of the regular at Hark.. tats y we recognise him... hehe....
lolz... the waiter v cute neh... saw us liao lik v surprised lik tat... lolz... ya la.. we too long nv go liao le... suddenly go... so long nv see us lo.. hahaha.. got new staff... blur blur de... hahaha... so cute.... cos i go take jacket frm him.. den he dunno wat to do lik tat... give me tat blur face... hahahaha.....
wah seh... super long nv sing liao lo... esp at hall.. hahaha.. so shiok..!! lolz..
yeah..!! ytd nv go off key... hahahaha... i managed to sing ai xiao de yan jing..!!!!
wah seh... tat part >> wo~ yi ding rang zi ji~~
[http://www.souting.com/play.asp?id=71431&art=995]
super high de... hahaha... yeah yeah yeah.. i managed to reach tat note.. la la la..
and i oso managed to sing I Still Believe..!! the song playing on my blog... hehe... yeah.. kaida say i noe how to he ying... lolz...
BUT.. who can sing Cao Ge part!??!?!?!?!? haiz... no one can sing his part neh.... so high.. i sang wif baowen... he almost died....
dun tink my weida can sing oso.... his voice so man... hahaha... not high pitch de neh...
i tink i can onli get Cao Ge to sing his part wif me le... hahaha... maybe can ask JJ oso.. haha...
wah yu cai mistaken me and kaida.... lolz... although both got "da".. but they are 2 different person wor... dun get mixed up wor.... hahahahaha.... wah lao.. still ask me whether got any progress anot... anyhow say... lolz...
tink im getting sick le.... sore throat, nose block, giddy..... haiz...
wah... ytd kena stalked.... scary sia... actually he wanna come fetch me home frm ktv de... i tell him dun wan... still kena scolded.. wah lao... my fault meh..... den waited for me at my hse downstairs.... =.=" this kinda ppl make me wanna avoid them more lo....
i hate stalkers..!!!! haiz....
tmr is kaida de semi le..... jia you lo... hahahaha... anyone free can come to Hark to support Anthony..!! an de ne~
hehe.. Jia You!! Jia You!! Jia You!!

Hong Kong Cafe

2006-10-22T18:29:00.000+08:00

Here are a few pics we took tat nite b4 our movie tat day... at the Hong Kong Cafe... hahaha... onli a few nia la.... cos all v tired liao le..
Yan Yan Music Academy..!!!! the onli 4 members.... lolz... pathetic..

Yeah..!! the 2 pretty gals... keke...

the 2 ACT SHUAI guys.... Lolz...

our food at the Hong Kong Cafe... Hehehe...

Didnt went home last nite.!! weihang back frm australia..!!

2006-10-21T23:52:00.000+08:00

wah... im finally home.... hahaha....
but today is a sat... im now at home le...
wah... ytd nv came home... lolz... until this morning... haha...
went to Hark ytd... sld be the last time seeing vynson le bah... he'll onli be back in dec.... so long.... hahaha...
but there's still amos..!!! hehe.... ytd he nv wear specs... look abit weird... haha... not used to it... hahaha....
dunno y baowen is always the last to sing everytime... lolz.... he sang ling chen san dian zhong... live band de... den amos say he sing so many times le.. muz sing different version... den he ask baowen to qing chang... lolz... they all left the stage... leaving baowen alone on the stage... lolz....
v notti lo.... lolz...
den ytd hor... wah seh.... got this auntie... v high leh... her bdae... den she dedicate song ask ppl frm other table to sing.... den got one guy... uncle lai de.... wah... i tink he abit like aust.... 'se bei bei' lo.... he went up to sing the song tat auntie dedicated.....
he sang nan ren bu gai rang nu ren liu lei.... v nan ting..!!!! halfway thru the song, vynson stopped the song and change to another song..!!! alex to de 'tuo diao'... hahaha... lolz... vynson so playful lo.... wan him to tuo diao... den whole of Hark v spontaneous lo... all wan him to tuo diao... lolz....
tink he abit drunk.... his face and chest red red de.... den he pai seh pai seh lik tat... say dun wan.... den vynson say muz give face to the bdae gal.... muz tuo diao... vynson still say he strip wif him... lolz... he take off 1 pc, den tat uncle oso take off 1 pc... lolz... vynson wear so much lo... lolz....
in the end the uncle say if the bdae gal come on stage den he strip lo... hahaha.. wah seh... tink tat auntie oso v high lo.... she take off her jacket and went up on stage wor.... den she helped tat uncle to strip..!!!!! they dunno each other at all..!!! OMG..!!!!
both v high lo.... i oso dun dare to see..... wah seh...
strip liao den went off stage la... hahaha... den dunno where they go... lolz.... wah lao.... so...... dunno wat to say oso... tsk tsk tsk.... both uncle and auntie so high....
see liao i oso feel er xin... hahaha....
after Hark we wanted to go sing.... hahaha.... but everyone's hungry... tot of going to eat liao den go sing... dunno where to eat... ahhaha.... vynson jio us to go eat wif them... but v pai seh oso la... dunno wat will other ppl tink....
den we go paradiz centre de kbox ask... wah.. they close at 4am lo.... so early... den dunno who suggest go 7eleven buy cup noodles and squat at the roadside to eat lo... lolz... so lomantic....
actually we didnt wan to go home... wanna catch the morning train... hahaha... but hark closes at 1+am....
we saw many tibits... keke.. den someone suggest we go watch movie..!!!! hahahaha.. so li hai... y didnt we tink of tat..!!! lolz.....
den we go all the way to cine... they ALL say wanna watch Death Note... den i oso bo bian mah... i tot its a scary show... hahaha... heng its not...
our show is at 415am... haha... we went to eat breakfast.... wah.. eat liao super tired liao le lo... lolz.... but alady tahan until so late le.... and alady buy tickets le.. haha... bo bian..
wah... b4 the show my heartbeat v fast lo... hahaha.. i really tink its a scary show... hahaha.. cos got the ghost... but heng la... not v scary... onli kena scared abt 2-3 times bah... lolz.... den ah... angela and baowen fell aslp..!!! lolz... onli me and kaida watched finish the whole show.. hahaha.. angela go in den soon fell aslp liao le... den she dunno wat the show is tokking abt.. lolz... waste money...
dunno y she keep holding my hand oso... we really machiam les... lolz... sat couple seat... den she hold my hand throughout the show.... lolz... even when we're jus walking she will hold my hand de... i cannot adjust my top, my dear..!!!! hahaha.... my bra is showing off liao le la... hahahaha... she still say v nice... i wan to faint liao lo.. hahaha...
baowen and kaida took antoher couple seat... hahaha... dunno whether they got hold hand anot hor.. keke..
wah... the show got 2 hrs lo... not bad... 6+ when the show finish... its alady morning liao le.... got train oso liao le.. hahahaha... faster go home slp....
i went to bed ard 8+ in the morning.... den 1+ wake up le.... went out wif aunty, minmin and weihang.... weihang jus came back from australia.. after 1 yr.... hahahaha... he's a pilot wor... mai siao siao...
went to eat steamboat at bugis.... den go walk walk... walk to suntec.... shop ard awhile... den they say wanna go drink kopi.. =.=" i so tired le... hahaa....
wah.. i v envy minmin... she is a teacher now... hahaha... but this teacher ah... tok crap wif students de lo... i tink the students oso buay tahan lo.... they ask her dun tok crap... lolz... so cute... student ask teacher dun tok crap.... lolz... den this teacher ah.. lolz.. watch students fight de lo.... punk rock vs metal.... lolz.... she say she support rock de... hahahaha...
students wan to go her hse.. she ask them to bring cookies... no cookies cannot come... /*faint..
minmin so small... students ask her y nv grow taller.... hahaha.... everytime i stand beside her.. i feel v tall... keke....
i like this kind of teacher neh... so good de lo... fren fren wif students... can play wif them oso.. hahaha...
i tink i goin to slp liao le.... b4 someone ask me for more of my pics... lolz... crazy.... i noe i pretty... but wan so many for wat... haha... jus hope he doesnt use them for anything bad.....
tata~~ nite nite...

Disgusting..!!!

2006-10-19T22:01:00.000+08:00

Soooo disgusting.... hate ppl asking me do this kind of thing... its so disrespectful lo... i look lik tat kind meh...
haiz....
angry... not the 1st time i say dun wan liao mah.... can keep asking de lo....
dunno wat they tinking de lo... so fun meh....
since so fun den find other ppl lo... dun find me....
and no need to ask me..!!! its none of my business....!!!!
make me angry...
still say like me.... like ur head lo... >.<" like shit la..
disgusting... er xin..!!!!

Fri - Sing/Hark????

2006-10-18T21:21:00.000+08:00

i jus noticed that last fri was fri the 13th..!!! hahaha... heng nth really suay happened... jus tat found out amos lao shi is married, den vynson cut off my song while i was singing halfway, missing my ..... for a few days.. hahaha... tats abt it lo..... hahahaha... so quite heng la...
sian... not quite used to these few days.... hmm.. is super not used to it la.... but bo bian.... LL lo... jus not used to everything la.... but im like being forced to accept the way how things turn to be... haiz...
hahaha... feeling v empty lo....
wonder wat im going to do this weekend..... sian.... i dun wan to stay at home...!!!!!! who wanna take me in??? jus for 2 days... hahaha....
Arghh..!!!
wah seh... saw Donn de company hiring wor.... kns.. nv tell me... have to wait for me to ask him lo.... hahaha...
didi come back frm taiwan le.... hahaha...
wah... ask him help me the thing for pimple de... he onli buy 1 pkt lo..!!!! =.=" nv buy more... haiz... but so little things... but so big box... hahaha... bring so many boxes home.... lolz....
he going brunei nxt week le.... haha... brunei nth to buy... hahaha...
i wanna go sentosa chui chui feng..... ShuVei van go??? i noe u always got peep at my blog de.... hahaha...
so long nv go....
feel like going to sing ktv oso.... anybody?????
fri - cuppage - hall
anybody????
if not Hark oso can... hahaha....
sat go Balcony~~
lai lai lai~

no more JB le.... =(

2006-10-17T21:55:00.000+08:00

trying v hard not to cry le la... dun worry.. ultraman, i wont call u and cry le.... hahahaha.... wait scare u... lolz....
but bo bian la.... i cannot control not being sad.... hahaha.... i oso dun wan de... :P
wah seh... jus now watched vivian and cao ge at vivian de concert..... cao ge sing live so li hai..!!!! so powerful wor..... doesnt sound like live de lo... hahaha...
ytd went out wif cindy... haha... she oso haven found a job... we both left the company at the same time... haha.. now both of us haven found a job... so ke lian.. haiz... sian le...
who got lobang muz tell us wor...!!! hahaha...
we went to bugis.... jus chit chat onli... keke..
den we walked to marina sq..... wah.. nobody de lo.... maybe weekday.... its so empty.... but we nv gai gai la... cos i suddenly feel like cutting my hair... den we go amk..!! hahaha...
saw youwei at city link..!!! haha.. almost cldnt recognise him.... cos usually i see him at Hark, he wear uniform de mah.... ytd saw him in civilian clothes.. hahaa... den i cant recognise him.... i saw this guy keep looking at me.... den smile to me.... hahaha.. den i suddenly find him familiar lo.. den i wave to him lo... hahaha... i so frenly wor.. keke... so qiao....
haha... she acc me go amk look for kentson... hehe... i onli wanna cut my fringe... its tooooo long le... hahaha..
hee... kentson so good wor... see me no working den nv charge me... keke... he so nice hor... everytime i go cut fringe he oso nv charge me de.... dunno lugi how many $6 le.... hahaha...
Thanks...!!!
wah... cindy ask me to let aust "yang" wor.... at least for the time being... den no need to worry abt money le... hahaha.... i cannot chu mai my body la.... and i see him i faint liao lo...
lolz... she still ask me close my eye can le... for the sake of money....
aiyo... cannot cannot cannot......
somemore he too HSD liao le.... everyday and trice a day..!!! hahaha... tats wat he said de... i tink he will die lo....
he nv die i oso die lo... i not as HSD as some ppl tink de lo....
haiz.....
dunno y all these guys so li hai de lo... suddenly all come and find me.... so li hai wor.... how they noe im available de... i nv even tell them anything lo... but so qiao all suddenly come find me tog...
pei fu pei fu....
today meet cindy again... haha... for lunch onli.... 2 jobless ppl v free lo... haha..

我可以
[http://www.jiuai.com/Lyrics.asp?c98166b3]
this song is too long le... so nv paste...
[http://www.souting.com/play.asp?id=62121&art=37] (shi ting..)
this song is from Mars.... taiwan ou xiang ju...
nice la... i mean the song... hahaha...

this is another song... vivian hsu - qin ai de.... its the bridge....
i like this sentence.... dunno y... i jus like this sentence... means alot oso mah.... haiz....
如果能重来一次
(ru guo neng chong lai yi ci)
请别再这样宠爱我
(qing bie zai zhe yang chong ai wo)
我太幸福就会忘了
(wo tai xing fu jiu hui wang le)
爱总有慢慢变化时候.....
(ai zhong you man man bian hua shi hou)

haiz... sian.... not goin JB liao le la.... haiz.... planning to go this fri den come back on sun de.... now cannot go le....
all kaida fault..!!!! his company fault..!!!! ask him go do dunno wat body check up... =(
wah lao... nan de sat is holiday leh.... den everyone oso free....
haiz.... den baowen oso dun wanna go le... all dun wan to go liao le... sad....

nvm.... no JB i go other place..!!!! hahaha... go drink..!! lolz... who wanna go drink??? keke...

wah seh.... my savings is not even enough for airport tax to Hokkaido lo.... airport tax onli neh... so ex... haiz....

Special dedication to Vang ShuVei~~

2006-10-16T20:48:00.000+08:00

im back again..!!! hohoho...
ShuVei~~ this blog is a special dedication to u onli~~ cos u van de.. hohoho...

u van me to teach ppl how to speak ur kind of proper english rite.. haha... alvays van to spoil my reputation...
i can ol~so teach ppl how to sing~~ hahaha...
Can~~
Come~~

ol~k~
English 1st bah...
1) words starting wif "w", change all the pronounciation to "v"... Eg, velcome(welcome), vhy(why), vhere(where)....
2) when u speak, u sld shake ur head abit... tilt left and rite slightly and abit fast...
3) in some words, you have to pronounce the "t" and "l" stronger... Eg, compaTibllllle~~, suiTabllle~~
4) if you are typing... u sld use alot "~"... it means a slang....
5) the way u speak sld be different from ppl~ it is creativity... Eg, dun say u r giddy... say u feelll like faint~~

tats abt the basic la... jus need more practise...
practise hard and u vill master the language as vell as ShuVei does... hohoho....

Singing....
1) go to a field... wif trees...
2) get ur frenz to go wif u.... a bunch of frenz.... prepare alot of clothes too..!!
3) shake ur shoulder... warm up....
4) start singing.....
5) get ur frenz to "suddenly" appear out of no where....
6) they will start dancing.. and their clothes change too....
7) u, the main lead, will have to hide behind a tree... left rite left rite...

if u can do all these... u can sing..!!!!

hahahaha....
for those who dun understand wat im tokking abt... nvm.... can get consultation from ShuVei... she is PRO de lo.... hahaha....

Spread the language..!!!!

i wanna get drunk..!!!!!

2006-10-16T09:30:00.000+08:00

Jus came back from a jog..... so long nv go exercise liao le....
today is hazy.... but i still can see the sun/moon.... dunno whether its the sun or moon... hahaha... i tink its the sun... cos its orange color....
den v bo liao.... find a corner at the stadium there and cry.... lolz....
so sorry to ultraman... cos ytd need him to comfort me until v late.... :P
i've been trying hard to treat him as a fren le..... tats wat he said b4 mah... if not bgf still can be fren de mah.... but the attitude i receive.... dunno how to say... totally different... different until i couldnt recognise him le....
i wont treat a fren this way de lo..... maybe the way u treat a fren is different frm how i treat a fren.....
nvm.... dun worry... i wont bother u anymore.. unless u wan to tok to me.... but if u bu shuang me... den no need to call le.... everytime ur "bu shuang"ness jus scare me.... scare me until i dunno wat to say oso....
anyway... happy "pak tor"ing wif ur gal bah..... u happy can le....

i dun wan to cry everyday le..... i wan to be loved, be wanted, be protected...
被爱是幸福的.......
i wanna get drunk again..!!! hahaha...

So High~~!! Hahaha

2006-10-15T13:18:00.000+08:00

ytd met jun after her sch.... den we went for our dinner at Village... its exactly same as Marche mah... jus tat name is changed le... hahahahaha... we had waffles..!!!! its nice... hehe.. look at the strawberries..!!! hehehe..

after the dinner den we walked ard at Heeren awhile lo.... need to digest... hahaha... den saw simon again lo.... Choy Pi Chi Choy..!!!(onli some ppl noe wat it stands for..) lolz... so ke lian.. he alone in shop... hahahaha... kns.. sa jiao to me somemore.. hahaha.. so er xin...
he say the other time i nv buy anything den go liao... hahaha... not i dun wan to buy la... jus tat not suitable lo... haha... bo bian.. free den go ka jiao him again lo... hahaha...
jun say he dun look lik 23 yr old..!!! hahaha.. he looks like he's been thru alot...
ya... true la.. he's been thru alot... now oso grow up le....
hahaha.. den we go inside HMV.. cos bo liao la... wear the headphone and take photos..!!!! lolz.... kawaii neh...
dunno y i always do so cute de things... hahaha.. buay tahan.....
walk finish Heeren liao le... den we go to the Balcony... wa kao... one for one housepour end at 9pm..!!!! it was 915pm..!!!! we missed tat.... >.<" bo hua le...
but we still went in la.... we 2 onli... hehe.. ordered vodka red bull..!!! 1 Jug... hehe... den we jus sat there... drink and chit chat.... the place not bad.... cos its not as smoky... compared to clubbing la.... or izzit maybe not alot ppl beside us smoke... hahaha..
den we finish tat jug le... ordered another jug of whiskey... hehe... we were there until 12+ or 1am.. i cant rem le.... wah... den i v giddy liao le.... abit drunk... v high.. hahaha... v long time dun have this kind of feeling liao le.... this is onli the 2nd time i got this drunk feeling... the 1st time was at coco latte... fren de ex-bf made me drunk... keep giving me drinks... non-stop de.... =.="
but now i v long time nv drink liao le.... so our 2 jugs make me drunk le... haha...
jun even go vomit... lolz... me onli cant walk straight nia lo... v nua lo... hahaha... v high....
we went to cine de toilet.... walk abit lik wan to fall down.. walk abit wan to fall down lik tat lo... lolz.... so fun...
hahaha... den inside the toilet i keep taking pics... lolz... i like the natural blush after the drinks leh... took ALOT pics lo... lolz....
den we went home le... so qiao saw ah boy downstairs....
den reach home liao i still keep taking pics... lolz... ytd really took alot lo... jus 1 day... took more than 100 pics..!!!! hahahaha.... li hai bah... hee....
hmm.. i need a haircut.... goin to look for kentson le... haha.... cos he always help me cut free de... lolz... and i onli dare let him touch my hair... hahaha...
wah... these few days wake up really early.... i slept at 2+ last nite... den woke up at 5+... haha... not enough slp le....
jus now chatting to aust.... hahaha.. old ppl finally using msn... aiyo... he wan to yang wo... hahaha...
sometimes he's jus so weird.... i really tink he's crazy... asking those weird weird qn... always dun go to the main point.... alady noe wat's his main point liao... he still kay kay wan to hide... lolz...
how come old ppl are so weird de.... always huan xiang ppl like him....
hahaha....
Vivian Hsu new album is nice... i nv listen to all... onli listen to slow de nia....
wah... den her duet wif Cao Ge.... nice neh... "I Still Believe.."
[http://www.souting.com/play.asp?id=104021&art=995] (shi ting...)

（Vivian）卸下美丽的外壳
透明的我们还剩下什么
爱情就像水晶球
坚固而脆弱
（Gary）一个人也许自由
两个人的感动大过天空
喜怒哀乐共同拥有
不让遗憾留
（合）Baby I still believe
爱可以走过乱
流紧紧握住双手
一秒就够不孤单寂寞
Baby I still believe
爱要有你才会快乐
就算未来的路不同
你在我心中
到永久
感觉寒冷时候
我抱你在我胸口
当你泪流的时候
我在这里不走 No
爱散发的温柔
在此刻用心感受
我想和你一起
让幸福转动
紧紧握住双手一秒钟
爱有你才快乐
就算未来的路都不同
你和我
[http://www.jiuai.com/Lyrics.asp?9c629bfc]

wah seh... who can sing Cao Ge part.... so difficult.....

today is hazy again.... worried abt my face.... Hahaha...
wo shi kao lian chi fan de..!! hehe....

amos is married..!!!!

2006-10-14T15:11:00.000+08:00

I changed my blogskin again..!! hahaha... no tagboard yet....
anyway oso no one tag me de la....
see hwo.... if i shuang den i go put the tagboard lo... lolz...
ytd went Hark.. found out smth..!!!! disappointing sia....
amos is married..!!!! for 5 yrs alady..!!! he looks so young....
wah... such a good guy... hard to find neh... so talented... and rich... hahaha... he is Hark de lao ban..!!!! li hai lo.... Hark sure earn alot money de.... so li hai do business.....
we jus tot tat lady is maybe some teacher or staff @ Hark... cos she jus sat there... den until amos ask her to go on stage to sing.... its live band mah... amos play guitar... den tat lady sing.... hmm still got other la... pianist, drumer and play bass de... hahaha... wah she sing like professional lo...
den our anthony go and ask vynson who is tat lady... izzit teacher anot... vynson say is lao ban niang..!!! amos de wife..!!! married for 5 yrs le....
wah seh... amos is married..!!! hahahaha
but they look v compatible.... both look stern stern de lo... serious serious tat kind... hahaha...
so good.. husband and wife on stage... wife sing and husband play the guitar... haha... so sweet.... keke....
vynson dun like me.... i sang halfway.. he stopped my song.. >.<" i wan to sing bai se hun li they say dun have.... last time i sang b4 de lo...
hahaha.... dunno wats wrong...
he v bad lo... purposely wanna make fun of us de... make fun of kaida oso... haha
nov he wont be hosting le.... cos going reservist.... dec den come back.... wah.. lik v long hor.... now is weicai go reservist... tats y ytd he nv came.....
wah... the other hosts cannot make it la.... look pretty no use neh.... ahhaha... dun really noe how to tok neh... but nvm la.. there's still amos..!!! hahaha.. he is the lao ban.. so he will be there de... hahaha...
tonite sld be going to Balcony le.... last week wanted to go de... den kaida ask us go Hark... end up nv go Balcony.... feel like opening a bottle of chivas neh... sld be quite ex.... maybe nxt time bah...
wah... our chivas.... that time we open a bottle of Chivas at a ktv pub... we onli drank abit of it.... left alot lo.... more than 3/4 leh... den the ktv pub close down..!!!! so suay de.... cant rem how much le... tink $160 bah.. haiz....
nxt week is deepavali.... anyone wanna go JB?????????
go over the weekend...
who wan go??? hee...

im being spied..!!!!

2006-10-12T15:42:00.000+08:00

m i being spied by someone?
how come aust always noe when is the "right" time to look for me de...
he ask me go his hse stay le... said he will take care of me....
but his care is not wat i wan.... he dun even noe how to take care of me.... he onli noe how to take care of himself... haiz... sld i let him take care of me?
ytd told hui aust nv use msn de... cos old ppl dunno hw to use msn de.. haha... den.. so qiao jus now he ask me go where login if he nv dl msn le.....
everything is so qiao.... he spying on me??? or izzit really so qiao?
haiz... actually he everything oso got le... got career, got car, got hse, blah blah blah.... he onli lack of a wife....
he said he wanna settle down nxt yr le... but dunno how true.... can he resist the temptation of freedom?
furthermore he so horny.... so flirt... dun tink he can settle down so soon.... and dun tink any gal will feel secure wif this kind of guy bah.....
tonite he's coming to find me again le... haiz...
last nite went to men's nite.... but gals seems to be more than guys... how come ah??
we were tokking abt relationships.... although angela seems to be v blur abt everything, she still can suddenly come out wif smth v meaningful.... but ppl tend to become stupid when they are in love.... they are blind to everything.... deaf to the outside world oso...
when ppl love until v xin ku... it will turn into a burden.... for both parties.. love is to enjoy being wif each other...
have u ever enjoy being wif me? r u happy tat u once have me?
i miss u....
but im really tired le.. my heart oso dead le....
anyway it doesnt matter le.... i'll take watever comes by... jus shun qi zi ran lo...
ytd went home wif kaida... hahaha... we were on the bus... chatting la.. den i suddenly hear some noise at the window there... dunno wat noise la... i jus turn and see lo... den stupid kaida scare me somemore... >.<" wah lao.. i wanted to get out of the bus lo... but i dunno where i was lo... =.=" stupid kaida....
den b4 i got up the cab... he still ask me xiao xin of... wah lao... keep scaring me... =.="
haiz... v sian...