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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Cold~~

ytd when i was at jurong east mrt....
waiting for train la.....
den hor... the train come le.... but den hor... it knocked a stupid crow leh....
wah... so ke lian lo....
dunno y the crow fly in to the platform for wat..... stupid lo...
haiz.. but still v ke lian la....
tink its injured lo... cos i see it's trying v hard to fly... but cant fly le....
really v ke lian leh.....
den hor.. got one indian gal.. still go and try to scare the crow.... so zek ark... haiz...
alady v ke lian liao lo....

today woke up damn early lo.... haiz....
wanna go back to slp... but cant slp...
didnt slp v early last nite leh... but still dunno y wake up so early....

but den i oso went out v early la... hahahaha
mama took half day leave.... to go shopping wif me... keke...
i bought 2 dresses..!!!
hahahaha... CNY can wear new clothes le... hehehe...

dunno how many yrs nv wear dress le... seldom wear de.....
so few dresses in my wardrobe oso lo...
tink the last time i wore a dress is dunno whose wedding tat time.... hahahaha....
wah.. my tat dress... wore 3 times onli bah... hahahaha....
like so long zhong... lolz....
put in my wardrobe nv wear liao le.... onli sometimes when bo liao take out and wear for fun... lolz...

today bought 2 dresses at one go... hahaha...
bought a pair of heels too... can go wif one of the dresses... hehe....
actually i bought the heels 1st de... but den jus now i try try... can match neh... hehehe...

fri i may wear the heels too sch.....
hahaha... cos i wanna wear nice nice... and put make up.... lolz....
but scared i put le make up will look v different....
wait they tink i dunno wan to go where... hahahaha...
but dear wan me wear nice nice neh....
hahahaha....
dun care... keke....

wah... jus now tat nan ren ask me whether i free to go see his performance anot leh...
lolz....
was quite shocked when he called me..... and ask whether i can go see his performance...
so weird... nv tok to him b4 on the phone....
he doenst sound fierce la.... but den when i tink of his face... hahahaha...
i still feel he v fierce neh... hahahaha....
deep impression le la... hahaha....

recently my hands are always cold....
is the weather really cold?? or is it jus me??
really cold~~

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9:15 PM

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

yyms is not yyms without anyone of us..!!!

bored now.... haiz....

baowen dun wan yyms liao le... he dun wan us liao le....
so bad de....
so long nv go out wif us le.... haiz....

yyms is not yyms without anyone of us..!!!

we muz be united..!!! hahahaha....

kk im crazy.. i noe... lolz...

i understand he's bz oso... too bad lo... work and study at the same time is lik tat de... so ke lian...
bo bian lo... cant come out wif us le.....
fri de ktv.... there wont be yyms on fri le.... becos short of 1 person... haiz....

so qiao... today when i went to sch... i saw jacky and ziyi on the bus.... hahahaha...
so we go to sch tog lo...
they 2 so cute de... always fight de lo...
where is our gathering..????? hahahaha...
den they now say i always bz... hahaha... where got lo...
i always v free de lo... haha...

after today's lecture, we all stayed back awhile....
hahaha... cos we wanna discuss hw we shall start our OB assignment...
lolz.... nobody noe how to start....
we need past examples..!!!
in the end... we nv discuss anything for the assignment.. hahahaha...
shall discuss it on fri bah... keke..

i jus realised i had a stain on my black/grey de GUCCI bag..!!!!
wah lao....
jus washed it... heng can wash away ah...
heng lo.... if not v ugly lo... haiz...
somemore its GUCCI..!! hahaha... my 1st "GUCCI" bag...
"GUCCI"

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10:59 PM

Monday, January 29, 2007

sick AGIAN..!!

haiz...
xu wei lun die le.....
so ke lian.... so young... so pretty.... so fast die le....

hahahaha...
im paid $6/hr to be a flower vase...
good rite.... hehe....
was tokking to the hao lian ghost this afternoon.... he wanna hire me as a flower vase in his company... lolz...
y not... its a good deal mah... do nth..
when got lesson den go sch.. hahaha...

den hor.. he asked me go hark this fri....
but i cant... cos im goin ktv.... super long time nv go sing hall liao le....
hehe...
he asked alot qn.... den hor.. out of courtesy... i asked him whether he wanna go wif us...
he immediately say he ONs.... wah lao...
sian liao lo....
me and my big mouth....
haiz... tot he wanna go hark de mah... haiz..
die lo... fri have to see his face.... look so fierce... and he so hao lian....
haiz....

he abit weird weird de lo....
not shou wif him... tell me so many things for wat...
wah lao... den anyhow save my pic frm frenster wor... kaoz...
=.="

he asked me y i dun ask for his number de.... hahahaha...
y sld i ask....
alady got few ppl ask me the same qn liao le.... hahahaha...
wan to give me den give lo... dun wan give den dun give lo...
lolz....

lolz.. kaida say he wont tok to him de...
wahahahaha...
kk i shall perform my "虚伪"ness on fri bah...
hahahaha...
the rest shall leave it to dear to entertain him bah... cos dear say he's okie.. hahaha..

really v stupid lo....
go and ask him... haiz...
den bo bian liao le.... ask le.. den cannot ask him dun come le..

im sick AGAIN..!!
hahaha.... keep coughing le....
good lo...
weather so cold... feel cold the whole day...
actually not cold today onli... the past few days alady cold le...
the weather really v cold lo....
my room onli 27 degree celsius leh.. i on aircon oso 27 onli lo...
woooo~~ cold~~
cold until i headache... ~_~"

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9:06 PM

Saturday, January 27, 2007

Nothing Compares To You

jus came back frm 'studying'.... hahahaha
i went to mac.... wanted to study de...
i brought my statistics notes and exercises.... but den i end up playing PSP...
wahahahahaha....
and i played for few hrs lo.... li hai bah....

bo bian neh... keep dying... haiz....
i onli completed until stage 2-4..... =.="
shall continue nxt time bah....
hahaha....

hmm... lik tat i cannot study lo.... hahaha.. so many new things to excite me.... lolz....

wahahahaha... im being protected...
no one can bully me.... becos piggy will protect me de.... lolz...
he said whoever bully me den he will help me beat up tat person... wahahaha...
but be careful la.... cos he will chu shou tai zhong... den kill tat person... lolz.... or even castrate tat person... wahahhaa...

oh ya... he said... whoever wanna be wif me.. will have to fill up an application form 1st..
lolz... i tot wat...
the app form has onli 1 qn....
lolz...

The qn is... :
If u dare bully Ming Yan...how many days u wan stay in hospital?

A)1 mth B)1 year C)forever

heehe... he's still as cute lo....
loves to give ppl MCQ de...
wahahaha.... who dare bully me... lai lo.... try him bah... haha...
i tink im childish oso la.... tats y he tell me all these things... hahaha

ytd i shi sheng again... =.="
went ktv wif ah siao in the afternoon... hahahaha....
she pon teng again..!!! but chewy isnt ard... so she got time to go k wif me... ~_~
the 'librarian' is promoted liao le... hahahaha... now he wear coat liao le....
but den the 'killer' no longer works there... cos we didnt see him... hahaha...
i cant sing anymore le.... onli sang half a song.. den no more voice liao le... =.="
so ke lian....
v jialat lo... haiz...

we didnt stay for the 4 hrs... hahaha... cos i gotta meet clement to pass him my OB textbook... and oso to meet miss lee...
we went to bugis...
hehe... go Ma Maison eat.... but everytime gotta wait v long.. haiz...
nvm la.. cos the spaghetti still v nice lo....
hehehe.....

den we go shop shop.... hehe.. i bought a jacket...
but den buy liao... den realise i got alot jacket....
den jacket cannot wear for CNY neh... haiz....
wear for sch lo....
miss lee bought 2 tshirt... wah lao... copy me de lo....
cos she saw one...den it looks like mine lo... almost same lo... den mine is frm topshop.... =.="
but nvm... cos mine is still nicer... hahahaha...

i tink bugis village getting more and more lousy le leh... the things not so nice le leh...
ytd saw de things all like not nice de....
we onli shopped for an hr plus... den we go back liao le...
hahaha...
went to cold storage to buy tibits and red wine... lolz....

i went to her hse to stay... sk... sk... sk... hahaha
we went home... bathed...
chatted wif sue awhile... hehe...
wah.. scv got er mo zai shen bian leh... he jun xiang v shuai..!! yang cheng ling v cute..!! hahahaha...

we opened our tibits... den wanna open our red wine...
guess wat...
we dun have an opener.... =.="
v ke lian lo... buy liao cannot drink...
we 2 so blur de... haiz... den onli drink bai kai shui lo... bo bian...
den i oso helped miss lee paint her nails... ma fan lo....
so many colors she oso dun like de....
hahaha.. in the end nv paint colors.... hahaha.. jus help her draw flowers... hehehehe....
simple and nice lo... hehe...

slp until v late... actually can slp even later de...
but was waken up by a call... ~_~
tired...
hahaha.. den i go and wake miss lee up oso... lolz...

aiya.. den lashanne ask me go dbl O tonite....
feel like goin... but at the same time oso dun feel like goin... hahahaha.. mao dun lo...
feel like goin becos v long time nv go clubbing le.... dun feel like goin becos i dunno her frenz... and my complexion recently no good... not enough slp... haiz...

went home ard 2+...
den i pass by weida's hse...
wah.. its so near lo.. onli 1 stop away.... hehehe....
kk i didnt went home straight away....
went to wlds de crystal jade to have lunch...
the porridge there is v lan lo.... haiz...
i dun mean the porridge at crystal jade is lan... but... the food at wlds crystal jade is v lan... haiz...
waste money... so ex somemore....

went home... bathed....
saw the new watch papa bought.... really v 'powerful' lo....
wah... dunno when i can afford tat.... tsk tsk tsk....
wif tat amt of money ah.... wah... i can go japan dunno how many times lo... hahaha
i onlined awhile... den went out again le....
until now come back lo... hahahaha...
so sian now.. nth to do......
its a sat nite... so few ppl online lo... haiz...
im bored..!!!

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10:00 PM

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Memory - TMVC

I was browsing thru my old photos... hahahaha... and i saw these pics....
good memory....
one of the greatest memories i had in the past 22 yrs...
hahahaha....
till now.. i still miss them... alot... hahaha.. but dunno whether they still miss me anot neh... lolz...

though there were bad experiences working at tat place... but working wif these ppl is a great experience... they are amazing ppl..!!
they are ppl i will nv forget...
hehe....

ppl frm TMVC..!!! hahahaha....

this was taken at the xmas party when i was still there... haha

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11:37 PM

原来爱情这么伤

im so free this whole week..!! hahahaha...
studying life is so good....

but i've yet to go out wif my new frenz... hahaha....
the other day ziyi say wanna organise some outing... but den he say wanna wait till there's morning lesson... den afternoon we can all go out tog... wahahhaha..
he didnt wan to come out of his hse for nth...

ah siao says im kpo to go and see ppl's profile....
hahaha.. but den when i told her... 'she' looks like ye pei fen... hahaha.. she oso agree wif me.. and she oso go and see lo... hahaha...
and she oso went to see his profile... hahaha... she oso kpo mah... still say me...

i tink ah siao's doggie v ke lian... although i nv seen tat dog b4... but frm the way she tell me... hahaha.. i noe she v ke lian... btw the dog is female la...
ah siao always beat and scold her dog... so ke lian....
hahaha...

a v silly.. or sld i say stupid.. tot came to my mind....
perhaps i sld do smth wrong.... hahaha...
wrong as in smth tat i do le.. he will be angry... den he wont even be bothered wif me anymore... and wont forgive me le... maybe even despise me bah....
hahaha.. den this way i noe there's no turning back at all le....
dunno y this stupid idea came to my mind la....
hahaha....

anyway im not goin to meet aust this week le... hahaha.. no time for him... i got better things to do.... singing is better than meeting him... hahaha...
yeah..!! later im goin ktv again le..
i wanna sing... im goin to sing my heart out....
den ming tian hui geng hao..!! ^_^

oh yeah..!! singing is still my interest... hahaha....
but dunno whether dear dear will come along anot neh.... haven reply my msg...
haiz... waiting waiting waiting....
im always waiting.....

oo tmr i'll be goin to a new place to slp... hahahaha...
1st time goin to sk to slp... lolz....
abit excited... wahahahaha....
im crazy lo.... lolz....
aiya... maybe becos his hse is at sk.... tats y i so excited... lolz...
v bo liao hor... hehe...

hehee... tink i'll sound v nice on the phone these few days....
hahaha... cos my voice is back...!! hahaha.. except for tat few "A-Hem".. hee..
and i'll be real polite and tok really nicely to everyone... provided u tok nicely to me la....
hahahaha...
jus now someone called to chat.....
he sounds niec.... so i oso sound nice to him lo.... hahahaha... but i still rejected him in the end... becos i noe he bu huai hao yi de... hahahahaha....
my mind is still clear de lo.... hehe...

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3:11 PM

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

'Bo Bian' is the word...

Jus watched superstar.. hahahaha...
so qiao the carrie sang li bu kai ta.....
becos this song is like so unpopular... and i jus sang it the other day.... she today sing le... hahahaha...

oh ya.. den they oso showed abit of ye pei fen when she was taking part in competition during her younger days...
hahahaha...
wah... look like tat woman neh..!!
lolz....
really look like her lo.... hahaha...

jus now went to dye and perm my hair...
wahahahaha... kk i did say i wanna dye my hair...
so its now a darker color.....
ya i noe i said i wanna rebond it... lolz... but kentson says i perm better la...
lolz...
den i jus listen to him lo....
kk the nxt time i MUZ rebond le..!!! hahahaha....

wah... spent alot lo.. $302 in total...!!! including the small talk...
where did i get the money from..??? hahaha..
its amazing tat i haven been working for so many mths... and i still got money to spend...
hahahaha...
i will now be getting allowance every mth....
so the money i spent on my hair is abt my 1 mth's allowance....
hahahaha.... im richer when im studying... dunno y....
its jus so weird... hahaha...
anyway i got no money after the hair thingy... haiz....
i declare bankrupt..!!

no money for lunch oso... gotta cook maggie mee at home liao le....
the most valuable card i have now is my ez-link card bah...
hahahaha... tink still got $14+ inside... lolz...
im so poor... haiz...

got one nan ren add me in msn....
wah... he's like bragging too much le..!!! wayyy too muchhh..!!
having his own band, fren writing songs for him, alot frenz cutting album, bla bla bla....
oh.. his father noes ah du... hahahaha... so wat..??
and to be polite... i have to entertain him... hahahaha.. im so fake lo...
tell him he sings nice... has a good voice... says i like his voice...
wahahahaha....
y m i doing these??

he said wanna hear me sing one day....
told him i seldom sing hark... cos i got stage fright.. haha...
den he ask me go ktv one day...
and if i sing good... he'll recommend me to his fren to sing demo....
wahahahaha...
sounds like those ppl trying to shuo da hua... and cheat xiao mei mei to go sing lik tat.....

although i was v interested in singing demo....
but the way he tell me hor.... i got no feeling at all.... and i tink im entertaining him alot lo... hahaha... v fu yan....

oh.. btw he said i look young in my photos... hahahaha... so good.. thank u lo...
he said if i hadnt put my age in my profile.. he'd guess that im 18.. wahahaha..

"If hor, you did not put down your age and I do not know u.. I will tot that u are 18 only...
My gosh everytime i look at your photo, I will think if you are ever stopped from entering a pub or disco b4? Or maaybe even arcade during school hours. :) "

tats wat he said... hahahaha...
arcade during school hours... hahaha.. its like so kua zhang lo...
but anyway... ting ting jiu hao lo...

haiz..
i've been sick for 1 mth le... ultraman says its good... =.="
cos pain den good mah...
so bad.... tat evil man..

and i've been waiting for few hrs.... haiz....
maybe i sldnt wait at all.... it jus makes me disappointed...
waiting always brings disappointment...
he has no obligation to do so lo.... haiz...
always leaving me with no choice again...
and i have no right to call him.... no reason either....
and to be v honest.... he still appears every now and den... its so hard to get him out completely....
haiz... helpless....

somebody pls save me...!!

fear of losing him completely is still there....
my dear tell me i sldnt be scared of losing him de..... becos one day... he'll still leave me de....
its jus the matter of time....
but im still scared....
she says im brave... if its her.. she wont be able to face him at all..
but actually im not....
im scared of everything... jus tat i didnt noe wat i have to do...
i have to accept everything he does....

i do not have a choice...

i have alady ren ming liao le.... accepted the fact liao le....
feeling abit kong xu.... abit uncontrolled.... very 'care'less.... very un-loved....
alot more la... messy and congested feelings...

我应该坚强面对, 学会遗忘....

today's msn is so boring... so quiet....
onli 24 ppl online....
hw come???
where did everyone go???? v sian leh....
nobody to chat wif leh.... haiz... alady 10pm liao wor....
today is a wed mah... weekday wor....
y everyone go out ah???
sian....
come home and chat wif me~~

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9:07 PM

i wanna get HD..!!

early in the morning...
nth to do today..!!!
sian leh.... the hana kimi oso watched until ep 10 liao le.... den no mroe liao le....
have to wait until the ppl upload the nxt ep....
haiz....

lolz....
last nite i tried to take out my assignment to choose the topics....
hahaha.. ya i tried...
den i read abit i sian liao... faster keep it... hahaha..

aiya... i dunno how to start an essay....
its a 1000 words esssay... and i tink i'll easily go beyond tat... cos i write things without tinking de... hahaha...
hahaha... waiting for ah siao to send me her sample... lolz... cant imagine she got a D for her assignment leh..!! so li hai.. haha.. i wanna get HD..!!
lolz.... hmm.. maybe i tink too much... aim too high.. hahaha.. dun aim so high den wont be so disappointed... ahhaha

there's another 2500 grp essay... but we haven got a topic for that yet... have to wait for the lecturer lo....

hmm... jus happen to browse thru tat woman's frenster.... lolz...
hahaha.. i v kpo... cos i go see his profile 1st mah... haha...
did they break up alady?? becos she put "Its complicated".... and she nv put the "listening to dear k-mic" le....
wahahahaha... kk.. though i dun like her... becos she always give me black face to see de...
but den...now i tink hor... actually she nv do anything wrong to me la... hahaha.. i sldnt be so bad to dislike ppl... hahaha...
hmm... he's still in a relationship... wif who??? dunno neh...
so long nv see him... so long nv tok to him... dunno how he's been le....
onli noe he's on leave ytd... lolz....

haiz... tink abt wat happened btwn me and him...
noeing him is jus a big mistake...
i sldnt have met him in the 1st place.... and even if we met... i sldnt have listened to him to meet him at tat kind of place....
those things wont have started le....
wrong time, wrong place, wrong person, wrong doings....

haha.. but tat was the past la... everyone has past de mah....
lolz.... and ppl grow up thru experiences....
hahahaha... i tink im the onli one who doesnt grow up frm experiences bah....
im the one who keeps goin back to the past....
hahahaha...

aiya... cindy not meeting me le... haiz...
maybe i'll jus go dye my hair... dunno alex wanna meet anot....
haiz... sian la....
nth to do..!!

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9:02 AM

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

young and good?? Hahaha..

came back frm my statistic lecture....
a different lecturer.... indian again... hahahah...
heng his english is still understandable.. lolz....

but den his lecture is abit fast... haiz...
or m i too slow to catch up....
i didnt went for the previous 1 and 1/2 lectures....
and i didnt read up oso... hahaha...
didnt do any practise as well.... haiz...

today i took bus home.... sian lo...
tot bus will be faster.... but in fact its abt the same as the train journey... or maybe even slightly longer...
jialat lo.... i get bus sick.... haiz...
though taking the bus is slightly cheaper... i tink i'll still stick to the train bah... haiz...

oh ya.... the legendary justin has Re-Appeared again le..!! hahahaha...
he says im young and good.... lolz....
sounds weird and abit disgusting rite... hahaha..
and he asks whether he's qualified for me... wahahaha...
like old man wan to eat young gal lik tat... hahaha...
and he's goin to plan wat we'll be doin this week....
other than TAT... i cant tink of anything tat he'll plan... lolz...
says he'll fetch me home frm sch.... lolz...
see when he'll do tat bah... i'll be waiting... hahaha...
maybe i grad le oso nv come lo... haha..

hmm... sld i go out wif alex tmr? or sld i go dye my hair den go meet cindy....
dunno go where wif him... he said wanna go massage... =.="
lolz... i tot onli old ppl den go massage de.... hahahaha..
he wans me to help him massage... lolz... so if i use the wrong strength.. he will get hurt.. den can geng mc the nxt day.. wahahaha...
win liao lo....

i wanna dye my hair...!! where sld i go? wat sld i do tmr?
sian...

oh.. gotta pass Clement my OB txtbook to photocopy...
i hao ren lai de hor.. haha..
but i pai seh to ask him come out jus to take the book frm me... hahaha...
weirdo me...

its raining now... cold~~

ytd i took my med... the pills were too big to swallow....
and i forced it down my throat...
haiz... now my throat still hurts....
so ke lian...

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8:11 PM

Monday, January 22, 2007

pls dun hurt my chui ruo de xing ling

was really disappointed la....
becos i am always 'assigned' tat kind of role in ppl's life... v sian one lo....
i m not a toy....
im not someone who can be thrown abt....
i dun wish to be thrown abt....
i onli wan to be wanted.... tats all i asked for....
so if you r my fren, pls dun take advantage of me.... dun take me for granted... dun say things when u dun mean it... i wld really be hurt de.....
esp when now my xin ling so chui ruo.... hahaha...
dun hurt me....

kkk...

kaida says:
aiyoh mingyan no more Sad messages le la

hahaha.. i shall listen to him for tonite.... lolz...
changed my msg to : I Love YYMS..!! :D
lolz.... i really love them....
they are the 1st few ppl to see me getting emotional.... hahahaha...
i can jus be myself in front of them....
they are really great ppl..... hee...
Love them Lots..!!!

wah seh... he told me he was abit high tat day....
tats y pushed my head... =.=" and say it was funny...
win liao lo....
i so ke lian... still bully me...
"hen ke nian neh"...

today no school... hahaha...
spent the whole day at home... watching youtube....
a new ou xiang ju.... hana kimi... hua yang shao nian shao nu...
hahaha... got ella and wu zun....
Ella really looks like a boy in there lo... so cute.... the show v funny...
onli watched until ep 7.... but there were onli 9 eps up... tink they haven upload finsih...
hmm.. i'll jus wait lo...

watched death note as well... hahaha... finsihed ep 14 le..!! hahaha...
1 ep per week...
like v long neh...

oh ya.. and i painted my nails again...
lolz..
the theme is red cherries and white flowers.... hahaha... v cute neh... kawaii~~
im so bo liao hor....
nth to do.....

tmr got lecture in the afternoon... my onli lecture for the week....
mama ask me y my sch so free de...
hahaha.. how i noe...

so qiao... ziyi, my uni fren, he noe baowen..!! hahaha...
saw frm the frenster link... me - robin - ziyi...
the world is so small...!!!
hahaha.. actually i tink baowen noe alot ppl lik tat neh... lolz...
noe helen oso... den dunno few more ppl de frne oso...
really v qiao lo...

its midnite le... wat m i still doing online... hahaha.. nth to do le...
im so lazy... i didnt prepare anything for lecture....
i didnt study my notes....
i didnt do any tutorial practices....

maybe i sld start my OB assignment soon bah.. haiz...
haven chosen the topic.... individual assignment due on the 24th feb..!! grp assignment due on the 31st mar..!! so fast..!!!!
wait till i chosen the topic liao... den i might head to the library le bah....
hahahaha... wait till den bah... dunno when... lolz...
so long nv go library le... dunno whether i still noe hw to borrow books anot...
wahahahaha... sua ku lo...

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11:16 PM

Sunday, January 21, 2007

happy bdae kaida..

Happy Birthday Kaida..!!!

its his actual bdae today... 24 yr old... wah seh...
sounds old leh.... haiz...
ppl ard me are getting old le... tat includes myself as well....
scary~~~

i still can tell ppl im 22 now....
kk even though tat doesnt sounds v young.... but i dun care..!!
im still 22..!!
hahahaha....

fri no lecture... den went shopping wif him and angela lo..... cos kaida wanted to buy clothes for the concert on sat....
aiya... actually was supposed to meet ernest de....
but den.... kaida more impt..!! hahaha
cos he's frm yyms..hahahaha

FYI,
yyms = yan yan music school

hahahaha...
felt that he sld wear more matured instead of usual de casual and sporty.... becos of the songs tat he's singing on sat....
hahaha...

he bought so many things tat day...
bought a tshirt, a jacket, a blazer and 2 shoes..!!!
wahahahaha.... so good... can buy so many things.. lolz...

but was v pai seh to ernest tat day... cos alady promised him le... but den... last min tell him dun meet him....
hahaha... den he got nth to do on a fri nite... =P
tink he went home to do his music things bah.. lolz...
so pai seh...

i had OB lecture on sat morning.... went to sch....
wah... didnt expect there's so many ppl lo...
tot tat sat maybe onli few classes....
but its the same as usual lo...

tat was my one and onli sat lecture for the sem...
my uni frenz are good ppl... hahahaha... i like them alady....
though still not v close.... but tink can be hao peng you de..!!!
hahahaha...
i muz be frenly lo... =P

i went home after the lecture.... but most of them went to meet matilda, our OGL....
tot of goin home to slp 1st... hahaha.. becos i noe i wont be goin home so early....
but den... reach home alady 2+ liao le...
den i meeting janet at 4... (but i was late for abt 30mins.. lolz...)
haiz... cant slp le lo...
had my lunch... watched youtube.... bathed... den went out le...
no time to slp at all..!!

finally met janet leh....
its been so many mths since i last met this gal... tsk tsk tsk...
as usual lo... always so bz...
but we went walk walk awhile onli....
den i went to topman to buy the $79 shirt for kaida lo...
didnt noe wat to buy for him le...

den angela came... hahaha...
we went to have our dinner tog....
den hor... eat v long lo... hahaha...
cos its been like 548087421157 yrs since we last met janet le... den alot things to chat lo...
hahaha...

chatted until our singer came to fetch us.... hahaha.. taking the cab la...
lolz....
wah... i really machiam his bao mu lo... hahahaha...
the min we got on the cab... he passed his things to me liao le....
keys, phone, bla bla bla...
tsk tsk tsk...

went to hark v early lo....
no one's in there... hahahaha... except for the staff la...
even ly isnt there yet.. hehehe...

we were entertaining ourselves lo....
den the singer had to go upstairs rehearse for his mini concert...
wahhahaha... tink the whole hark is our voices and laughter...
esp when janet's ard... hahaha... her loud and significant laughter fills the whole place.... lolz...

more ppl start to come le....
and den baowen came... hahaha.. surprised to see janet rite... lolz....
or bi didnt come earlier lo... lolz.... aiya... kidding la...
but i oso last min den meet janet de mah... so bo bian lo... haha...
but she oso left quite soon after kaida sang la...

oo... den our singer came down... started his concert lo....
oh ya... the songs tat he sang are :
hong jun yang - nan dao
lin jun jie - cao cao
lin jun jie - jiang nan
william su - nan ren bu gai rang nu ren liu lei
fan yi chen - fang sheng

hmm... i felt tat his singing was quite good ytd....
hahahaha....
and actually i quite like nan ren bu gai rang nu ren liu lei....
cos i tot it was a super boring song... but the way he 'quan shi' ytd hor... hahaha.. i quite like it la... not bad..!! at least i didnt fall aslp...
lolz...

i went up to sing a duet wif him ytd... hahaha.. bdae mah.. muz give face....
since he asked.. den i ok lo...
we sang xin dong xin tong...
wah... but den... i tink we buang the song... lolz

i so long nv sing live band liao leh...
tink i got phobia... dunno y.. lolz....
den v funny lo.... cos the starting... he forgot how to sing bah... lolz....
cannot even catch a single key.... lolz...
haiz... den i went in.... dun tink its good.... haiz...
somemore im still coughing de lo... hahaha... sing halfway and cough abit....
so unprofessional..... haha..
heng amos didnt say he wanna change the mic... lolz...
kk overall.. i tink it isnt nice.... hahaha...

den hor.. weicai give kaida a beer... hahahaha...
tink its the same as wat he gave baowen on his bdae bah....
but den.. this time de seems to be stronger neh....
cos i drank... den taste alot of beer....
i hate beer...!!! last time de like sweeter neh...

lolz... though i didnt like beer... i still drank alot....
becos kaida cant really drink la... so i helped him drink... baowen drank oso lo...

weicai gave us 1 glass 1st....
its a really big glass fyi... hahaha...
den we finished that glass for him le....
youwei took another glass here..
wah seh.. they really wan kaida to die lo.... hahahaha... so ke lian...
but same la... me and baowen oso helped him drink lo....

dunno whether izzit my drinking getting lousy le or the beer really too strong....
by right beer is not strong de mah....
i noe they got mix wif other things as well... so ppl will 'die' faster.. hahaha...
maybe its abit strong for me le bah....

after the 1st round... i abit seyh liao le... hahaha...
but i still can walk... still v awake de.... jus felt abit sey lo....
den... the 2nd round... i die alady....
really v xin ku neh.... wah lao....
but i muz say.. im not drunk la...
its jus my heart la..... felt really v xin ku....

i hugged the pillow.... den i lie down...
den... haiz.... i started crying le......
haiz...
like v useless hor...
i really wasnt tinking abt anything..... serious...
but den i oso dunno y.... no reason lo....
haiz... i dun wan crying to be a habit for me.....

kaida was singing wif cai hong tian tang when i was crying.... hahaha...
didnt hear them sing... 1st time they sing tog... lolz...
can make fren le ah...
i hear nth when i was crying... hahaha....
and maybe becos after the drink oso la....
jus cant seem to tink properly... cant see properly... cant hear properly.... cant do anything but cry... hahaha...

kk.. den i noe when kaida came back.... he pushed my head.... but he's jus playing de la..
=( so huai dan...
i alady cannot make it le... still push my head...
den i cry harder.... lolz.....
den he sayang me.... hahaha....
1st time cry in his big chest... lolz.... cos i dun even have the mood and energy to push anyone away...

haiz... im so so sorry tat i spoiled his bdae... haiz...
crying on ppl's bdae....
v bu xiang hua lo... tsk tsk tsk....

hope weicai didnt see me lik tat la.... so pai seh... haiz....
dunno wats up wif me recently....

wah.. after the cry.... i still v sey lo... haiz...
tok to hark ppl wif the v fake smile... wah.. really buay tahan myself...
we went ktv after hark... onli yyms members and ly...
hahaha....
weicai drove us there.... haiz.. the other time said he'll come along de...
but ytd told us cannot le... y lik tat... haiz..

wah... den hor... of all the songs i sang ytd.... i tink hor.. the li bu kai ta.. i sang wif alot alot alot feelings neh... hahahaha...
i oso quite surprised... lolz... cos drink liao... and cry liao... and somemore so tired alady.. still can sing to my standard... hahaha...
too bad didnt record it down... wasted la.. nxt time sure cant sing tat same standard again le..
离不开他
音乐滴搭滴搭滴搭　
舞步踢踏踢踏踢踏　
每一步都是悲伤的挣扎带着牵挂　
谁都不想先停下
我穿着纯白的薄纱　
跟着他旋转在灯下　
知道是最后一次拥着他
日出后就应该　
试着忘了　要试着忘了他
我离不开他　也留不住他　
心像空荡大厅　一切就要蒸发　
我离不开他　风留不住沙　
远去里的牵挂是思念的时差
跟寂寞对话
我留不住他 耶 噢 耶
我还在想他现在好想他 好想他

reached home v early in the morning.. 6+... tired...
woke up ard 9+ wif a v severe headache.... jialat lo.....
went back to slp again ard 12 bah... hahahaha... den woke up at ard 4....
its the 1st time i slp until so late bah... usually if i came home tat 'early' i oso wont slp until so late de... hahahaha... break record le...

yeah..!! i got a mp3 player..
hehe.. papa bought the Zen Neeon 2 for me... so nice....
was playing wif my new toy since jus nw... hehe

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9:54 PM

Thursday, January 18, 2007

someone's strangling me..!!

all along i tot the med i was taking was normal cough syrup....
jus now went to the clinic... wanna buy the cough syrup....
but the clinic assistant said tat i have to see the doc... cos the med im taking is v strong....
haiz.... so ma fan...
but i haven complete my med...
sld i go see the doc? or sld i finsih my med 1st??

i cant even decide on tat... haiz...
so sian...

actually today felt abit not right.....
dunno y... i feel tat im being strangled.....
its the 1st time i have this feeling.... i really dunno wat is happening....
now i still have the feeling lo....
its still there.... but not to the extend tat i cant breathe at all....
but im really v xin ku....
no one can help me le.... v ke lian... and nobody cares....
haiz.... watever la...

feel like im choking le....
im not being kua zhang.... its the truth... the feeling is really no good....
my hand is still working... tats y i still can blog....
haiz....
jus tat my throat and my neck feels is like shit...
or is there 'anything' strangling me.....
jialat neh....

and the thing is... i jus saw the doc on sunday leh... haiz..
wasting my money again le.....
im broke..!!!! shit man....
y cant it be jus normal de lasting cough....

feeling v hot these few days.... though its raining..
feel like switching on the air con and slp....
but haiz.. cant stay in aircon too long... no good for the airway.....

my body's immune system is broken le la.....
little bit hot i feel v hot le.... little bit cold i feel v cold le....

Help..!!

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10:21 PM

weak.. weaker...

difference btwn poly student and JC student....
hahahaha....

poly student : slight headache den wont go to sch liao le....
JC student : vomit blood oso die die will go sch....

ya tats the difference.... lolz... im a poly student....
tats y i didnt go sch ytd.... lolz... and oso becos someone asked me out mah....
hahahaha....

become more and more sick le....
bo bian la... weak neh...
cough come back AGAIN le.....
how how how.... i tot i can sing on sat de.... but now lik tat... how how how....
sure wont get well by sat de lo... haiz.... cant sing.... sian....

someone said i sing ye ye ye ye v nice... i wanna sing it....
i wanna sing gigi leung songs... i wanna sing hurt so bad....
i wanna sing guys' song... den i'll +4 keys..!! hahaha... cos my key is higher mah... bo bian..
dun care abt kaida le... i wanna sing..!!!!

haiz.... dunno y always feel like vommitting recently.... and oso feel v giddy lo...
jialat neh.... weak la...
my whole body is jus not rite.... missed my period oso...
and my cough is not getting any better....
it's jus getting worse....
wats wrong..?!?!?!? aiyo....

tink im goin to cough my lungs out alady....
cough cough cough....
so irritating....

i dun understand one thing....
y do those old man carry umbrella to the theatre when they go watch movie at chinatown???
to cover themselves? or to protect themselves frm any .... erm... "rain"??
hahaha...

hahaha.. y did i suddenly mention abt chinatown movies... lolz....
cos today my uni frenz mentioned abt goin there for movies... hahaha...

kk im goin to watch tv now....

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5:10 PM

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Guys... Haiz...

shit... omg...
which one is jacky...
hahahaha... dunno who im chatting wif now...

cant rem who is who.... jialat...
wahahaha... i onli nv go for lecture today... left early ytd...
ppl miss me le... so gan dong...
lolz....
kk even though i dunno which one miss me.... i tink everyone miss me la...
wahahahaha.... i miss everyone too..!!!

felt v stupid ytd.... tokked wif 'weida'... hahaha.. we were in the LT alone...
ya.. jus 2 of us....
he started a conversation wif me.... lolz... i dunno shy wat lo..
dun even dare look into his eyes..!! hahahaha
he is NOT weida... damn.... somemore he's younger than me la...
hmm.... but den... noticed tat his eyes are looking at somewhere he sldnt be looking at....
xiao di di... dun look there la...
jie jie will pai seh de lo.... wahahahaha....

i skipped lecture today... oh no... this cannot be happening again le....
tmr i will definitely go for lec de....
i muz be a good gal....

where did i go today den....
somewhere wif someone....
hahaha... fei hua...

rushed home to watch superstar...
wah... for the 1st time... i actually felt tat carrie is better than diya....
hmm... wah.. now i like both.. hahahaha...

oh ya... ernest having a gig today at gashaus...
so pai seh i wasnt able to go watch as well... hahahaha... cos today got superstar.... muz watch..
lolz...
anyway fri sld be meeting him bah... wonder whether piggy will be coming anot...
haha.... got free movie to watch again le... yeah..!!
kidding la... i still owe piggy alot of movies.... =P

haiz... but kaida wanna go shopping.... how how how..
how to arrange neh...
cant cut myself into 2....

wat sld i get for him??? bdae coming.....
haiz.. ma fan ma fan.....

tmr got morning lecture... muz really slp early today le...
hehe...

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9:16 PM

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

i wan to stop tinking... but how...

can someone tell me how to get rid of feelings for a person???
y is it so hard...

i really wan to stop tinking of one person de....
i really wan to do tat....
but how....
he always comes to my mind automatically.... i cant control it....

it really hurts to tink of him....
everytime i tink of him... i jus feel my heart breaking into pcs....
so envious of them.... really so xing fu....
and im left alone.... so lonely... haiz...

jus tokked to angela... abt wat happened...
its onli when things ended den im willing to tell ppl wat happened...
haiz....
becos hor... i noe hor.. ppl will say bad things abt him de lo....
tats y i dun like.... cos i dun wan ppl saying bad things abt ppl i like....
haiz....
im still protecting him... saying things to cover up for him.....

dunno la... jus feel v lonely... v lost...
dunno wat to do....

goin to slp liao le....
said i'll slp early tonite de... but its alady goin to be midnite le....
haiz...
tink i'll jus lie on my bed and cry till i slp.... hahaha...
no la... try not to cry....

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11:03 PM

skipped lecture...

i muz admit im really weak recently....
tink im goin to die soon le... ~_~"

today on the way to sch... felt v giddy...
dunno y...
dunno izzit becos i took 2 times de med in the afternoon.... hahahaha...
like v stupid hor.. morning i forgot to take med... den afternoon take dbl...
lolz....
but actually i morning wake up alady feel giddy le....

haiz.... weak leh....
jialat...

left the lecture halfway.... the lecturer give break... den i left....
buay tahan le leh.... stay there oso cannot listen to lecture leh....
felt like vommitting oso... =.="
haiz....

tot of meeting alex de... cos go home nth to do.....
at least go out wif him den can slack ard the neighbourhood....
but in the morning told him i study until 5pm le...
den in the end he go out wif his mama... =.="
haiz... den i went home straight away lo....

sian... fell aslp on the train.... dunno y... usually i dun slp on the train de....
but today...
i slp when i went to sch... and when i was goin home, i fell aslp oso...
weak...

in the end oso nv meet kaida le... hahaha...

wah.... tink im goin to be a matchmaker....
lolz....
angela and ernest.... hahaha...
how good can it be.... kk we'll be goin out on fri.... hahaha... sld be...
and i'll be the mei po... hahaha..

kk... hope tmr wont feel giddy again....
tink tonite i shall slp early.... haha...

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8:26 PM

wo yao kuai le..!!

wah... y ta por like to call gals char bor de..
haiz....

sian neh... my OG de ppl seemed to be so hardworking....
and im jus starting to warm up... still trying to get use to studying life..
im so slow.... ~_~"

shit... forgot whether i taken my med anot....
tink i forgot to take it ytd morning... hahaha... i onli rem tat i forgot to take it in the afternoon... lolz... but too late la...
now i forgot again... but nvm la... now alady so late le...
after lunch den take lo...
wahahahaha...

haha... im goin shopping tonite wif mr tay....
hmm...
nth better to do.... lolz....

v sian... i kept tinking of wat he said last nite.....
im not goin to ask him to be responsible.... i oso dunno wat im goin to do if im really so suay to kena...
i really tink its impossible la.... safety precautions taken lo....
but.. if if if if... really so suay.... if la... i oso wont ask him to be responsible for it bah.... his heart oso not wif me.....
there's nth i can do....
i can jus pray hard now... hahahaha...

wo yao kuai le..!!!!

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10:49 AM

Monday, January 15, 2007

anybody wanna sing???

i so guai today.... come home straight after school....
hahahaha...
so long nv had this kind of schedule liao le....
go sch den come home....
hahahaha...

the last week i went out everyday...
lolz... even jus now my frenz say.. wah.. u finally go home liao ah...
hahahaha... ya i finally come home le.... machiam v long time nv go home lik tat... lolz...

feel like going to sing ktv leh.... so long liao le....
now tat i finally can tok freely and easily le.... i sld be able to sing liao mah....
the last time i sang i was sick... nv sing properly... haiz...
so pai seh to liyan... hahaha.. cos she wans to hear me sing... but tat day i got v bad voice....
hahaha
sexy voice neh....
but no stamina.... lolz....

i wanna sing ktv... i wanna sing ktv... i wanna sing ktv....

thurs my lesson is in the morning... hmm... sld i ask him to go sing in the noon??
haiz... dunno whether he's working anot...
sian... if he working... den i oso dunno where else to go le...

hope sat we really go sing... hahahaha... cos i really wan to sing badly...
lolz....
but if kaida's drunk den bo bian le....
hope kaida wont get drunk..!! hahahaha... i can help u drink de..!! lolz....

hahaha... i dunno y i dun like philip so much....
he nv say anything abt me... he nv do anything abt me... we seldom tok...
jialat leh... im so bad...
hahaha...
but he looks like those typical 'se bei bei'... and he looks like kopi tiam uncle... hahaha...
kk i sld stop it... im being really v bad..

anybody wanna go singing????
hahaha...

today's lecturer is an indian... ~_~"
but he got australian accent... hahaha....
dunno wat he's teaching leh.... say so many introduction....
too much le bah... wah lao...
3 hrs of introduction... im falling aslp le....
hahaha... den keep smsing ppl...

ah siao called me... hahaha... always ask me wat she sld eat... =.="
but i was in lecture... so nv ans... hahaha...
anyway everytime ask me... but oso nv follow my suggestion mah... lolz...

tmr kaida off neh... so good... asked me go shopping tmr... but i got lesson...
hahaha.. bo bian la... i can onli meet him after sch...
so tmr nv go home again le... hahaha...
anyway come home so early oso nth to do....
will be rotting bah...

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7:15 PM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Sick and still shopping..

wah.... finally dl shi sinhuey's songs... hahaha...
yeah..!! some not bad la... haha..

this morning went to see doc again le...
wah.... got a number b4 i went down... but still have to wait for abt 1 hr... or maybe abit more... =.="
sit there like an idiot and wait.... haiz...

den someone called me...
kaoz.... sa jiao to me.... tell me he's horny... kns....
den wat m i supposed to do... shit la...
he nv said who he is.... i tot its tat crazy person....
told him i seeing a doc.... den he kup my phone... kns.... so rude...
nv met someone so rude de lo...
machiam my fault... kup my phone for wat... wan to kup den dun call la....

jus now... he msn me... haha... den i ask him dun call me anymore...
lolz....
he said he nv call me for mths liao le... wahahahaha....
i noe its him....
i really tink he got smth wrong..... weird guy..

went shopping today wif miss lee... haha....
she jus came back frm msia... haha.. den meet me le... so touched... lolz...
wah.. she good lo... today buy so many things....
and finally... she bought colors...!!! hahahaha... cos she's always in black and white...
pretty gal muz try to wear more variety mah... still young lo... hahaha... although still older than me... wahahaha...

i nv bought much....
i bought a white jacket frm MNG.. haha.. onli $35 after discount and using the voucher..!! hahaha...
cheap lo... original price is $125..!! wahahahaha...
i so li hai neh...
den i bought a necklace la... $5 nia lo.... lolz... lend miss lee to match the clothes she bought...
hahaha... really v nice lo... lolz... its my necklace which make the clothes nicer... lolz...
yea... den i bought smth for michelle oso....
i good hor.... hee....

today got more stamina le... hahahaha... shop few hours....
good hor...
but i reached home and felt abit giddy... hahaha....

btw the cough syrup i now have is really bitter.... wah...
i like the usual black color de... but den this time is red color de... den got add powder oso... taste really awful.... haiz..

oh ya... today the doc said im really serious... hahaha...
got so serious meh?? how come i dun feel so... hahaha.. in fact im feeling much much better than few days b4 le leh..
she use tat wat scope to listen... den said my qi guan is really v tight... wah... so li hai ah...
she say until machiam v serious lo.... say i so long still haven recover...
hahahaha... standard for me de mah... usually 1mth or mroe....
now its onli like 1/2 a mth... not serious le la... wet wet water(in cantonese) la.... hahaha...
and if this time i haven recover... muz faster go back see her... hahaha
so kan cheong lik tat... faster go back see her.. haha...
kk maybe have to go for xray....

aiya... this isnt the 1st time they ask me go for xray liao le....
maybe my lungs scared of taking the xray....
tink i'll recover soon lo.... hahahaha..

wah... bu zhi bu jue now alady 1215am liao le...
hahahaha... wat was i doin... lolz....
chatting chatting chatting....

kk maybe becos my nick sounds too sad.... everyone is trying to find out wat happen....
hahaha....

Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I dun even have the right to dream. As i tink abt the future, the tears will come out again.
haiz....
its true wat....

kk tink i sld go slp liao le...
tmr got sch again..!!! tmr i shall try to have a different image bah...
wahahahaha....
bo liao... playing wif images... keke.. =P

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10:55 PM

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Reality is too cruel, too brutal...

jus sent a v long sms.... longest sms i ever sent...
8 msges tog.... hahahaha..
kk maybe can be longer de... lolz...
but its still the longest i ever sent mah....

so so sorry if i affect ur mood or wat.... but i suddenly feel like telling u wat im tinking...

really tired lo... all the goin out has made me even more and more physically tired now tat im sick....
health getting poorer and poorer... getting weaker and weaker day by day....

but i tink today is much better le... today no sch... and no outing...
'rested' my body the whole day.... ya.. onli my body... not my mind.... nvm...

was at home the whole day... nth better to do.....

watched superstar when i woke up....
arghh... diya got lower points than carrie... i like diya...
tink she always got the highest points for gals... but this time she got 2nd... haiz... abit sad abt tat....
i really hope diya and darren can get into the finals....

den i went online... watched youtube... 1 litre of tears... wah seh... really make ppl cry 1 litre of tears lo.... based on a true story.... so sad....
the gal is so strong... compared to her... im not even her 1%.... i keep crying over stupid things...
the show is 11 episodes... i finished it over a few days la.... but today i watched abt 5 eps..
sickening... y i cry so much....

Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I dun even have the right to dream. As i tink abt the future, the tears will come out again.

recently i tok lesser and cry more... haha... jialat lo...

after watching... i go bath le....
oh ya... yang bought a new phone... =.="
haha... i onli change my phone once in every 2 yrs... or more... and for my V200... its been wif me since it 1st launched... hahaha... got 4 yrs le??? hahaha...
im happy wif my phones... no point changing... got feelings liao wor.. haha.. and its still good mah... hee..
no point changing ANYTHING as long as i still have feelings for it...

after bathing i watched another show... hahaha... HK drama lai de la... got andy hui de... forgot the name of the show...
i onli watched 3 eps...
painted my nails at the same time... hahaha....
mama ask me to paint for her for CNY... hahaha...
no prob..!!
yang ask me paint for his gf... lolz...
no prob oso..!!

den went for dinner wif my family le.... v long time nv one whole family sit down and have dinner le...
we jus went downstairs eat zhu chao... but i was v happy....
so glad everyone can sit tog happily....

haha... papa say he's goin to buy a mp3 player for me..!! hee....
thank u.. =)

im so sorry these few days haven been tokking to them.... 1 reason is becos i haven been ard at home... everyday i reach home, they are aslp liao...
and even if im at home... i oso got no voice to tok.... no energy to tok... no mood to tok.... so nv tok much lo.... so sorry....

btw we took a pic tog... hahaha.. wif yang's new phone...
lolz... whole family wor... family pic.. keke...

im happy tonite....

oh ya... i suddenly remembered smth... lolz...
tat nite after the hark... lolz... me kaida and angela took a cab home... hahaha...
the lucky guy... always have we 2 gals ard him.. haha...

kk on the cab... i dunno wat happened la... i suddenly have tears in my eyes... i wasnt tinking abt anything... i wasnt sad or wat...
but i jus had tears...
kaida say i cry AGAIN..!! wah lao... where got...
lik tat will spoil my reputation de lo... i dun always cry in front of ppl de lo... hahaha...

den he tried to console me... lolz... "tried to kiss me".. wahahahaha... i suddenly remember his v qian bian face.... lolz... almost made me vomitted... hahaha...
and angela keep making the vommitting sound...
they are both so cute... hahaha... im so lucky to have such cute frenz...
we were saying angela sld wind down the window and vomit... den her vomit will all 'fly' to the behind cars... hahaha...
suay for them lo... esp cyclist... hahahaa...

love kaida's broad shoulder.... hahaha... always there for us to lean on....
wahahhaa.. his shoulder is really broad lo...
so man..!! hahaha... pui..!!
haha...
anyway thanks for the pats... hahaha... he patted me on my head alot times le....
i really feel v comforted when ppl does tat... thanks wor..!!

wah... saw hark's blog..
there's new songs..!!! yeah..!!!!
songs i like currently.... ni yao de bu shi wo, ai xiao de yan jing and jielun's songs..!!!
wah...
this week the live band will be performing some of the songs... wondering who will be singing... hahahaha... eddie or philip or amos?? lolz... other than philip im fine with the other 2... hahaha...
i v bad hor... =P

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11:14 PM

goodbye

i really tot im ok......
but actually im not...
jus putting up a brave front... but in fact im still weak on the inside....

i didnt noe how to react.....

haiz... i feel tat we have nth much to tok abt alady....

its the same as b4....

i oso dunno wat im tinking abt le... goodbye..

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12:49 PM

Friday, January 12, 2007

broke again..

3rd day of sch... haha.. i still dun understand the lecturer's english... hahaha...
jialat leh....
lolz....
and my memory is still the same... hahaha... having a hard time remembering ppl.... lolz...
i noe who are the guys in my OG.... but i cant rem their names... hahahaha.. and when we exchanged numbers... i so paiseh.. have to keep asking their names...
hahaha...
now i still dunno who is who.....
aiya.. nvm... i got 3 yrs to rem.... hahahaha... i can take my time....

wah... den hor.. ytd and today's lecture theatre hor... the chair is making me seasick... hahaha...
felt v giddy and slpy when sitting on the chair.... lolz...

ytd i went out wif miss lee after sch.... went to orchard.... shopping.. hehe.... but we onli shopped awhile... cos i really tired le.... hahaha... so lousy...
she oso say i now so weak le... no more stamina le....
haiz... ya lo... i used to be able to shop the whole day de.... den nw... its like onli few hrs... den im tired le.... jialat... lousy neh....
haiz...

sad tat im sick... cos each time after getting sick.... my singing skills sure deteriorate de...
it used to be ok few yrs ago.... each time i fall sick, i lose my stamina.... until now.... hahaha.. my singing jus sucks....
and after this time, it'll jus get worse....
haiz....
i used to tink i might have a chance to sing demo.... erm.. if i met the right ppl.. hahaha...
but now.. its like really no chance at all.... lolz....
nvm la... its jus my interest... hahaha...
now i'll jus have to concentrate on other ppl's singing..... mine is no hope le.... haiz.... ~_~"

today didnt feel like goin to sch de.... cos it's raining.... sian... hate rainy days....
somemore feel giddy after i woke up... haiz... no voice oso...
wah... and i dun even have mood to dress up le... hahaha.. its onli the 3rd day... and im bored le....
lolz...
but in the end i still went to sch la.... sch fees is ex... and i dun wan to leave an impression tat im always pontening... hahaha.... wait ppl dun wan to grp wif me for projects... lolz....

but after sch.. i went to town... to meet Dion... waited for her to knock off... den saw smth i sldnt see... =.="
nvm... dun wish to tok abt it.....
we went to cine for dinner.... after dinner it was raining lo... den we dun have umbrella.. so she took out her JUICE mag... lolz... tats our shelter... den went to taka....
i bought a top at ZARA... yea.... another non-revealing top... hahaha... means i can wear to sch....
haha.... she oso bought a top... hee...
den we went to kino to read... lolz.... seldom see me at kino de la....
after tat.. we went to wisma... den shop at sasa.... lolz....
like shop v long lo... cos when we came out of the shop.. its like almost 10pm le.... den we go home lo...
took the train to marina den rebound back.... v long time nv do so le...haha...

im so chuan again nw.... the weather is really no good...
haiz... really dun feel like spending money to see doc again....
cos last mth's phone bill + the recently shopping has made me broke again le....
and somemore i bought txtbooks which cost over $100... haiz...
used up most of my allowance le...
coming few weeks have to eat wind liao le... hahahaha....

wah.. sian.. nxt sat got lecture sia....
1st time to study on a sat.... ~_~"
have to wake up so early... den at nite... wont be able to slp again le... cos our anthony is ben zhou ge shou on tat nite.... and we'll be celebrating his bdae after hark...!!
meaning... no slp again..!! Great..!! hahahaha....
kk... tink we'll onli continue the celebration if he hasnt die in weicai's hand...
wahahahaha... cos weicai is goin to make him drunk..!!! lolz... Jiayou oh Kaida..!! hahahaha...

hmm... actually i feel like drinking the drink tat weicai said will die after drinking de... hahahaha... i see baowen nv die tat day.... so i tink i wont die oso lo... keke...
and tat time i tried abit... its actually quite nice lo....
hahaha... so i feel like trying... can i..?? hee... :P

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11:42 PM

Thursday, January 11, 2007

4kg a mth..!! Hahaha..

1st day of school was ok.....
'weida' still looks like weida... hahahaha...

one v big problem is... i dun understand the lecturer's english....
jialat leh... wan to copy notes oso cannot catch wat she's saying....
she's frm china.... not i look down on china ppl's english la.... but den she tok lik wan to act ang moh... den somemore wanna gek the slang... haiz... gives us more difficulty in understand wat she's saying....
her 'accounting'.. she can pronounce it as 'ka-ni'.... =.=" wat the....
'ten'... she pronounces it as 'tong'.... ~_~"
lik tat how to understand ah???
haiz.... heng she's onli wif us for this week.... but this week i'll be having 3 accounting lectures.... jialat lo....
anyway... for this whole mth... the accounting lectures is onli for this week... hahaha....
meaning it'll be a mth later when i have my nxt accounting lecture after fri....

after lecture, i went to town le... actually wanted to meet Dion... hahaha... onli asked her to acc me while i have to wait for Kaida and Angela.... but she suddenly tell me she's tired le... so i ask her to go home 1st lo.... den meet another day bah...
haiz... i was alady reaching le leh... den i alight at heeren lo... walk back to orchard mrt to wait for them.....

hahaha... i cant walk much leh.... my cough lik tat hor... jialat leh... makes me v tired after walking... hahaha... old liao le...
den chi chi de waited for them to come lo...
wah... so qiao... me and angela wear machiam couple wear neh... lolz.. pink top and denim skirt... lolz... and our pink is similar lo... haha... so qiao..

when our singer come... we head to lido de party world liao lo.. for the audition....
lolz... ernest is still the judge... hahaha... i didnt dare to make and eye contact wif him... pai seh la... scarly if our singer got in liao.. den ppl say xian hua mah... hahaha....
but he v professional oso la... so wont let ppl wu hui de lo...
wah... kaida really sing until v jialat lo... cannot make it.... dun tink he'll make it to the nxt round.... hahaha
go on stage so many times le.. dunno still jin zhang for wat lo... tsk tsk tsk...
cannot make it la.. hahhaa...

after he sang he oso v disappointed... cos he noe he sang badly... hahaha.. paid $10 to sing badly... haiz.. bo bian... sing liao.. cannot re-sing oso...
haha.. when we left.. i got say bye bye to the judges la... i still v polite de lo... hee..

after the audition.. we went to far east.... to eat dinner... spent $15 to eat a lousy dinner... lolz.. really bo hua la... see the egg sian liao... hahaha...
den we go walk walk awhile... cos kaida say he wanna buy clothes.... during the ben zhou ge shou he oso dunno wat to wear.. hahaha...
but nv see anything nice...

he said wanna take bus to hark... cos v far... hahaha.. den me and angela argued tat we can walk there... actually its really quite near lo....
in the end he say ok lo.. den we walk there... den shop shop on the way oso mah... go heeren de addidas... wah.. i saw a men's jacket v nice neh... but its men's de....
den we oso went in to levis... he tried on 2 shirts... hmm.. i like the white one.. hahaha... guys wear white v shuai lo... hahaha...
but in the end oso nv buy la... lolz...
den we walk walk to hark le...
when we reached ard meridien there.... i really cannot make it le leh... wah.... sld have listened to kaida take bus there la... haiz.... but i didnt tell them....
really v tired lo... hahaha... im really getting weaker and weaker....

finally we reach hark.. wah.. its the v cold couple hosting.... hahaha..
hark de ppl were surprised to see us.. hahaha.. cos we seldom go there on weekday de.. liyan looked v happy to see us.. haha... and youwei oso... weicai was there too.. hahaha.. surprise..!!!
wah.. its really kinda empty lo.... mens nite.... onli a few tables were occupied...
it ended early oso... ard 11+
when we were abt to leave... hahaha... liyan suddenly ask us all to take part in the live bi yi bi... lolz... today got no contestant..!!!! wah.... jialat leh.. hahaha..
i cant take part... im really sick.. hahaha.. even if im not sick.. i oso wont take part de la.. lolz... den kaida and angela didnt wan to take part oso... hahaha.. ke lian de youwei... cant find anyone else le..

ytd amos was not ard... hahaha... they all v shiok lo... wu fa wu tian le... hahahaha... boss not ard den can lik tat play lo... hahaha..
wah.. den they even go on stage to sing and play lo.. hahaha...

ytd i reached home den i buay tahan le... checked my mail for awhile.. den i go slp le...
maybe i've been staying up till v late all these while.... tats y im so weak....
ytd sld be one of the earliest day i slp recently le bah... slp at 12+... haha...

im still tired now.... woke up at 7+.... ~_~"
wats wrong wif me... y cant i slp abit longer... so ming ku de...
den feel so giddy now...

wah... since the china trip hor... i tink i lost abt 4kg le... hahaha....
its onli 1 mth... wah seh.. if 1 mth can lose 4kg den v good hor... hahaha....

later have to prepare the notes for today's lecture le... dun wanna carry so many things... haha...
today still goin shopping wif hui... hahaha...
no need rest le...
no time to see doc... maybe nxt week have to go see again... cos the cough really getting more and more jialat le... hahaha...
i wanna go watch youtube now le.. haha.. tata~

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9:36 AM

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

1st day of sch today..!!

seems like i've been blogging alot these few days....
hahahaha... cos i really got nth to do....

haiz... received an sms this morning... a v bad news...
haiz....
baoling de father pass away last nite.... cos of heart attack...
tats v sad lo... haiz....

anyway today is a brand new start.... today is the 1st day of school....
my lesson start at 2pm... hahaha.. tats y im still at home now...

but sian neh... i cant tok much....
1st day of sch... wait ppl tink i v dao...
hahaha.. m i tinking too much....

i can really feel tat my lungs r v tired le... can anyone save me???
v chuan lo...
haiz... not unusual tat i have to see the doc for a few times b4 i can get well...

jus scared later lecture den i keep coughing... hahaha... disturb ppl...
i v considerate de wor... haha..
hahaha.. ult says i cant do anything vigorous now le... ya lo.. too bad... lolz..

i tink i can get over liao le bah....

nv try to change urself to suit another person... its ok if u change ur habit... but nv change ur character....
thats not the real u anymore....
one day when u cant take it anymore... the real u will be revealed...
and when tat day comes... tats the ending...

haiz.... im so tired now.....
feel like slping....
didnt slp well last nite... cos of my cough....
maybe tonite i shall tell them dun go hark le.... go for the audition can le.. maybe go walk walk lo... hahaha...

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9:16 AM

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Do Not Cry... Hahaha.. direct translation..

不准哭

我把自己反锁在空荡荡的房屋
感谢你让我想个清楚因为爱你所以我不做你的包袱
我不需要谁温柔安抚
请放心 我很快能恢复
找到一个人陪我漫步
不准哭 我不要装可怜无辜
挡住你的路 挡不住你追逐
不准哭 我更应该微笑祝福
祝你找到对的幸福
如果我消失不见 你在乎不在乎
别含含糊糊 我很在乎
因为爱你所以我选另外一条路
离开是我的最後让步
爱情就到这里结束
我们不得不 不得不屈服 只能笑
不准哭 我不要装可怜无辜
挡住你的路 挡不住你追逐
不准哭 我更应该微笑祝福
祝你找到对的幸福
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its the 1st time i have so much tears for a person... hahaha... but enough is enough....
i really need to get out of this shit....

hahaha... i started to T_T again after the 2 days onli... hahaha... useless rite...

haiz.... someone told me not to act strong le.... wan to cry jus cry....
but now... i really tink i sld stop all these le....
im now almost equivalant to a dead person.... heart is dead... it stopped beating the 1st day of 2007.... maybe it sld stop beating earlier de....

its really not worth it...
watever i wished for.... its jus making me more and more disappointed.... becos i will pin higher hopes on it...
no one can get wat i wished for in their minds....
no one cares.....

the song is "hao Peng you"
but can we still be hao peng you?? he's jus making things hard to happen....
i do not wan to give any pressure oso... i'll take watever comes.....
tats wat i can do....

haiz... tmr goin to start sch liao le....
3 hrs of accounting lesson.... wah... heng its in the afternoon... i dun have to get up too early... haha...

dunno wat to wear tmr... hahaha.... have to start planning my clothes le.... lolz....
and tutu... y say me until so old~~ haiz....
she say the young ppl cannot take it... see me wear too revealing.... =.="
wei.... its onli a few yrs difference lo.... and nowadays de young ppl wear more li hai than me lo.... i m small case lo... hahaha....

tmr after sch... will go support my idol for his talent quest audition..!! hahahaha... and ernest is really doing talent quest lo... hahaha... i asked him... lolz..
hmm... most likely will go bah.... lolz....
and after the audition.... we'll head to hark without baowen... cos he poor thing.. tmr nite got lesson... haha... tmr is men's nite...
aiya... feel like saving up... but den... ppl ask me to where den i go where lo.... cos as i said le... i'll take wat comes.... i'll follow wat ppl tell me to do lo....
if not i oso dunno do wat.. dunno go where.... haha..

oh ya... hark has yyms members de pics on it..!!! hahaha... during the countdown for 2007 de... hahaha... but my name is spelled wrongly... =.="

and tokking abt hark... lolz... remind me of the fierce nan ren.... hahahaha....
he's really a weird guy....
machiam writing essay in frenster msg.... wah... tell me where he stay... so detailed for wat... hahaha.. im not interested... and tell me abt his past r/s.... hahaha.. not interested either....
he msged my dear as well... lolz..... write a whole list of fei hua leh....
haiz... kinda bo liao...
but im oso bo liao to reply his msg....
kk i dun reply to everyone's msg... but becos he is hark's regular... tats y... hahaha...
i seemed to be part of hark le.... lolz...

hope tmr will be a brand new start..
Gambate..!!! ^_^

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7:54 PM

Worsen...

wah... jus received a msg frm si li.. hahaha.. my new fren la... she told me i was exempted frm Business Computing... hahahaha...
yeah..!!
means im taking less one module.. so good..!! hahaha...
wah.... den average i'll onli be schooling 2-3 days per week..!!
most of the time, i onli have 1 lesson per day.... except for one day in March... will have to go for a full day lesson....
since there's so little lesson, i shall try to be good... and dun pon teng for the whole sem..!!!!
hahahaha...
unbelievable rite..!! kekekeke....
school fees is ex lo... taking 3 modules 1 sem and it costs 5K+..!!! cant waste la....

dunno whether eddie's goin for the BC tmr anot... im exempted... so he sld be exempted oso bah.. hehe.... good luck lo... lolz...

good... my cough is really getting worse... and somemore its raining... started to rain last nite... and weather is cold today... tats y i keep coughing... hahahaha... i can really feel the pain le... lolz...
my med is almost finsihing.... onli left the antibiotics and Vit C....

y r guys always so selfish.... they jus dun tink for others de... haiz...
maybe everyone is selfish la....

one more thing i seriously dun understand....
y do some religion de ppl keep asking ppl to follow their religion... converting to their religion..
everyone has their own right to believe in the god which they wan to believe in mah....
i tink there's no point to ask ppl to believe in another god....
if he/she can convert to another religion, there's oso a chance tat he/she can convert to Another religion again de mah... no loyalty liao le lo....
haiz....

at 1st i dun mind ppl trying to ask me to believe in their god.... becos i respect tat everyone believes tat their god is good and thus hope tat everyone will have the same believe....
haiz... but i'll get irritated if these gets too often..... its really annoying...

stop bragging abt how good ur god is... keep it in ur heart will do....
i would greatly appreciate it... and i will respect de lo....

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12:01 PM

Secret Revealed....

the secret is revealed..... hehehe...
the 2 guys in yyms.... oooo

he's slping?? hahaha... no..!! he jus doesnt wan to get down... and wants to slp wif us gals..!! hahahaha... wat a lucky man... haha

oooo... the secret is revealed... there's smth goin on btwn these 2.... hmm...

slping pig....

they are tog again.... Lolz...

so loving.. someone's still trying to act shuai... haiz.. buay tahan...

this is the most shuai pic ever taken..!! hahaha... look so quiet... cos he's really slping... haha..

buay tahan the one in green..!!! ninja turtle with a twist..!!

wah... baowen is trying to kiss kaida le...

so ke lian... he jus drank few cups of red wine onli.. and he's all red... haha

kk.... dun look so ke lian... yy alady make honey water for u le... haha...

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10:24 AM

Monday, January 08, 2007

avoid dusty places

im sooo tired now.... feel like slping le... but gotta wait for aunty to come....
tink still have to wait for abt 2 hrs bah....

soooo tired.....

forgotten doc's advise... hahaha.. AVOID DUSTY PLACES..... and oso air con.. haha.. i on the aircon last nite... :P
hahaha... cos of my airway la.... ma fan de...
i packed my room again the whole afternoon.... kk jus part of my room.... cos there's really really too much to be packed....
thrown away all my poly notes now... hahaha.... i tot one day i might use it.. tats y i kept it... but its really useless la... cos i wont go and read up de lo... and i dun even bother to go and take out all the notes and read de lo.....

the notes are v dusty.... my whole room is dusty.... im such a karang guni.... keke...
there were alot of un-used cosmetics... which have to be thrown away... cos its really been kept too long... hahaha.. found out i kept alot boxes oso... empty boxes... like the perfume box, the cosmetic box, bla bla bla.... dunno y i kept it.. and didnt use it....

kk.. shoe boxes are v useful... hahaha.... cos i used it to seperate my stuffs....
and i found out tat i have lots of contact lens..!! enough for me to last for more than a year bah... haha... and i usually use my mthly disposible contact lens for more than 1 mth... cos i always forgot when i changed it... hahaha...
and i jus bought a few bottles of the contact lens solution.... so i got 1 full box of contact lens and solution..!!! hahaha...

my things are really v dusty.... cos i keep coughing.... and feel v chuan... hahaha...
im like almost committing suicide.... lolz...

mama's complaining abt my cough... i cant control de mah.... =.=" she say its the chalet i went... but chalet is sooo long ago liao le lo...
haiz... watever la... now im sick.. jus let me cough bah....

im looking for shi sinhuey's song neh... cant find de.... sian...

im so tired now.... really feel like goin to slp liao le... haiz..

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9:10 PM

haha... seen me??

lolz....
the v fierce nan ren bu gai rang nu ren liu lei de jarrod msged me in frenster....
he's the champion for sept's live bi yi bi..... same mth as angela.....

lolz.. he said he seen me ard his neighbourhood while jogging..... and usually he jog at sun plaza tat area.... lolz.....
dunno y but i jus felt abit ridiculous la...

one more thing i felt v ridiculous abt de is the other day..... i answer one call....
he told me he is kelvin... lolz....
there's nth wrong wif being kelvin..... but den the problem is... when i noe him... he told me his name is Terry...
hahahahha.... he has alot of names hor.... his name in frenster was randy.... and now its michael....
y cant he jus stick to 1 name?? i dun understand....
hahaha... when he told me he is kelvin... i told him i dunno him... lolz..
bo liao la...

haiz... jus called up SIM.... dunno whether im exempted anot....
den they say will have to wait for the approval... dunno by when.... =.="
jus hope i can be exempted.... haiz....

and y does my surname have to start wif Z.... im always the last one.... haiz....
sian...
whole course de ppl.. im the last in the list... i dun like to be the last neh...
hahaha....
aiya... den those few ppl i noe frm the orientation... they in grp 1 de.... different grp frm me.... how... i'll be alone again when sch starts.. haiz....

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10:58 AM

Sunday, January 07, 2007

3rd post today..!! haha

my 3rd post for the day... hahaha... cool..!!

went to aunty's hse jus now.... she returned me my bags...
brought my dinner over to her hse... haha.. bo liao hor.. cant eat at my own hse... lolz..
den we watched a movie... thai movie... its really a v stupid movie lo...
so lame....
feel like falling aslp when i was watching.... hahaha....

den i was chit chatting wif aunty... a call came... den i went home straight after le....
i tink i wasnt v emotionally stable tat moment.... didnt wan to let her see me lik tat.... so went home...
haha....

i really wasnt trying to console anyone... im jus saying wat i feel.... how i tink things will be...
i might not be right.... but tats wat i feel....

and im jus not myself to ask them those qn..... i cant find myself back.....
i dunno wat i have to do... i dunno wat i wan to do... i dunno anything.....
jus felt v aimless....
yes i've changed.... i cant even recognise myself.....
i really dunno anything... haiz....

suddenly lsj tok to me so much.... hmm.... y all of a sudden??
becos he's leaving den he decided tat he sld unblock me and chat wif me???
hahahaha..... now he's still chatting wif me... lolz..

i really hate guys who flirt when they have gf....
alady have gf... still say miss me???
i tink tat is v not right bah.... haiz...

i really felt v comfortable when kaida pat me on my head tat day.... hahaha.... thanks....
ya... all i need is a pat.... or a hug... jus to make me feel better for the time being... hahahaha....

anyway i still hope u can share ur sorrows wif me.... cos it really pains me to see u getting fan over things....

anyway im really not v happy wif a fren la... hahaha.. complained abit to someone else... lolz... den noe tat actually tat someone else doesnt really like her... aiyo....
she has the same feeling as me.... and she complained to me abt my tat fren....
say she not auto... felt tat she's taking advantage of me becos im too kind....
lolz... i cant be too kind if im tinking bad abt her......
oooo i felt so bad....
guilty... haiz.... she used to be such a close fren.... and now im talking bad abt her...
im evil..~~
hmm... im really v bad to be tinking bad of a fren....

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10:47 PM