Saturday, May 13, 2006
Lost....
YuCai told me he tink he saw "him"... ya... HIM...
although his description abit vague... haiz... i still tink there's a possibility tat its my him...
my heart didnt beat faster.... not like the usual me... when i hear abt him... or when i see him... my heart beats faster... fast until i feel that my heart will jump out...
im feeling abit depressed... dunno y.. jus felt that me and him are really not fated... there were a few times yucai called me and tell me he saw him...
today... sihui asked me to go... rejected her... anyway she wanted to go in the noon... probably wont see him.. den kaida asked me to go too... i rejected him too...
i seldom reject them de... today i sldnt have rejected.... now so disappointed...
these few days... feeling kinda lost.... like i have nth to look forward to... i lost him... i lost ultraman... aunty is always wif her bf.... now ah siao got bf... parents always say sacarstic things to me... though they didnt say it directly... or they may not mean it... but i feel sad...
felt like crying.... not onli now... ya.. these few days... i onli tok these to certain ppl.. but now i dun have anyone i can tok to le...
i oso dunno y will become lik tat... i tot i come back frm tw.. i will be a happier person... everytime i go on tour... i come back v happy de... this time its different...
nw my heart lik v sour... duno hw to describe... like v xin suan.... den when i see some ppl online... jus online onli... the feeling is stronger...
haiz... i really dun like this kind of feeling... faster go away....
sweet dreams;
11:16 PM
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