Thursday, January 04, 2007
time is all i need...
jus had dinner wif angela... haha... she came all the way to khatib to meet me for dinner....
we had mac... despite my sore throat... hahaha....
i dunno how i sld react when u told me abt her liao le....
i have v strong feeling u 2 will be tog some day..... she likes u de...
i wont be calling u anymore these few days.... or if i noe u r tog wif her liao... i do not wan history to repeat.... wait u bu shuang me again....
slowly i will get over u.... but it will jus have to take time....
watever u tell me abt her now... i will be able to take it de....
but if u nv tell me wat happen... and one day if u 2 are really tog... i tink i really cant handle....
i will have to try really v v v v hard.... becos i've really sunk too deep...
but at least i will try....
everything i do... its jus invisible to u... cos ur heart has her... she has occupied the whole of ur heart.... i dun even stand a tiny bit of space in ur heart....
ask me to go see a doc becos u care?? hahaha.... i tink anyone can ask me to do tat....
i have told u abt my airway b4 de lo... whenever i start coughing... it sure give me alot problem de... maybe im not her... tats y u dun rem it..
im reluctant to listen to u now.... in the past... i listen to u becos i still like u....
now... i wan to stop loving u.... tats y im reluctant.... im sorry....
i onli wished that u would turn back and look at me sometimes... but... hahaha... im tinking maybe we could go out like wat normal frenz do.... but... haha... im upset to noe tat u r willing to send her fren home... but y r u so reluctant to meet my frenz.... u r so da fang towards her.....
perhaps im really asking for too much.... cos im really a nobody to u....
u said i m v xing fu.. cos u still call me everyday...
but i dun tink so.... this is not called xing fu....
the one who's really xing fu is her....
i wont cry for u anymore... there's no more tears alady... and seriously i really dunno how to cry liao le...
i onli noe im v hurt now.... but wat can be done... no one can help... even u cant do anything anymore...
i'll jus have to take time.....
Time... its all i need...
im sorry... but i jus cant help tinking... wat makes u different frm weida and justin....
i really wonder.. is there any feeling for me when u do tat? or is it jus for the sake of doing it??
at least wif them, i noe for sure there's no feeling involved....
wif u.. i dunno... cos i dun believe tat u r same as them...
im really sorry to be tinking this way.... not tat i mind abt it... i jus wan to noe the ans... but i dun tink u will give me an ans oso....
sorry....
haiz... maybe im really tinking too much things....
now i onli wish for one thing.... i hope i can ask u to do so...
pls do not abandon me.... for i did not abandon u at all....
pls still treat me as a v good fren....
i need a good rest.... mentally and emotionally tired....
it'll leave a v deep scar.....
let me noe if u r really wif her....
sweet dreams;
11:08 PM
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